I don’t like this life.

[Maskedminger]

It’s been almost a year, everything changed, am still suffering from covid from March, am inside for 12 hours per day with my toddler. My ‘Old’ life seems a far away, distant memory, the only highlight is going to do the food shopping, feel there’s nothing to look forward to.
I’m starting to feel just nothing inside, anyone else?

@Maskedminger

You are not alone.

Every day is like Groundhog Day.

Every bit of green space is trampled to a quagmire, and I really envy rural dwellers

City life is fine when it’s buzzing but like a perpetual bank holiday Sunday currently.

People are really suffering
My 81 yr old vaccinated mum meets with her friends “ accidentally “ outdoors..
Once a week.

Keeps her sane.

I’ve not seen her for a year.
It’s shite.

I think everyone knows that @amitoooldforthisshit

HTFH

Hi just to give you guys a different perspective that might help you.
I was in ireland last year , we had a severe lockdown, I left and came to Mexico. I am working remotely so I can do it from here. Mexico is open to all travellers, and there are no restrictions at all here. All restaurants , coffe shops, night clubs and shops are open here.

In Ireland all restaurants and shops are still closed.

However, I was actually thinking today that I l kind of miss being in Europe suffering along with everyone else. That I am missing out on a very historic time. It is a very unusual thing that everyone is going through together. It is something important that people are living through.
I am actually thinking about coming back to Europe.

@amitoooldforthisshit I’m sorry but those kind of constant comments are part of the problem.

@Annedunne181 Are there no covid issues in Mexico? You’re better where you are! Europe is not a nice place to be at present!

@amitoooldforthisshit

this may be very harsh but the virus doesn't care about your memories and it feels sorry for no one

Yes, we know. That's why we adhere to the restrictions, even though we hate them.

Sorry, was this the theme of your dissertation from the Academy of Captain Obvious?

Completely feel the same, OP.

My partner and I are both furloughed, have been for most of the last year. We have a 2.5 year old at home who I feel terrible for because his confidence has changed so much with not being around other kids etc and I'm worried the longer it continues it'll have a bigger impact on him.

DP and I were literally just talking today about how we're both really struggling with things at the moment. Being stuck at home, we both feel unproductive, worried, fed up and really miss how things used to be.

I keep saying it won't last forever and things will go back to normal soon and we just have to keep going, but I'm really struggling so very much at this point.

@Downriver

@Draineddraineddrained, I could have written your post. What’s more I had to get a rather small place because I wanted to be able to walk to work. I refuse to be grateful for eternal wfh, because I am not someone who chose to live in Lewes or Colchester and work in cCentral London.

Enraging isn't it.

We paid a bit more to have less space because we wanted to be walking distance from work, city centre and DD's nursery/school. Along with both going part time at work, it was a choice we made with a view to having a good life balance.

Now with wfh and the tiny amount of time she actually spends in childcare, and the fact that even when we're not theoretically 'working' while looking after her there's sweet fuck all to actually do...

Basically I feel like my choices were all stupid, and I might as well have stayed full time and bought some soulless new-builds in the arse end of nowhere just for the extra space (because who the fuck knew we'd need two fully functional, private offices in our family home?).

Massivley good problem to have I know given what people are up against but while there is hope that much of this will ease, the wfh bullshit is almost certainly here to stay and i fucking hate it and the idiocy it's made of my life choices.

Yes, so sick of it all now.

First lockdown I was about to start a new job (that never happened) and suddenly found myself home with a 2yo for 18ish weeks? DH is NHS so worked a lot. Drove me absolutely insane - mental health was in tatters.

This lockdown my 2yo is now 3 and much easier to deal with. I also now have a new job working 2 days a week. The weather is shite this time but somehow, I am coping better.

Yesterday I burnt my hand badly, got an unexpected (large) bill and then I had a miscarriage. Its enough to send me down a spiral of feeling shite all over again. When will it end? I miss life.

@Annedunne181

Hi just to give you guys a different perspective that might help you. I was in ireland last year , we had a severe lockdown, I left and came to Mexico. I am working remotely so I can do it from here. Mexico is open to all travellers, and there are no restrictions at all here. All restaurants , coffe shops, night clubs and shops are open here.

In Ireland all restaurants and shops are still closed.

However, I was actually thinking today that I l kind of miss being in Europe suffering along with everyone else. That I am missing out on a very historic time. It is a very unusual thing that everyone is going through together. It is something important that people are living through.
I am actually thinking about coming back to Europe.

Don’t!! You’ll hate it. Lucky you.. I’d trade in the blink of an eye- am currently outside, 4 degrees c hazy, dead streets apart from the corner shop- Bless them.. yes, it’s history in the making.. we have been spoiled, no wars in U.K. soil for ages- -Apart from Troubles in Ireland/U.K.— but come home when it is all over

First time I’ve admitted it, but I’m feeling numb today too

I'm sitting here, nursing a gin and tonic, fantasising about taking the car out tomorrow and driving to the beach. What kind of hell have we created whereby such simple dreams are fantasy?

I'm sick of hearing that there's light a the end of the tunnel. I think most people are. At first I was scared, now I'm just tired. This is not living. The next few weeks the government are going to struggle to control the masses. It's already happening, the kids are dropping out of the homeschooling, the definition of local parks and childcare bubbles is being stretched daily. You can't give people a vaccine and tell them to stay put whatever the science says. It's like putting a cake in front of a toddler, telling them not to eat it and walking away.

