To ask what you’re doing awake post-midnight?

[5YearsLeft]

I had a day that just really banged me about, physically, emotionally, just all the ways, and now, I’m laying here awake and staring at the ceiling.

So why are you awake? Crying baby? Can’t stop thinking? Worried about something tomorrow? Pain somewhere in your body being an arsehole?

Welcome?

(That’s for you @Flashinggreen)

I’m not sure I would like the weighted feeling on my feet but i for the ideas

I think it’s just my body's way of dealing with the adrenaline

A win for me tonight slept 945-430. Just the wind disturbing my sleep now. Hope you are all ok.

@Flashinggreen The other option is to do something that gets your heart rate up and see if that can help “run off” the extra adrenaline. Try some kind of exercise? It sounds counter-intuitive but my friend swears it works for her. So it’s a bit the opposite: you can either try the comforting route (blanket, hot drink) or the “burn the adrenaline out” route (run or jumping jacks in place, run up and down the stairs if you have any, jump rope, etc). I can’t guarantee either will work, but it’s a start.

@autienotnaughty Ah, congrats! So glad to hear you managed to get some decent hours in. Sorry it’s blowing a gale, but sometimes I find listening to that soothing, too.

@5YearsLeft it's definitely better than waking to anxiety! How are you tonight?

Thanks for all the suggestions, currently thinking about reading to take my mind away

This one. Who thinks having a wee, THEN washing me to tell me about it, is house trained

@Flashinggreen Do you do Kindle books? I have some cheap, funny, cosy recommendations.

@autienotnaughty Same old, same old. I slept for a few hours earlier tonight, but I did my weekly injection today, so my joints aren’t so happy. It’ll be fine tomorrow.

@BastardGoDarkly Aw, that adorable face ALMOST makes up for it. Almost.

I do have a kindle. That is an option although it’s in my bedroom and trying so hard not to disturb DH

Ah. Well, when you get a chance, I always recommend the Lady Hardcastle mysteries on Kindle to people. They’re cheap, cosy, and have two great heroines living without the need of a male. And the plots move along at a nice, steady pace.

Thanks for keeping me company. May be contacting GP first thing for more advice..

Good morning. I’ve managed about three hours sleep a night for the last week. My lovely SIL is dying, the love of my DB’s life, an amazing person who puts everyone before her self. It has taken six weeks to go from normal to a cancer diagnosis last week to it being my DB being the only person allowed to see her in hospital but being able to be there all day. I am hundreds of miles away and feel so useless. I can’t make this better.

That sounds very tough

What a horrible, horrible shock.
Your poor family.

@Tinabn Oh gosh, that really is awful. Sometimes the speed at which these things move is so painful - it seems to go from diagnosis to hospice in the blink of an eye. I’m so sorry for your DB, and I’m sorry about the stress you’re feeling. I know that incredibly sinking-stomach feeling when you’re so far away and there’s just nothing you can physically do to help. But you can help, mentally, emotionally, and I’m sure you are, by letting your brother know you’re thinking of him and you’re always just a phone call away, and sometimes that’s the best we can do to say, “I’ll be here; you don’t have to be alone.” But no, no one can make it better, and I know how sad and unfair that is. Very best of luck in the coming days and weeks.

Thank you.
Can I tell you about her?
She loves her family above anything, has three wonderful children who love life, has become a surrogate mother to six children who have all lost their own mothers over the past five years, runs an inclusion unit in a school and puts them all above herself. My DB also works with vulnerable people and actually makes a difference, helping them to get qualifications, advocating for them. They don’t bother with money, they only want their family.
It is beyond unfair

@Tinabn Yes, of course you can tell us about her. This thread is for whatever reason you’re awake and if you’re awake thinking about her, then it’s for that, too.

She sounds like an amazing person who has made a huge difference in so many lives, especially for young people who really needed someone. The more I see, the more I come to the conclusion that there is nothing fair about who gets these diseases. They aren’t the result of “karma” or “fairness” and unfortunately, we will all know some arseholes who live until they’re 90. Maybe someday we’ll understand it all, or maybe we won’t. Cancer is just cells that don’t know when to stop, that didn’t get the message, “Hey, you bastards! Dont keep dividing! What the hell are you doing!” And it is absolute bollocks that it’s happened inside the body of someone who sounds as wonderful as your SIL. All you can do is keep living, and do what you can to live the way she would want you to live.

[quote 5YearsLeft]@Tinabn Yes, of course you can tell us about her. This thread is for whatever reason you’re awake and if you’re awake thinking about her, then it’s for that, too.

She sounds like an amazing person who has made a huge difference in so many lives, especially for young people who really needed someone. The more I see, the more I come to the conclusion that there is nothing fair about who gets these diseases. They aren’t the result of “karma” or “fairness” and unfortunately, we will all know some arseholes who live until they’re 90. Maybe someday we’ll understand it all, or maybe we won’t. Cancer is just cells that don’t know when to stop, that didn’t get the message, “Hey, you bastards! Dont keep dividing! What the hell are you doing!” And it is absolute bollocks that it’s happened inside the body of someone who sounds as wonderful as your SIL. All you can do is keep living, and do what you can to live the way she would want you to live.[/quote]
Wise words. Thank you. The dog has got me up so I will face the day.
Thank you everyone

@Tinabn I hope the dog and the day provide a little bit of distraction and if you find yourself awake in the days ahead and need to talk, usually someone is around. Good luck.

@Tinabn I think that @5YearsLeft has said it all. How tragic and ragingly unfair.

It may sound weird but you can send vibes of love to your DSIL and BIL to help,them cope, and tell them you are doing that. I swear that it makes a difference for all involved. No one wants to feel alone at these terrible and distressing times.

Maybe you could start collecting up your favourite photos of her to take you through some of your best memories, then send them, together with some of the stories you remember so that her DH can read them to her, even if she is asleep ? She will know that her life has been important and that she is dearly loved. X

[quote catwomando]**@Tinabn* I think that @5YearsLeft* has said it all. How tragic and ragingly unfair.

It may sound weird but you can send vibes of love to your DSIL and BIL to help,them cope, and tell them you are doing that. I swear that it makes a difference for all involved. No one wants to feel alone at these terrible and distressing times.

Maybe you could start collecting up your favourite photos of her to take you through some of your best memories, then send them, together with some of the stories you remember so that her DH can read them to her, even if she is asleep ? She will know that her life has been important and that she is dearly loved. X[/quote]
I told my DB that I was doing that yesterday, I believe there is a collective consciousness and was trying so hard to use it to hug him while she slept. We are ready to leave immediately if they need us, but at the moment we are superfluous, they need to have this precious time. We had hoped she would be able to go home for a few weeks but now it is seeming unlikely.
Your kindness is helping so much.

Thanks as always @5YearsLeft for your wise words. I was awake pretty much all night. I do not reply because it is so uncomfortable to use my phone is a lying position and sitting is too uncomfortable (weight on coccyx). So I just toss and turn which also hurts!! Thanks for suggestions. Very much. I am speaking to doctor again today as I have had Amitryptiline prescribed but made absolutely no difference to pain in the almost three weeks I’ve been taking it. I hope you are as comfortable as you can be.