To think lockdown is making people sick.

[Melonslicexx]

I mean alot of people. I have never felt anxious like I do in my life. I'm on edge. I'm panicky.

My best mate who has suffered with her mental health said she didn't want to be here anymore the other day but she's pushing through.

I can't describe how I feel at the moment. It's horrible. So

Vote not unreasonable if you feel ill due to lockdown

Or you are unreasonable if you feel fine.

I am hoping to feel less alone. As to be honest I feel scared and I don't know how to see the happiness in life or relax again.

Defo not unreasonable. Feel terrible with anxiety and low , keep crying can't even tell you why really!

It has made some people sick/er, yes.

Yep, it's weird. I can't put my finger on it, but I just don't feel myself. Even though things are opening up again now, they're nowhere near the same as they were and everything feels just, well, odd.

I'm going to making the most of the summer holidays as best I can but in the massive hope that once we're back to school in September (Yr 2 & 3, no school since March here) things will start to feel a bit better!

I feel fine and so does my immediate family but I won't say YABU because I know lots of people are struggling.

It's like I've been cut off from life for so long and my mind's just turned negative. I've lost my confidence. I feel off. It's horrible. To the point I'm panicking about September. There's no way I've got the energy to do the one mile each way school runs. I was as fit as a fiddle before lockdown. Now I can't sleep. I can't walk without feeling awful for the rest of the day.

I was fine until the start of this week. In fact, being a bit anti-social by nature, I was enjoying it, but this week my mood really took a dive.

WFH has been a bit frustrating, not being able to print stuff, using a laptop instead of a having a nice big monitor, working from the kitchen table and having to pack everything away, but that was really my only gripe. DP is WFH too, and it hasn't got on my nerves being together 24/7 (albeit in different rooms).

We were both off last week, which was fine, but when I started work on Tuesday, I found everything really irritating and keep cocking things up.

And I've become very noise sensitive: we've had pneumatic drills, angle grinders etc going, plus the usual thing of dozens of bloody delivery trucks all day and this morning I was nearly in tears with sheer frustration, the noise was going through me like a knife. I've felt weepy and nearly cried a few times and I almost cry (I'm hard, me, lol).

The girl who skateboards past our house, over and over again, for hours at a time really ought to be on the "at risk" register, because one of these days I'm going to properly lose it and kill her.

The way I feel reminds of a what PMT felt like for the few years that I suffered with it: constantly on the brink of rage or tears and the slightest thing could tip me over the edge. And I'm normally very robust and resilient, so I really get that if I'm feeling like this, people who struggle normally must be going through hell.

I spoke to a colleague earlier today and she's been feeling shit too. Maybe we've collectively reached the point where the majority of people have used up all their mental resources and are simply sick of it all.

Opps, missing word: that should read almost never cry

I'm the same. I'm normally happy in my head. My health has been abit crap iron wise this year. But that's ok now. I have just text my partner and said do I need to see a Dr or just get on with it. I feel like all I need is one day alone. To rest and watch tele and not have to focus on anyone else. Which sounds silly. But I feel like my head just wants quiet and peace. My kids have exhausted me now. For months they've relied on me for everything. I'm used to having one home and one at school. But I've tried so hard to keep my child learning ready for year one. I've tried so hard to keep my home tidy and clean. I've tried so hard to fill our days with a purpose. But I'm just sick of it all. Even we we are out waking I can't enjoy the sound of the wind or the birds. Or simply the friggin peace. I just have to answer 5000 questions from a curious five year old. I end up sighing and I don't want her to see me so irritated.

I can't even imagine working from home. Haha laughed at the skateboard thing too, u have a teenager who bounces a basketball onto his drive every evening and weekend. He's doing nothing wrong. Poor lads probably bored stiff. But I just want to pop it after ten minutes of thud thud thud lol

I feel fine but then lockdown has pretty much ended for me. I’ve been working throughout and DCs have been back at school full time since June so things feel normal (mostly!)

YANBU though. I think most people can acknowledge that lockdown has had a detrimental effect on many people for many different reasons.

@Melonslicexx
I totally understand how you feel. Today is my one day alone until September and I’ve just been in monk like silence all day, feel so psychologically rested

Is there’s by way you can get a day alone? I feel like life is strangely intense and almost like it is when you have a baby. A few hours would do you good

I was holding on by the skin of my teeth. We were supposed to be flying home to NZ for the first time in two years, next week. I was so looking forward to seeing my 82 year old Mum. The girls were looking forward to reconnecting with their friends.

Obviously not gonna happen. Still fighting to get the money back for the flights.

But, we were trying to adjust, adapt, and move on, to make some plans to enjoy our holiday still, albeit in the UK.

