To ask you to remind me not to smoke weed

[Dontchewitcharlie]

Feeling depressed and this is when I start wanting to smoke weed.
I know it's bad and I had a terrible breakdown from it last year but my brain is telling me just get one joint and that's it.

Please talk some sense into me. I have no friends for support.

You'll feel more depressed and the cycle will continue

Allow your brain time to create its own feel good hormones

It's been a few days. I was actually out walking around with my son trying to find someone to buy it from yesterday 😪

Chronic here, smoked for 20 years, clean for just over 4 years, it gets so much better I promise. I can even smell wafts of the shit coming from the neighbours without wanting it now.

Don't do it, especially with your son with you. I know its like getting an audience with the pope, but have you tried to speak to your gp? I've found with mental health issues we've been able to get appointments fairly quickly. Be completely honest about the weed and your mental health. You know btw that weed has a detrimental effect in the long term.

This is the time when I really need some savage mumsnetters to have a go at me

You can't be out with your child buying drugs. This is going to end in a referral to children's services if you are seen and reported. Please try to see your Dr or contact the Health visitor (presume young child) to talk about how you are feeling.

I'm lonely that's thr problem.
My only friends have been food and drugs.
I have no idea on how to make friends and it hurts.
I don't have any social media as that made it worse.

Download the I am Sober app to help motivate and support you. Or you could seek help from Change Grow Live.
Your son and future self will thank you. Good luck

One day at a time. Delete dealer's numbers, get rid of any weed smoking paraphernalia, if you burn candles or anything else stop. Find monotonous things to do that don't involve much brain power. Stay away from anyone else who smokes.

This is the time when I really need some savage mumsnetters to have a go at me ha ha, in that case, ffs get your arse down to your gp as soon as they open! Sorry that's as harsh as it gets, but well done on lasting a few days so far and keep it up. X

It's disgusting. Don't do it.

My friend has recently quit. He started like you but over the years it escalated to a true addiction before he even realised.

Hes finding the withdrawal/cold turkey really tough. Its affected his mood, his sleep, his anxiety. He told me he wishes he'd never started and it wasn't worth it.

Like you, he had/has depression and it became a crutch that he couldn't live without very quickly. I'm trying to help by being there to talk and going out to exercise with him as a distraction but it's horrible to see how a drug that users say is "harmless" has ruined his life.

Dont let it get to that stage. I manage my own depression with exercise and supplements. You can go to your GP too. You owe it to your son to get control of this now.

@Dontchewitcharlie I’m afraid I’m not at all savage and I don’t do judgment! But I want to wish you all the strength to get through this 💗 My DP gave up a few years ago, he feels so much better and I’ve noticed such an improvement in his mental health. Keep going, one day at a time. Much love xx

I don't have any paraphernalia as I threw it al away last summer, and I changed my phone number :)

Treat each day as a money saving. Mine was £20 a day. Add the days up. Find something else nice but not harmful to spend that money on.

I'd be OK if I didn't have a leg injury. I usually run but had to stop to rest my leg.

How old is your son? Do you have other children? Do you have a partner?

and I saw a thread about someone who had to stop running and it got me thinking great this is going to be me now.

Do you still smoke normal cigarettes or tobacco

Nooooo I don't like that....surprisingly.

Speak to someone professional. Walking around outside with your little child trying to buy drugs is so sad and bleak for him. Imagine that was your memory of your mum - it’s really irresponsible too, committing crimes and getting high while in sole charge of your child. When life comes to this you need to speak to somebody like your GP/health visitor and get proper help.

How old is your son?

Look at the other things you can do to help

Don't do it, weed messes with your brain if you smoke it long term (our lecturers used to say it to us all the time). Stay strong x

I've been weed free for 11 years. I lived with a chronic smoker when I stopped. God knows how I did that. Just kept myself busy, cleaning, reading, walking, anything. After a few months I wouldn't dream of touching it again. Some people can smoke it occasionally or once a day, I am not one of those people. I don't judge those who smoke that way but the constant all day every day smokers, I do. Sounds like things were pretty bad for you to be trailing your child around hunting for it. Find something else to do, it gets easier after a couple of weeks, then easier as time goes by. I sit next to people having a smoke and I'm still not tempted. You can get there too.