Am I just really... lazy?

[HensInTheSkirtingBoard]

OK, so obviously it's lockdown so we're not really going anywhere or doing anything. And I have older teen dc who are self-sufficient. And it's winter so it's cold and dark and meh.

But all the same, I can't shake the feeling that I am just becoming a bit of a lazy slob!

I WFH in a fairly full-on job, but at the weekends DH and I spend a lot of time on the sofa, doing pretty much fuck all. I read, knit, MN, doom-scroll Twitter, watch box-sets or films eat chocolate. I do a bit of yoga most days but sometimes that's not much more than just 15 minutes breathing slowly

Either DH or I cook every evening and we go for a long walk every weekend and I do a bit of vague cleaning / tidying but apart from that...not much. And during the warmer months we did more or less the same but just outside and with a bit of herb-growing thrown in.

And I'm not sure whether I'm ok with this, or not, really? I'm not bored, exactly, but it does feel a bit as if I'm wasting time when I could (should?) be doing...more? I can't get over the idea that everyone else is busy and productive and Doing Stuff all the time and I'm just sat on my arse under a blanket all day.

And yes, I know some people are working ridiculous hours and juggling childcare and home-schooling and barely have time to think - I'm not trying to be insensitive to that. But I can't be the only one stapled to the sofa and feeling odd about it, can I?

I agree, by the way,, that this need to feel 'productive' and 'busy' all the time is odd, and probably not particularly healthy / useful. I don't know where it comes from really.

Funny thing is that I genuinely never thought of myself as someone who needed to be busy - in fact I have definitely moaned in the past about a couple of (lovely) colleagues who are very much of the 'oh I'm soooooo busy, I never have a moment to myself, busybusybusy, never enough hours in the day' ilk. I find it tiresome and performative.

But hey, who knew, too much downtime doesn't suit me either! It's just a very, very odd time and we're all feeling a bit discombobulated by it all, I guess.

I think you do more than you think you do even if you feel a bit guilty about your blanket time. You say you're lazy and do nothing but then to go on to list lots of things you do. Its OK to have some to relax at the weekends! Give it to it and enjoy it!

Aunty Sue says "I think we're being hard on ourselves, try not to feel guilty".

I walk every day and I also play a big online MMO game, chores, cooking, reading, pottering round the house. I don’t work. My mate informed me on the phone that I should do an online course as we were discussing routines. I used to work in higher education and spent years studying so I’m not anti My friend is a lovely person but is a very worthy person I’m happy to watch some shite on tv.

When I'm stuck at home I pretty much do the bare minimum and look after a young child. I find it very difficult to be productive as I don't have the motivation. If it was normal times even when I had an infant and was sleep deprived, I was much more productive because of the feeling of not wanting to miss out. I would wake up look after infant, tidy, cook and get ready to go out. I feel when I have something to look forward to I'm much more productive. The more I'm forced to be at home this year the less motivated and productive I'll be. It's such a rubbish time for everyone and don't think you're lazy.

@Toomuchtrouble4me

Same same same Although I can’t wait to get back into the garden.

Same. But until the sun comes back I can't be arsed even going outside.

I think you sound perfectly fine! Not lazy at all, what else would you be doing?

I completely empathise OP - same here. Looking back at last summer wishing I'd done something!

Thank you @HensInTheSkirtingBoard
I also hate dusting

As others have said, I think it's fine. Sometimes I find myself doing 'busy work' at weekends to make me feel productive, but really it's tedious stuff I don't really need to do and I don't feel like I've achieved anything when I do it. I try not to give myself a hard time for enjoying netflix, or just reading at the weekends, it's charging my batteries and doing nice, gentle things at an otherwise stressful time.

I also think as a society we sometimes put too much onus on work, or feeling productive. It's almost like we feel guilty if we aren't doing things which are useful, but why? Life isn't just about working and being productive, it's a part of it of course - but not the whole thing.