Secret Confessions thread 2

[ThePoorWeeDonkey]

I missed the boat on the first thread and really needed to get this off my chest. Apologies to original op.

I resent my dad for not dying instead of my mother. I absolutely adored her and now just feel negatively towards my father for being the one I'm left with. All of my other siblings/wider family adore him so I have never told anyone this irl, not even my DP.
I know it's disgusting but I'm hoping once my loss is not as fresh I will start to feel differently.

I have a giant crush on a completely oblivious male friend which has made me lose two stone since the spring.

Really hate the vacuous posts on Facebook of said local very wealthy wives/‘friends’ who don’t work. You’ve had a drink at a bar picture, really fxxxing interesting. All the fake comments from people in the town ‘Amazing’. This group of women are so judgemental of other people and complete bitches. All their ‘be kind’ Facebook posts and they are the worst bullies. Oh and most of their children are flakey as ‘fxxk’. But we all just keep playing the game, to be polite. Vile just vile.

I hate my sister in law. Congrats on having a baby. It doesn't make you special. She's a vacuous moron who has a dysfunctional upbringing and thinks having fancy cars makes you better than other people but she and my brother are just in debt

An old supervisor of mine made lots of people's lives a misery and I was pleased when she left.
She is the sort to put up things about mental health and 'be kind ' memes.
It is astonishing how some people can function.

Been madly in love with a guy well out of my league for years. Hes part of my social circle but only tend to be in the same place at the same time once or twice a year as he lives the other side of the country. He’s always been single (me too) and is totally my dream man. We always end up in bed together after these social events and then I spend weeks after in total loved Up AGONY at the thought of not seeing him again for months

i dream about him so much and I wake up the next day and it almost ruins my day as I know it was just a dream yet felt so real! And I feel utterly heart broken.

we usually text a couple of times a month but he has never shown a romantic interest in me and, cos he’s so out of my league, (even tho my friends say he’s not) I would never dare broach a suggestion of a romantic connection with him and I honestly don’t think he gives me a second thought, romantically.

he will always be a part of my life, purely cos of our social circle. I find it so strange this beautiful handsome successful man never has a woman on his arm; in all the years I’ve known him, he has always been single/- never married, no kids

i have never dated or met a man who comes close to how I feel about this particular guy

it’s only a realisation this week so I’m feeling a bit… wobbly and unsure if that makes sense? Maybe I’m being silly? I don’t know

but thank you :)

People that go 'omg you read the daily fail, you've posted a link to the DM, you're disgusting, we know all about who you are'

Most of the people I know who read the Daily Mail are women in their 30s and 40s who love to say how disgusting it is in public but avidly read in secret to enjoy being outraged 😅

I cheated on my ex with (I think) about seven different people including a woman and I'm not even into women. Well, he wouldn't go down on me and they would soo.

I also aborted his baby without his knowledge. I don't feel bad, I did everyone involved a favour, including the would-be child. He was an abusive cunt.

Everyone at work comments on how organised I am and how I can find the answers to problems and sort everything for them which is true but my home is a mess, it needs dusting and vacuuming, the loo needs a clean as does the bath and there’s a massive pile of ironing that consists mainly of my clothes. I just can’t motivate myself.

Perhaps he's waiting for you?

Talk to him. What can you lose? What might you gain?

I quite often turn my knickers inside out and wear them again the next day when I haven't done the washing (so quite often). I change my bed sheets every couple of months. Shower every 4 days. Can't remember the last time I washed my bra. I am one of the unmumsnetty great unwashed and I don't think I smell :)

I had a near death experience many years ago. I could feel myself rising above my body and fought it. I saw a demon and then a lady in white at the end of my bed.

Sellie555, if you always end up sleeping together when you do meet up , then there is obviously a clear attraction there and it's not just one sided on your part. Why not tell him how you feel? He hasn't had another partner or relationship, so there is nothing in your way really. Maybe he waiting for you to make the first move here?

sellie555 he sounds like a user
why do you think he’s too good for you? You’re way too good for him!

I hate my abusive ex so very much, I regularly wish a quick but extremely painful death on him.. If the police turned up to tell me he died, I'd fucking tap dance.

I'm also having the most amazing sexual relationship with a man who is married, separated and now has gone back to his wife for the sake of the children.. Neither of us feel bad about it or have any intentions to end it..

I know I would judge me if I was someone on the outside.

Sometimes I get so depressed I have sucidal feelings.
I really resent my partner for being so hands off with our son. Even after numerous of conversations that I need his help more nothing changes & all the caring of our son is left to me. It's my dream to sell our house & just me & my son to move into a static caravan.

@ImsotiredImsotired solidarity and hugs to you. I know how exhausting it is to 'adult' and appear as if everything is okay when you're constantly living out a disaster movie in your head.

Everyone has a secret

I absolutely love being a mummy & my son is honestly my whole world. I've been having health issues for the past 8 months & when I'm not feeling well it's hard to do it all by myself.
Some days I think it would be best to be a single parent as I am doing it all by myself anyway.

Everyone who knows me would be shocked but I’ve been doing things with the manager in the local supermarket carpark. He brings a handbasket and we get in the back seat of his car and I hold up my skirt and bleep at him whilst he scans tins of ham across my nonny.

I was hoping someone would start a second thread.

I have a massive and definitely reciprocated crush on another man. I think about him all the time but I love DH and would never cheat on him. I just love the thrill and fantasise about this other man so much.

I sometimes wish I could have 24 hours to do what I please without anyone getting hurt or doing any damage to either relationship.

I know I cant be alone with this one!

@Draughtycatflapreturns

Just too funny

I have a secret lover. We met online dating and have absolutely insane chemistry and a set of specific shared kinks.
No dates or relationship, sometimes not even a 'hello', just kinky sex with a few minutes small talk afterwards as we get dressed, a polite 'thanks. bye' and go home straight after.
No one else in either of our lives knows about it. It's been going on for almost a decade.
We have some shared interests and wider friends in common. At some point, I know we're going to end up being introduced to each other in a social setting and I'm still not sure how easily I'd hide that we already know each other very well, if only in one respect.
I also often look at other people and wonder how many of them are in similar situations.

No judgement- how do you manage to keep it a secret? How do you meet without anyone knowing? Just intrigued. Potentially taking notes

I shoplift from several shops every week. Just small bits and pieces but I find it so satisfying