Now DH's company has asked him to cut short his holiday, which he and we desperately need, due to a release that's blown out (as per). It's this bloody company's fault we're over here in the first place! My corporate wifey halo is slipping, and the only reason I'm not bawling my bloody eyes out is because I'm fricking furious. It's been all that's keeping us going, is looking forward to some time without him working, when he's been doing 13-15 hour days for the whole of lockdown.

Sorry OP. I hope you feel better soon. The weather doesn't help, either, does it?

Oh god agree with every word OP.
Have never felt quite like this before but wake up thinking “oh here we go again” it’s like Groundhog Day.

Sick of being talked at, by lovely DD.

Sick of it all if I’m honest, and not even looking forward to ‘normal’ returning either. I’m not sure what could even make me feel better anymore.

Totally agree with PP, I feel on the brink of tears or rage most of the endless day.

Wine? Anyone ? Haha

The noise! The neverending noise!

Well I'm OK.
But I agree with you. Lots of people aren't OK.

@Bellybounce

Wine? Shit yes! I have caved in, to a goblet vat of sav' blanc.

I've had enough.

Just of pushing through the whole time. My youngest has SN and it's been very wearing teaching him and although it's been better for him than school (he's happier) I am shattered. Just really tired but inside like no amount of sleep or rest will fix it.

I get irritated with the endless questions and having my family around all the time. I'm working more from home now (I was furloughed) and balancing everything is hard.

I miss my friends and I haven't touched another person in months who isn't from my immediate family. I'm quite a tactile person, my job is (usually) a tactile one and I've been surprised by how hard I've found that. I want a hug! From someone who doesn't need anything from me.

I have done really well at keeping myself positive and encouraging other people but I'm tired of it. Tired of trying to be upbeat and fed up with other peoples minor problems when I feel like i'm wading through treacle...and oh the guilt for feeling that way!

I'm not sure you intended this as a place to offload but thanks anyway.

@mbosnz cheers! Co-op rosé here 😆

Well, you are right that there are many people who have suffered due to lockdown and my heart goes out to you, and them. People are anxious, have suffered mental health problems or physical illness, or lost loved ones too.

But not everyone has found it so hard. I haven't found it that bad at all...and I say that having had coronavirus at one point (and it wasn't nice at all). I've enjoyed a slower pace of life and lovely walks down country lanes...I have missed seeing friends and family, and coffee shops and spa days though.

Now lockdown is lifting I have seen family (distanced, for walks or in the park), been shopping (gloves and mask) and look forward to more things opening up. I am lucky to have been furloughed and assume I will return to work in September...it really hasn't been bad at all and I certainly haven't suffered adversely.

I felt super anxious in April but now I must admit we’ve kind of gone back to normal... hope we won’t regret it!!!

Please feel free to vent. It makes me feel better and hopefully it will help others see they are not alone.

I've got a headache without pain at the moment. So weird. I'm just exhausted. I hope I find a way out of it soon. It's scary loosing control of my head because I've got kids so young.

No options for a days peace really. But partner's going to take them for a walk Saturday. Won't be much but I can at least have a nap

I'm ok now, but only because I now have some childcare, so a couple of days a week I can work uninterrupted. I ditched the majority of homeschooling and that has helped too.

I got a monitor and set up a proper desk for work - that's been useful even if it is in my bedroom so not ideal.

Trying to catch up with friends as much as possible - even if it means sitting under a tree in the rain while the kids run around in waterproofs. It's worth it.

Yes it has made some people sick. Others have done well. It's like anything else.

Usually we are out and about all the time. I'm a childminder and rarely spend a day in the house with the kids, we are always going to groups, softplays, parks etc. During the summer we usually do loads of big trips like farm parks, museums etc. Lockdown has seriously affected my mood. I feel very lazy, I can't be bothered doing anything anymore. A bit hopeless really. I'm also pregnant and feel like shit and I can't even really take the kids to a park here because no toilets are open so I would probably end up wetting myself. So yes I feel very depressed right now.

Bottoms up! Yealands Sav Blanc here - the taste of home, even if I can't get there! It's Mum's birthday next week, and I'm feeling so guilty. But I couldn't have foreseen a global pandemic, right?!

Melonslice, could you slink away for an hour in the bath, with a glass of wine and candles, while partner minds the children? Or after they've gone to bed?

My mental health is in my boots and I can’t get help from the gp until I see my private psychiatrist (which was purely for adhd diagnosis). I asked them a good few weeks ago. I also have no adhd medication so I’m suffering big time from that as the nurse won’t prescribe it until I’ve seen the psychiatrist.

I worked on covid itu during the peak but I’m only bank staff (as I’m at uni at the moment which is not happening either and I’ve missed a whole 9 week placement). Since I am theatres only and electives only started up fully this week I have no shifts at all so no purpose. It’s horrible.

I was in a really good place before lockdown. Finally accepting my adhd and seeing the positive in it. It’s now a huge weight on my back again. I hate it.