I don’t like this life.

[Maskedminger]

It’s been almost a year, everything changed, am still suffering from covid from March, am inside for 12 hours per day with my toddler. My ‘Old’ life seems a far away, distant memory, the only highlight is going to do the food shopping, feel there’s nothing to look forward to.
I’m starting to feel just nothing inside, anyone else?

Let's hope it changes soon girls 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

@RuledbyASD

I feel the same way as most of you on here, but let's spare a thought for all those who had 5+ years of similar in 1939-45. Air raids, bombs dropping, rationing & shortages of everything - not just food. Only being allowed so many inches of bath water & so many bars of the gas fire etc and clothing coupons... No virus, granted but I expect bombs & the threat of Hitler overthrowing the country were far, far scarier. I think we have it much easier.

I actually think you are incorrect here as my MIL who lived through this time said it was hard (materially wise and actually she still only allows 2 inches of water in the bath as any more is wasteful!) but they could still laugh, joke, see people, go to parties - and when it comes down to it, this is the bit that makes us human - its our social interactions that I/most people miss the most -

@OlympicProcrastinator

An elderly relative of mine just killed herself through starvation. She lived in an old people’s home. Once she was told she would not be allowed to see her son again through another lock down she said there was no more joy to her life and she stopped eating and drinking. She was dead within 5 days.

I felt so very sad but could also fully empathise. Life isn’t worth saving at all costs. If this was my life for another few years I wouldn’t want to live it.

That is just horrific and her story needs to be told. Again and again and again. This is not ok. It’s cruel and inhumane Then you watch a programme like dancing on ice and think What the actual fuck

I’m so sorry.
This should not be allowed to happen.

Starting to get fed up. Fortunately I'm still going to work 2 days a week, which is my saving grace.

@Ddot

It will be more tolerable in the summer 🤞

Tolerable in the summer!,,, Noooo! I want normal. 2019 normal. No more shitty half life. None!

Ask fir a key worker place is not too late I got one for my teen and it’s been a much better week. Both out mental health has jmprived and we are both more productive. Still feel numb but a better numb

Yes! I feel like I’m living in a box.

This is such a sad thread, but the one thing I do feel is we are all in a similar situation and although we can't get together we have found ways of coming together even if its to agree its all poop!
Just keep swimming everyone, hopefully we are nearer today then we were yesterday. Sorry I've got no real words of comfort but sending but wanted you to know that we do care!

@AgnesNaismith I use the Oculus Quest 2. Altspace is the best app I've found for socialising but VTime is good too (VTime can be used solely on a smart phone or on a VR headset). I use it in my livingroom, do a bit of beat saber early evening then go on Altspace later on. I was in stitches last night as I've made a few friends on Altspace who have the same sense of humour as me. I use VR Chat with a private group of ladies (from an Oculus Quest Ladies group I joined on Facebook) to do Among Us in VR. I don't use VR Chat to socialise as it's mostly full of children and teens.

The Wander app is what I use for wandering around the world.

It's saved my sanity. That and chocolate 😁

@OlympicProcrastinator

An elderly relative of mine just killed herself through starvation. She lived in an old people’s home. Once she was told she would not be allowed to see her son again through another lock down she said there was no more joy to her life and she stopped eating and drinking. She was dead within 5 days.

I felt so very sad but could also fully empathise. Life isn’t worth saving at all costs. If this was my life for another few years I wouldn’t want to live it.

This happened to my relative too last spring. Had enough of not seeing anyone so stopped eating. The care home said many of the residents were the same, I feel very angry that this happened

The problem with people saying fund the nhs is that there already was a huge problem with recruitment and retention of nurses and this hasn’t been improved on. Letting Covid run wild would mean even further staff shortages in a profession that already has then. I can’t remember the exact figures but I think quite a large proportion of nurses are due to retire in the next few years. I know I left the profession last year as the stress just wasn’t worth. I did the first wave but I’m not sacrificing my mental health for a profession that has treated me like shit over the years and I know many others feel the same.

@HerculesMuligan

I think March will be a tipping point for a lot of people as we’ll have been living like this for a year. I suspect (and hope) a lot of us will take it upon ourselves to change things and act more ‘normal’. Of course individual people can’t reopen schools, restaurants or whatever, but I think there’s going to be a steady increase in socialising etc. I for one plan to start meeting up with friends and their children at the park, finally seeing my family and giving them overdue Christmas presents etc!

For me the biggest risk we face is us all attempting not to live like the social beings we naturally are.

I never stopped socialising. My life. My rules.

@HomeSliceKnowsBest noticed you mentioned doubling your dose so you're taking 300mg of Venlafaxine twice a day?
Max dose is 375mg a day so if not a typo and you're taking 600 mg a day that's too high. Worth discussing with doc if you can try and get an online appt - Venlafaxine can be v hard on kidneys/liver if taken in too high a dosage.

