To ask you to remind me not to smoke weed

[Dontchewitcharlie]

Feeling depressed and this is when I start wanting to smoke weed.
I know it's bad and I had a terrible breakdown from it last year but my brain is telling me just get one joint and that's it.

Please talk some sense into me. I have no friends for support.

DD came with me to the coffee shop basically from birth. Once she got to the point where she wasn't content to sit in her buggy I'd sit her on my knee or in a high chair and we'd read one of her books together or people watch and make up stories about the people we saw through the window.

Most coffee shops do little cups of warm milk either free or very cheap for kids.

Apologies if I've missed it op but how old is your little boy?
Looking after little ones can be very lonely and in all honesty utterly boring sometimes!

Even a part time job that covers nursery costs might be good for you, focus on making some changes to help with the loneliness, groups, hobbies.Not saying social media is the answer, and sometimes it can make matters worse but in your case would it help you feel more in touch with others.

My ex smokes it occasionally, although not around the kids but his flat stinks, they come home and the smell is so strong on their clothes and hair, they are straight in the shower and clothes washed.
You don't want your son going to school and his friends or teachers questioning him about it.

He just turned 2.
No social media as no friends so no point.
I was just low because my knee hurt and I can't run. I'm walking as much as I can and doing yoga. I rather enjoy not waking up at 4 in the morning to do a run actually and I don't need a nap when my son does. I suppose it's when my mind wanders.

If you have childcare for when you go for a run, could you use that same person to watch him while you do something else on your own?

Also, in the nicest possible way he'd be a lot better off eating cake than buying drugs with his mum, so I'd re-evaluate your priorities and if buying him a small cake in a coffee shop gives you back enough sanity to stop you needing to smoke weed, I would personally do that. Not every day, but on occasion.

Also, softplay is one of my favourite dc activities! It gets better when they're a bit older and can go in on their own. I get to read my book and have a coffee in peace - it's great

How about swimming? Can you do that with your leg? It's such gentle but positive exercise and counting lengths and strokes occupies the mind.

Cannot believe you're trotting your 2 year old around looking for drug dealers.
Fucking class.

You are walking your son round looking for drugs, that's not being a good mum and so that as he gets older he too will know what you are doing and then end up being a street kid smoking it too. My ex husband smoked weed outside the house as I refused to have it near the children and honestly weed smokers are so boring and lazy, they umph in life and just sit there with their glazed eyes looking like a demon, not to mention the cost why don't you spend that money on your son. Stop being a tramp and get some class

Mine never shown an interest in soft play, took him to places where they have it as part of the attractions but he'd rather run wildy outside.
It's hard to find time for yourself, I'm a single parent and live in fear of becoming ill or injured as who will look after DS? Best you listen to your body as you know your own limits. Hopefully you find time for the treatment you need soon.
When mine was in the buggy I skipped coffee shops. Pointless when they don't like being stationery in the buggy. I went to places with outdoor play areas or filled a flask and took it down the park.

Well done. You didn't cave. And go to the coffee shop and let him have the occasional cake! He'll love it so much.

Keep on keeping on, things will get better. Being on your own with a little one can be really isolating. Why not get in touch with Home Start? They'll help you 😊

You don't need to go through your GP. You can self refer to your local drug service. They will also help you to work with groups for support and give you information about the recovery community in your area.

Who was with your son when you were running at 4am in the morning OP?

My husband

Today and this thread has been great. I'm back in the correct head space and we've both had a great day.
The reason for no cakes is so that he can have treats at the weekends when we go to both sets of grandparents.

What is your husbands thoughts on the drug taking?

I'm lonely that's thr problem.

My only friends have been food and drugs.

it doesn’t seem like he plays much of a part in your life?

You’ve got a child. You owe it to them not to have a stoner for a mother. Ask your GP to refer you to your nearest drug counselling or rehabilitation service. No shame in being an addict - but you must stop.

It's all will power, cannabis isn't addicting in the slighest. You've got this op.

I mean I'm lonely in the sense I have no girl friends

Is your husband fully aware of the drug taking and taking his son out to score?

Why do you kicking me when I'm already down?

Have you not read my updates 😒

I’m guessing he’s not much better. My husband would have kicked my arse out the door if I’d taken our child out to trawl the streets for drugs.

I'm ashamed to say I hid it from him until I told him. He was furious understandably.

I'm leaving this thread now as people don't understand how to read all my posts.
I've screenshot the help that got my head out of that bad place and continuing to learn how to be a better parent.
Thanks to those who were hard on me:)

Try doing 30 days of yoga with Adrienne on youtube, it's easy and you can do it from home, with a low fitness level. Will help you feel less lonely and more healthy x
Chai tea is relaxing too!
Good luck xx