Hi, "junior doctor" here.
Long time lurker but couldnt read and run, theres just so many misconceptions on this thread. Day off today having officially worked in the past week 4x12hr shifts and 3x8hr shifts so that's 72hrs. In reality, the 12 hr shifts all have 2x half an hour of handover either side as a minimum and the 8hr shift were about 9.5hrs worked plus 1 x half an hour handover at the start. I'm exhausted so cant be bothered to do the maths but clearly worked quite a lot for free. Why? Because I couldn't just clock at 9pm when I finish. It's a desperate state of affairs, the vast majority of us stay extra hours 1)so that the mega sick patients are attended to, doesnt matter if the patient with a heart attack or stroke was brought to my attention at 8.59 or infact even at 9.40pm when I've handed over got changed, bag on ready to go (that could have been you/your relative/my loved one or a stranger. The job will still be done thoroughly to the best of my ability despite probably starving now and letting down my own loved ones at home. , and 2)to try to make a dent in the workload for the doctor I'm handing over to who probably also hasnt had enough of a rest/sleep post nights.
I can see posts about "doctors signed up to this" - not really, it wasn't like this when we made the decision years ago. Certainly, our children didn't sign up to this. Promising your child you'll be home at 7pm (when really you should finish by 5 and home by 5.30, but say 7 to avoid disappointment and STILL frequently let them down) is exhausting and feels cruel.
What I should be doing now on my day off is studying. Studying for an exam I have paid several hundreds for (I cant remember exactly how much, I think around £580). I have already done several postgraduate exams. For the first time in my life, I failed an exam recently. Why, because there were several shifts over the winter that had NO cover. Consultants don't step down because often its been decades since they've done that kind of work. Same reason they will openly admit they are struggling now during the strikes. Why me? Because the doctor on nights needs to go home to sleep, the one starting the subsequent night needs to rest before coming in to relieve me, the one thats just worked the entire weekend before or the one coming is also out. That left about 2-3 of us. Between us we did what we could to pick up shifts. This included Christmas and New Years. Many more children of doctors again left disappointed. Also missed a Christmas period wedding, for which my husband was in the wedding party. Yet we felt grateful that he managed the day off.
We have long-distanced for years. We are both hospital doctors "training" in different specialities. We both get moved around the country. We both still do exams - there are a lot. We both have vast amounts of debt. We both pay rent and bills for our respective work flats as well as parking and commuting. This isnt sustainable and we are looking to finally buy our first home, in the hope that one of us can start living in it and one day if and when we complete training and become consultants -will aim to work in the same region so we can live together.
We have friends from university who did other degrees earning far more, own their home, started a family at a much younger age and are happy. I wouldnt say I'm not happy but I am exhausted. I am unhappy to have failed that most recent postgraduate exam which is putting that end goal even further. It shouldnt be about the end goal, it should be about the here and now given that I have been working in this for years now. Some of my colleagues will never become a consultant. All of my colleagues got a minimum of AAA when I applied to university (I got all As/A*s in GCSEs and Alevels, not a brag but trying to illustrate how rigorous post graduate medical training is). Nobody is training or teaching me in tangible way. We study after our long hours, when the kids are put to bed for whatever time we get.
I haven't even gone into what each of us do for work, just conscious of time and would like to get some studying in. In a nutshell, we both do very different specialties, but both make acute "senior" decisions. By senior, I mean that nobody is being consulted before making these decisions. The consultants are not on sight. Our more junior juniors are also flying solo doing their own thing, but when they need advice they call me and generally I have an answer for them. I think the last time I reached out to my senior - the consultant was at the end of January (I still remember the case like it was yesterday, it was complex and all the consultant could do was provide verbal support on the phone, which is enough). It is not unusual for the F1 doctor, the most junior junior dr to be first at the scene and initiate immediate management before escalating for senior support. We are all "junior doctors".
I have friends who long left the system, some straight after university and some at various points after. Many of whom are in Australia, earning more than double what I do and work less than half the hours, I think this works out doing about a quarter of the work for the same pay. I cannot blame them for leaving. I don't want to leave the UK but I do fantasise about it sometimes and wouldn't be surprised if one day we did leave. I have more roots now than single UK-based friends who are actively taking steps - one recently started working on a cruise ship. I don't think she'll come back.
Apologies if this has all been a great big ramble.