I also agree with a PP about people generally becoming nastier. I was in a supermarket with my disabled DS who is exempt from wearing a mask and wears a lanyard stating he is exempt.
He was challenged by an elderly gent for not wearing a mask, DS was polite and told him he was exempt from wearing one. The gene went crazy at him saying he was “disrespectful of the vulnerable for not wearing a mask and shouldn’t be out the house.”. My DS fled from the shop crying. One of the low moments of my life, having my disabled son verbally abused by a complete stranger.

So we have you to thank do we dowser for the latest spread? Assuming you are not joking.

I'm really struggling with motivation. Even basic chores and errands. I find myself sat staring at my phone for hours achieving nothing. I always get down at this time of year anyway with the weather and the mud but I know all the normal things I look forward to in the spring will most likely be canceled so other than some warmer weather there is not much to get excited about.

It’s baffling to see how other countries are dealing with this ‘pandamn’? Here it’s nothing but news that just gets worse and worse...no bollocks end in sight. Can’t the f**king media be more positive and look at progress made so far and some bloody good news.

@whatisheupto They need to prioritise them as they are taking the brunt of this. oh but they are, thousands of people will die as a direct result of children going back to school rather than home learning. Children should only be the priority up to a point.

I live alone, work from home in a job which doesn't inspire .Ate too much during first lockdown, and as the months went on realised I wasn't excited about this ending as was so overweight,so since Christmas I've come to conclusion I might as well me miserable and hungry. Have lost half a stone so far and feel I'm back in control of something at least.

Genuinely surprised by this! Didn’t realise so many people felt so terrible. The lockdown is hard sometimes...but there are always things to be grateful for. I prefer my life now as wfh I get to see my family more, and I’ve realised what’s important in life.

Fortunately I live by the sea...and feel that’s a huge help. I started running in March and never stopped...I’m not athletic and size 16 but I think it’s given me a really positive outlook - try and give it a go!

Another thing I would suggest is focusing on the moment rather than the last or future. That’s also been a gear change for me!

Wishing you all luck & light x

whatisheupto

Me too. I am so angry at what the government are doing to our kids. I honestly don't think they realise the seriousness of the impact on them (and therefore on parents). They need to prioritise them as they are taking the brunt of this.

Yes because if they go back to school now and carry a mutation of the virus home and you die, at they won’t be sad about missing school.

Kids bought it home from our school, we had a mild case but a lovely, Fit, healthy dad in his early 40’s has been on a ventilator for 7 weeks now. I think his wife and kids would have preferred to miss school.

I’ve got an oculus. Is wander any good?

[quote Shamelessnamechange9]@CallMeCleo I understand the concept of weighing one human life against another. No one should be sacrificial lambs but we cant live like this indefinitely. Call me selfish, cold hearted I really dont care, the majority of us shouldn't be living like so a small percentage of the population dies, most of which are near life expectancy age.[/quote]
Did you read it?

Questioner123 They said the vaccines are the 'saving grace' we are waiting for, last summer. And so vaccine after vaccine being approved should be the answer we are all waiting for. Then they mention all these variants appearing. Then they mention they don't know if transmission is stopped or reduced- so there we have it, restrictions are still needed! I just am so fed up. I am completely numb and normal life really feels like a made up dream

I know, it seems that every single answer leads to yet more lockdown. Higher rates of infections? More lockdowns. Vaccine? More lockdown, in case we spread it a-symptomatically. Cases die down? More lockdowns, in case new strains don't respond to vaccines.

And I'm sorry, but with a death rate of less than 1%, which is still one of the highest in the world, despite all the lockdowns, we are losing all sense of perspective in locking down society into what will soon be a second year. Its really so the government cannot be blamed for excess deaths...
This, exactly.
Had to walk into town today to pay in a cheque. Remember them? Enjoyed my ‘trip out’ but also felt this almost irresistible desire to walk out in front of a speeding lorry. I’ve been pretty down recently (too much recently-retired hubby, who is kindness personified to everyone else) so this would (possibly) mean an end to it all. In lockdown 1.5 (sort of May time) I was booking trips, theatre etc as something to look forward to, but there really seems no end in sight. And even when there is, the economy will be so fucked there will be nothing to look forward to, or do!

The school sent a PDF Health and Well Being document, with Fabian Mcall smiling in the front, with loads and loads of organisations to contact, it was three pages long.. making me think the worse!! Ate my DS and DD having learning difficulties! Eating disorders and heading towards manic depression!! The walk to the post box, no dog, no school run, DH able to go to work!! No job to keep me occupied in between home learning doesn’t help. I am willing to go out and help but need to keep safe ...