Fantasising about a fictional character!!

[HensTeeth44]

I need your help and to know if I am a complete lunatic and BVU or if this is something that happens to other people.

I have always had a very overactive imagination and have a tendancy to daydream but this is the first time (in adulthood anyway) that I have developed a full on obsession with a fictional character. Not the actor who plays this character, but the character himself! Last night I found myself googling this character and falling into the rabbit hole of the Internet and finding reams of erotic fan fiction. I am ashamed to say I found myself still awake at 2am after reading through tons these short stories call me niave but I had no idea this stuff existed before! I feel such a dork!

Am I abnormal? What does this say about this verging on middle-aged married mother? My marriage and sex life are good, I love my husband and find him very attractive, I don't feel depressed or lonely. What is going on?!

Pedro Pascal is my nemesis at the moment....Javier Pena (narcos) and Din Djarin (Mando) invade my mind at all times - Tumblr and AO3 are not helping either

@WhereismyHeathcliff

Thank god there are others!!

I think at least 37% of the internet is erotic fan fiction about Severus Snape which means 1) you’re not alone, and 2) there’s plenty to keep you busy for the next few years

Severus Snape, I totally would. Lily Potter was nuts to turn him down for James.

I have a very vivid internal life and daydream a lot. I don’t like the term maladaptive because it doesn’t interfere with anything important - it’s like reading a book or watching Netflix except I can do it in my head.
Some of it is original and some is based on fictional characters. But I avoid celebrity interviews as it utterly ruins the illusion. I even prefer not to see the actor in another role. I usually regret watching adaptations of books too.

I think there is a thread (or two) in classics about daydreams.

@OolieMacdoolie

I am embarrassed to admit, I had absolutely no idea that fan fiction about anyone was a thing. My eyes have been truly opened!

@Aposterhasnoname

Agreed!! What was she thinking? I think that's part of it, the tragic side of his character and how much he loved her.

Plus I reckon he'd be proper naughty!!!!

Absolutely love Severus Snape!!

I also love reading fan fiction so you are not alone. I have a friend who writes sevmione fiction which is really good. Dark but good!

I had this with Benedict’s Sherlock. 😂

Everyone thought I was mad.

Don’t find Cumberbatch attractive in the slightest, though.

Fan fiction is a dangerous rabbit hole to fall down. Hours of your life will disappear.

I was obsessed with Tony di Nozzo from NCIS when pregnant, about 12 years ago. Had our love story mapped out in my head; it was an angsty one 😂

Currently have a crush on the Mandolorian. I'm the only one he'll take his mask off for 😆.

Think it is entirely natural and sometimes an escape from the stresses everyday life.

Right off to battle the evil empire with Mando.

I have an odd obsession with Joe Goldberg (the murdering psycho from "you"). . I would risk him locking me in his cage.

@mcdog

I'm dying for a good seeing to from Rupert Campbell-Black 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

That character was supposedly inspired by Andrew Parker Bowles!

Mine was always Sirius Black, but I definitely see the appeal of Severus. Some of the fan fictions are incredibly well written too, there are some great ones of those characters at school- have you read The Life and Times?

Ds discovered Alex Rider fan fiction a few years ago when he'd run out of the books. He spent about 2 days last week rereading his favourite. It's about 500k words, I think.

It’s Jamie from Outlander for me. Perfect. But imperfect enough to be believable (particularly in the books). Snape is more surprising but whatever floats your boat.

I'd definitely give Gene Hunt or Ted Hastings a very good time

Oh I’m a total fool for fan fic! Growing up I spent way way too long on Doug Ross ER stories.

Agree with @MaaMaaa!

Also love Strike fanfic.

Hours and hours of my life 😂 - it’s a safe escape so I don’t see an issue.

Didn’t know about the Severus love in though!

Ps I’m gay, but my fanfic loves are all men. Work that out 😂😂😂

@helpfulperson

Fan fiction is a dangerous rabbit hole to fall down. Hours of your life will disappear.

This!!

I am currently rereading the first fan fic I came across and started me off. This is like the third time I’ve read it because it’s so good.

Captain Mal Reynolds from Firefly.

Mine is Gene Hunt (nods to @VienneseWhirligig). I really don't know what it is, but he makes my heart go a flutter . I'm a feminist at heart so he goes against every gene (hah!) in my body to find him attractive! It is definitely the character and not the actor too!

I'm 31 and I've had an ongoing crush on Severus Snape since I was about 12. 😂 Maladaptive daydreaming, fanfic guzzling, the whole works. I always thought it'd go away, but nope! I can't say it bothers me these days. 😂

Aragorn, though. Also would very much go there.

Severus Snape?!

I read and write erotic fanfiction for some really small/dying fandoms, so this isn't weird to me at all. I love reading fanfiction, and writing it! Nothing wrong with it at all. It's healthy to fantasise. Obviously if it starts taking over your life then you probably need to have a word, but for now, knock yourself out with it, and enjoy your time with Sexy Snape!