I don’t like this life.

[Maskedminger]

It’s been almost a year, everything changed, am still suffering from covid from March, am inside for 12 hours per day with my toddler. My ‘Old’ life seems a far away, distant memory, the only highlight is going to do the food shopping, feel there’s nothing to look forward to.
I’m starting to feel just nothing inside, anyone else?

twitter.com/lymanstoneky/status/1233292594022477824 Here is the discussion, in case anyone is curious.

Actually, I really would be prepared to have a longer winter break and a shorter summer one. I had never made the connection before with the flu season so yes, I think that would probably be a good idea if it saved lives.
I know we do make choices and sometimes there's no way around that but I think we have to be really careful about becoming (as a society) casual about the deaths of older people. They are our much loved parents and grandparents.

MarshaBradyo it's an excellent film if you like the Sci fi/disaster film genre. I coined my name because if been waiting so long to see it due to its constantly changing release date due to Covid. I actually need a new username now though!

@Kokeshi123 I completely agree. Some people seem to have lost sight of the fact that - if you are lucky enough to get old - then you will die at some point. I think that some people are so obsessed with trying to make everything 100% risk free that they forget this, or try to forget it.

Getting old is a privilege not a right.

Getting old is a right - as much as anyone's life is a 'right'.

Looking at the vaccine figures everyday and hiding the coronavirus topic on here has done wonders for my mood, honestly. I ignore any crappy articles saying "we maybe think there might be a chance that X could reduce the effectiveness of the vaccine" it's all wishy washy crap posting, and for now watching the vaccine figures rack up by the million is giving me hope

It sounds to me as though you are clinically depressed OP, please contact your GP for support.

theonlylivingboy 👏👏👏👏👏👏

I've nodded in agreement with most of the posts on this thread, it does seem relentless with no end in sight and people are just different now. I think we'll find a new sort of normal but not quite as we were. Doesn't mean that it won't be 'good too' and life worth living again. That's what I cling to. Some days are easier than others and some are just plain shit.

I tolerated the previous lockdowns very well. I focused on the positives in my life and I spent time doing stuff that I usually never had time for like focusing on clean eating and exercising. I got hobbies in here and there and I enjoyed the lockdown. The lockdowns gave me a breather space that I never really had before after years of hard work.

This lockdown is absolutely brutal though. The weather is rubbish. It is wet and cold and I find it hard to get out walking during days off. It looks as if its dry when I'm in work and then when I'm off it gets wet or windy and cold. I'm sick of the weather.

Another poster wrote earlier that it appears as if people are at the end of their tether and that looks to be about right. The biggest issue for me is that I'm at the brunt end of other peoples moods and theres no break and nowhere to escape to. My employer is moody cow. I go home to an aging domineering mother who's not much better and there's no where open to get away to, to eat a meal in peace.

Objectively I know its getting better, and yet I can't seem to focus on that and cheer up. Energy and optimism burnt out. Feel angry and tired more often these days.

No neither do I pissed off with life very at the moment it’s so sad and boring beyond belief wearing mask not being able to do do things we did before lockdown it’s such a sad existence now.

And even lonelier then before as faced covers can not interact or smile or see people s facial expressions people move out of the way to avoid catching COVID with a mask on it’s definitely a closed society worse then before as everyone is scared I am always in a mood never feel happy just sad all the time when is this nightmare Gina end.😒

@colouringindoors

i don't want to do this anymore

@colouringindoors Hope you are ok x

thanks fairyliz nice name.
Not really, but appreciate you asking x

I have read the room and frankly some of you need to actually hear yourselves!

As do you. You come on to a thread where people are struggling, articulating that struggle, sharing their experiences and their feelings - and you think it's your place to tell them that their feelings are inappropriate? Really?

And as if that wasn't cheap enough, you resort to the laziest of all arguments - the emotional appeal, just to make those people who are already feeling shit about everything just that little bit more shit. Because hey! How dare you feel crap? You haven't just lost all your children? So until you have, don't you dare presume to have feelings of sadness or loss or suffering.

I suppose it hasn't occurred to you in this pandemic that people are suffering because they are enduring loss at the same time as not being able to experience solidarity, community, physical comfort from friends or extended family.

I hardly dare hope that you have the empathy to understand that loss can be experienced and interpreted in many ways. That it's not just about death.

For some people life has been this way for year's. This is it. Four walls, no fresh air no new faces. Unrelenting pain every - single - day.

@MrsHuntGeneNotJeremyObviously

Actually, I really would be prepared to have a longer winter break and a shorter summer one. I had never made the connection before with the flu season so yes, I think that would probably be a good idea if it saved lives. I know we do make choices and sometimes there's no way around that but I think we have to be really careful about becoming (as a society) casual about the deaths of older people. They are our much loved parents and grandparents.

Death is inevitable. When someone dies in their 80s, 90+, that should be celebrated, It's not a sad event. They got a full life, that's something to be celebrated.

Stopping society to try and squeeze out an extra 6 months for someone in their 90s doesn't really make sense. It also won't happen long term. Decreased economic output will actually cost them years in the long run.

theonlyliving

well said. thank you. the attitude of posters like that, on threads like this, takes my breath away.

Worth reporting too, I've found mumsnet sympathetic and responsive when I've done so for similar posts...

I do see it differently. Of course death is natural and cannot be avoided but I think we owe to the elderly to give them as long and healthy a life as possible.
I don't think we are stopping society to squeeze out an extra few months for 90 year olds - we might be stopping it to give 70 and 80 year olds 10 years. I consider it that to be entirely reasonable.

And from a purely selfish perspective, old age comes around pretty quickly - 5 minutes ago my mum and dad were 38, now they're 70! I wonder how willing we will be to write ourselves off at that age!

I just got a wave of sadness, so trivial, but realised still no CBeebies bday cards. I know that’s the least of any true issue but it really hammers home how long it’s been since life felt normal.

colouring report me if you like but I'm allowed to disagree that people had it easier in the war because women were allowed to work in munitions factories (yay, feminism!) and could hug each other while sitting in the bomb shelter waiting to see if their house would be flattened in the morning.
Or because I don't think it's okay to risk the lives of old people, so younger people can get back to normal! Sorry, but young people's rights to go out to dinner and mooch around the shops are not actually more important to me than my nan!

I never said that this isn't miserable or hard or that people can't moan. I also never said that people's feeling ls were inappropriate. But some of their post are LivingBoy. My right to be offended by certain posts is equal to your right to be offended by mine.

But I'm not calling for deletions because someone disagrees with me. So long as guidelines aren't broken MN should not be deleting posts because someone has read something they don't like or agree with.

young people's rights to go out to dinner and mooch around the shops are not actually more important to me than my nan! critical thinking surely can help with this one. Of course my family is most important to me but is my great aunts life worth more than every school child’s education and millions of jobs- no it isn’t!

But it's not one person is it - there are a lot of elderly and vulnerable people who will die if we don't protect them.