I don’t want to do this any more :(

[Drowwning]

Up all night, on all day. I just can’t do it. There are lovely moments and I do love them but I had no idea the level of relentlessness coming for me.

Try pure essential lavendar oil in the bath water.
Also add few drops on their pillow/bedding.

My god, what is he good for?

I had to reply. You poor thing. I haven't read the full thread; I don't blame you for not wanting to do this any more.
Your DH sounds like a mirror image of my 'D' P.
I refused to have a 2nd child with mine (DD is now 6) but I can only image how you feel.
I'm still run ragged but once the child (ren) sleep through the night you feel more equipped to handle whatever the day throws at you.
Take any help offered with both hands.
Be kind to yourself.
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Could your DH take them to the park tomorrow while you rest? I’m sorry you feel so shit at the moment.

Seems like the only bedrest you would get is if you were an in patient in hospital, for say a good week.

Just read your updates OP.
What I do is when I want some time to myself is I prepare everything and spell it out for DDs dad.
Clothes, food ,drinks, what to do with her in x scenario, etc.
Sometimes I compose a long text message days before.
It's shit and totally ridiculous but sometimes men are clueless and lazy and need to be told.
Yes I know this is being a martyr!

Solidarity from me, similar situation here, a lot of what you've written could be me. Keep joking about leaving the baby in the garden for the night which I never would but the idea of an unbroken night's sleep - living the dream! And a day without a grumpy threenager behaving as if they've gone deaf - bliss. Sadly neither break will be coming my way anytime soon.