@RuledbyASD

I feel the same way as most of you on here, but let's spare a thought for all those who had 5+ years of similar in 1939-45. Air raids, bombs dropping, rationing & shortages of everything - not just food. Only being allowed so many inches of bath water & so many bars of the gas fire etc and clothing coupons... No virus, granted but I expect bombs & the threat of Hitler overthrowing the country were far, far scarier. I think we have it much easier.

I'm sorry but it's precisely this sort of thing that gives me the rage - the endless, tedious references to the war, as if no-one has ever made that comparison before.

Is it that we're not allowed to bemoan our lot because we're not living through a war? Is there a certain level of suffering that has to be endured before we"re allowed to express distress, stress, fatigue?

And actually, I disagree. I don't think we have it easier. I think that the loss of social contact, the erosion of community, the physical and emotional distancing that has been forced on us, the sustained isolation, is incredibly tough. During the war, people were permitted to work together, to go out, to see loved ones...

Is it meant to be better that we're being killed by a virus that by warfare? Is that somehow a better way to die or to be bereaved?

Lol when we all thought it would be a 3 week lockdown.

Saw this on church door yesterday when feeling low.

CHIN UP😍

I feel the same atm but trying to remain positive. I do think there is light at the end of the tunnel. Summer will be better. Vaccine being rolled out. We are nearly there x

Me, neither. This is dragging.

Re War analogy..

It was hard.
We call mum War Baby as at age 81 she is still very frugal.

BUT— They had friends in the War.
Women worked together.. Soldiers dropped in for tea.

There was loss and privation, but humans are tribal animals.
We need contact.

@oakleaffy

Lol when we all thought it would be a 3 week lockdown

THIS. now we're coming up to a year's anniversary of this godawful situation, It's so strange to remember leaving the office with a few bits in a bag thinking it was sort of exciting and we'd be back within the month.

I left some really nice mugs at work now I think about it, and a teapot I probably won't see again :(

Same! Working from home since March, toddler and homeschooling older child! The office where I work is only about 2 miles away but not been there since March. I used to love the odd day working from home, but now I miss going to work, the business,
Meetings, I used to like getting a few nice work clothes in January sales, obvs didn’t bother this yr and I’ve become SO fat the heaviest I’ve been in my life, but I can’t do any serious exercise as I have the children with me all day every day s the grandparents rare shielding. I don’t want to buy clothes cos I’m so fat and I just can’t see a way how I’m ever going to loose it. Worry all the time about me being crap at home schooling and how it will affect his life in gen future. I know it’s not so simple but if only we could just have an end date for this lockdown. What keeps me going is looking forward to the day I get my hair eyebrows and nails done x

I'm so sorry you have been suffering the effects of Covid-19 since last March. Goodness me, that is almost a year! It's generally older people or those with underlying conditions who have long term effects - so we are told. That must be hard for you, do the medics see improvement and give your encouragement?

This situation will not last forever and we will have good weather again in the summer when you can go out in the sun and see some pretty surroundings for a change.

In the meantime, please do nurture yourself.

[quote Maskedminger]@Annedunne181 Are there no covid issues in Mexico? You’re better where you are! Europe is not a nice place to be at present![/quote]
Think Mexico has a lot of cases. Guess they’ve just gone with a different approach and not done a lockdown. I’ve seen a few photos of various celebs partying in Tulum.

I went on the tube today (taking DD to a necessary medical appointment) and it felt so creepy and dystopian. It was nearly deserted with the few passengers sitting in silence while the constant, prerecorded announcements about how only essential journeys should be made played over a loop. DD didn’t seem to notice which made me worry that she’s already forgot what “normal” feels like (she’s 8 so probably not, but who knows if it goes on much longer...)

I reached a mental limit months ago and as a PP said - they can give me therapy and multiple pills a day but the real cause is all of this.

Questioner123 They said the vaccines are the 'saving grace' we are waiting for, last summer. And so vaccine after vaccine being approved should be the answer we are all waiting for. Then they mention all these variants appearing. Then they mention they don't know if transmission is stopped or reduced- so there we have it, restrictions are still needed! I just am so fed up. I am completely numb and normal life really feels like a made up dream

I know, it seems that every single answer leads to yet more lockdown. Higher rates of infections? More lockdowns. Vaccine? More lockdown, in case we spread it a-symptomatically. Cases die down? More lockdowns, in case new strains don't respond to vaccines.

And I'm sorry, but with a death rate of less than 1%, which is still one of the highest in the world, despite all the lockdowns, we are losing all sense of perspective in locking down society into what will soon be a second year. Its really so the government cannot be blamed for excess deaths...

@B33Fr33

I'm totally lost as "me" now. The nearly 5 year old is so lonely for company his age that he won't do anything alone now. He his glued to my side like a Velcro baby, usually trying to get inside my clothes. My older two (It's a big gap) are also needing my time. I have to order online as I can't even get to a shop without one of the children having a problem with it. I'm at home or I'm out walking with someone. Even while I am typing now a child is asleep on me.

I have an 11 year old who is stick to me like glue , won't leave my side , waking in the night worrying about what she'll do if she's left on her own . Cries a lot during the day, and before bed. She is becoming obsessed and terrified of death . Obviously trying to reassure her and lighten her mood but nothing is working at the moment.