I don’t like this life.

[Maskedminger]

It’s been almost a year, everything changed, am still suffering from covid from March, am inside for 12 hours per day with my toddler. My ‘Old’ life seems a far away, distant memory, the only highlight is going to do the food shopping, feel there’s nothing to look forward to.
I’m starting to feel just nothing inside, anyone else?

Yes, I can barely get out of bed some days.

I think they are working on a new vaccine to the newer variant but I get what u mean its two steps forward one back .

Feels hopeless to me because I do not get the end game/ even with the vulnerable vaccinated will we need to isolate when positive, with education even if back in the classroom keep being interrupted/ what about bloody masks?!

@Waxonwaxoff0

I hate it. I'm fed up of people saying things like "just be grateful you're alive" "you're only being asked to sit on the sofa and watch netflix" as well.

i hate that as well , when i chat with my 83 yr old mum and moan how fed up i am of it all and surely they cant keep us all restricted for yet how many months more i have this said to me . yes i am grateful , but how much more grateful i will be if in still in lockdown by this time next year because they keep finding one reason or another to prolong it i dont know !! i do think that theres more to being alive than just being able to leave the house for work and a sodding food shop .

@ExhaustedFlamingo

I'm so sorry for your difficulties. You're amazing and so much of what parents of children with autism have to do and give up to keep their kids on an even keel goes under the radar.

I hate how neurotic I’ve become. I’m constantly asking my children how they feel, constantly sticking the thermometer in their ears. They hate it, and the thermometer sat untouched in cupboard for years before last March. I’ve always been the sort of person who gets headaches if I don’t drink enough water or coffee or worry too much, and gets nauseous or an upset stomach at certain points in my cycle. And despite knowing all this, having inhabited this body with all its quirks for 42 years, I now panic every single time I feel less than 100% well that I have covid.

@Sadbadglad
I am so sorry for your loss. You must be heartbroken.

Reading all the posts I feel so sad and helpless.
I am a mum but to a grown up girl. Yes being single and living alone must be easier. It has to be. But it can also be very lonely, and not to have had hugs or cuddles with family and close friends for a year is also hard.

I lead a company in healthcare. Work is a saviour.
Things will Get better. I’m not going to harp on. But as a recovering addict I can say that meditation (which is now the calm app for me), daily exercise (a must) and fresh air for a walk a day - even though I’m fed up of muddy walks. It all had to be done to stay sane. You have to get up and move forward for the children but more importantly for you 😌
The vax is here. We will get through this. Sending hope and love to all x

DH wfh, me wfh part time, sick of never going out for meals or fun. Also all that seems to be on TV ATM is football. Not just Saturdays but now mid week too. DH and DC are absorbed with watching it and I am going to bed earlier and earlier and before teen. I have to force myself to get up early each morning to get D's breakfast, pack him lunch and drive him to school otherwise I too would stay in bed till 10 am. I am usually an optimist but since Xmas I just feel numb. Sometimes I just sit and tears toll down my face. I haven't even lost any loved ones. It just feels like living a nightmare and you can't Wake up to escape. DH is just so bogged down and having to work rediculous amount of hours.

I feel numb too. I've not seen any of my family for nearly a year. I miss them so much. Every time I feel there is light at the end of the tunnel something happens and knocks me back again.
I am thankful I have my health, I am thankful my family are healthy and I am thankful I have some financial security but the isolation is weighing me down. I just hope the spring brings some good weather and brightens everything up

Im so glad im not alone feeling this way.Im in touch with those on my social groups but one of them is pissing me off going on about that Charley Macksey book about horses small boys etc with those stupid we will get through this poems etc.i dont want bloody poems i live alone i want my social life back i want to see people have my nails done go out for a meal .im retired i normally sit my friends dog but shes been working from home since last March.Bored stiff and if anyone suggests crafts and jigsaws ill scream.

I hate not seeing peoples faces and people moving out of way when you pass.This isnt living and we cant go on this way much longer.Whats the point in lockdowns they dont stop the virus just move it on.surely there must come a tine when enough is enough,We have to start living again.

I was actually doing ok first time round, not a massively social person and love wfh and the extra time I had with my kids so I could see a lot of benefits in slowing my life down. But even I have just had enough now. My wonderful father has been diagnosed with terminal cancer and we aren't sure how long he has left. He is the strongest most positive person I know and to see him close to tears (which I literally have never seen in my entire life before) because he just wants to hug his grandkids is killing me. Its this shitty balance of keeping away so if he does have a couple of years left, we don't risk reducing that (very low immune system right now) but also desperately worrying that he will leave us sooner and is wasting the last few months with us. We used to meet up every weekend and he looked after my kids when I work and now I just feel robbed of him, possibly my last year with him taken away. Im angry and yet have no one to be angry at. I just want my life back now, being with my loved ones, sod the pubs and shops, I just want to hug him without this terrible fear it will kill him

i don't want to do this anymore

Before I say it, I'm not suggesting yoga/walks/usual useless crap BUT...
if you don't already please think about taking vitamin D. I've felt awful, down, random aches/pains, and just... blah
Turns out my vitamin D is low, really low because I've been shielding and apparently it can really affect your mood. The GP put me on a high dose then advised after those are finished to take vitamin d and k2 daily
And if a tablet makes me feel better I'm all for it!

