Hi, I think I have a PMDD- I'm dreading every month- it feels like if a switch to a different person.
Sometimes it takes 10 days before period, sometimes less.
However this week is the worst in y life.
I came home from Tuesday afternoon and immediately felt like someone threw a thick black blanket over my head.
The whole house felt empty and unwelcoming ( which normally isn't), I had been irritated by everyone, had a massive mood swings- from sadness, loneliness, deep despair to anger episodes, feeling absolutely exhausted, crying. This night I had the worst nightmare in my life and I woke up absolutely terrified and in shock.
Today I still feel tired, out of myself, irritated and currently hiding in the bathroom ( husband is sleeping after night shift, kids downstairs) I cannot do it. I just cannot do it anymore. I have a non hormonal coil, I tried to call to my go but she's away till Monday.
I feel like a stranger in my own body, I do realise that somewhere deep there is me, but right now there's someone else. It's hard to explain.
My hubby is aware of the mood change before the period comes but Isn't aware have severe it actually is.
There's no family or friends around and I feel so out of myself like never before.