@MrsHuntGeneNotJeremyObviously

I'm really sorry because I know a lot of you are suffering but you have to stop with this shit about things not being as bad during the war because people could fucking hug. Well yes, but their children were at daily risk of getting blown up by bombs. That is if they had their children at home and they weren't living with strangers elsewhere! The war was a different kind of suffering.

As for the poster up thread who thinks it's okay to throw 70 year olds to the wolves because she needs to live now, can you actually hear yourself?

Sending love and best wishes to the poor poster who has lost her husband and to those suffering from the awful effects of this virus.

Seriously, read the room.

We don't have to stop with anything. This is a support thread for people who are really struggling. Would you storm into an AA meeting and berate the people seeking support in there because they should instead be thankful that they hadn't lost a limb?

Just go. Go and find a thread that suits how you feel about the virus and peddle your sanctimonious fucking claptrap on there.

Everyone is sounding like they are reaching the end of their tether. This platform is a good way to express these feelings but if you want a one to one conversation, with someone who will devote their time to listening, and not advising or judging, try calling the Samaritans. Sometimes, talking can help overcome these desperate feelings.

And as far as I'm concerned it is a War and this time the enemy is invisible, but if The Isle of Man, and Taiwan can beat it, so can we.

Hi I am the same sick of life and the Bordem with COVID nothing todo lockdown a hard work teenager .Things seem even worse during lockdown am sick of life it’s so hard work at the moment everything it’s been like this since last March the uncertainty of everything aswell we never no when it’s Going to end all this doom and gloom.

I have a teenager on the spectrum who is so hard work and difficult also cheeky she does not get things to be honest I feelike giving her up as it’s not easy to deal with alone got unsupportive ex who thinks he can swan in and out when he feels like it but is nothing but trouble as he can not handle her so just leaves it to me to deal with I had enough aswell as everything else that’s going on it’s hard at the moment life’s crap at the moment.

LivingBoy I have read the room and frankly some of you need to actually hear yourselves! My comments aren't addressed to the majority who are struggling but there are a few posters here whose comments I am not willing to ignore.
There was a documentary on TV a few weeks ago about the bombings in places like Coventry during the war. A woman was sheltering in a cupboard with her children during a raid and one of the kids wanted a glass of water. The mum went to get it and in those few moments her house got bombed and her children died. There are people on this thread moaning that this experience is worse than the war because they can't hug anyone. It's not. What's worse is all your babies dying when you went to the kitchen. That poor mother will never hug her children again.
For the majority of us, as awful and relentless and utterly shit this situation is, it is massively offensive to imply they had it better because they were able to see people!
There was also a poster up thread who felt it was okay for older people to have a reduced life span because she and her children want their lives back now. As if their lives are less important. My nan has died from Covid - her life certainly wasn't worth sacrificing so that other people's lives can go back to normal. What sort of society do we want to come back to? Captain Tom died yesterday - was his life worth less?

I know what you mean, this is dragging on far to long. Seeing film of the Isle of man getting back to normal is just rubbing it in. I know it's a awful virus but I don't believe the figures. Anyone who dies who had a positive test is being Inc as covid death thsts just not true. This is having a massive detrimental effect on masses of people, poor kids. We have to get some normality back QUICK!

@Zoear I know how hard it is, but please don’t give up on her, sending hugs xxx

Does anyone know what the current average age of death with, sorry from, covid is? Is it still 82. 2 years? Higher than average life expectancy in this country?

I wonder why this figure isn't given regularly by the media, when the daily deaths figure is.

@GreenlandTheMovie

Does anyone know what the current average age of death with, sorry from, covid is? Is it still 82. 2 years? Higher than average life expectancy in this country?

I wonder why this figure isn't given regularly by the media, when the daily deaths figure is.

I’m not sure but did you like the movie (Greenland)? Ds loves the trailer

My nan has died from Covid - her life certainly wasn't worth sacrificing so that other people's lives can go back to normal. What sort of society do we want to come back to? Captain Tom died yesterday - was his life worth less?

At the risk of being provocative though, sacrificing some elderly people so we can enjoy getting on with our lives, is actually what we already do. Flu deaths have been absolutely slashed in most countries as a result of anti COVID measures (including in countries that are basically COVID free like Oz and NZ, so it's not just a case of deaths being misattributed). If we were prepared to shut schools and do a lockdown every winter, we could massively reduce flu deaths every year. Are we prepared to do that? Bet most people aren't.

Someone on Twitter actually did suggest "We should get rid of the summer break and have a long winter break during flu season every year instead, because this would save many elderly lives." It would, no doubt about it. I bet very few people are prepared to do this, though. Most parents who saw this post were like, "what the hell???? I want my kids to enjoy a nice healthy fun summer holiday, not a miserable winter 'holiday' stuck indoors while it pisses down with rain."

I am not arguing against the current measures, by the way-I am just pointing out that "elderly people's lives vs everyone else's quality of life" is a calculation we do already makeincluding you (unless you are one of the 0.1% of parents who would be happy to make your kids have a winter holiday rather than a summer one).