To think lockdown is making people sick.

[Melonslicexx]

I mean alot of people. I have never felt anxious like I do in my life. I'm on edge. I'm panicky.

My best mate who has suffered with her mental health said she didn't want to be here anymore the other day but she's pushing through.

I can't describe how I feel at the moment. It's horrible. So

Vote not unreasonable if you feel ill due to lockdown

Or you are unreasonable if you feel fine.

I am hoping to feel less alone. As to be honest I feel scared and I don't know how to see the happiness in life or relax again.

I haven’t slept more than four hours since March. DS2 cannot go anywhere is disabled and has no understanding of social distancing, is going through puberty and trapped in the house other than a walk in the woods. The more things open the more despair I feel that his life is still completely on hold. I was asked if my mental health was ok but I’m too numb to know. I’m surviving that’s about it.

@Melonslicexx

I wasn’t trying to belittle how anyone feels. I defo haven’t bounced through this, I’ve hated it and had lots of issues, like loosing my job.

Was just trying to give a positive spin of things to look forward to and say that things are returning to normal and personally think it’s healthy to think about good things not focus on the bad.

I think the rate of transmission outside is so low and they’ve changed the rule to 1m if 2m can’t be kept so I don’t think it’s an issue letting kids run around in a playground with others... my eldest is at preschool where they are inside with no social distancing.

So I defo wasn’t trying to devalue people’s feelings but I was suggesting it’s not that helpful to read all others peoples issues... like when I watch a sad film I feel sad afterwards not happy that others are feeling sad, if that makes sense.

Vote not unreasonable if you feel ill due to lockdown

Or you are unreasonable if you feel fine

I feel fine, we've been very lucky and it's been fine for us. But I'm not voting YABU as I'm not going to invalidate your feelings or those of anyone else struggling.

it is relentless
i miss normality..

@OverTheRainbow88

Yeah I get your point. You've got to try and find a purpose and the fun again. I'm sure we will all get there. I started this post because I wanted to feel less alone or at least realise I need to get a grip as others are coping. But it turns out many are not. Hopefully it won't make people worse to read how others feel but maybe it's somewhere people can come now to talk when they are having a rough day? Especially if people are feeling they can't put it onto family and friends. Hopefully just writing it down here gets it off their chests.

To the lady who's son is showing signs of depression at 6. I can't remember your user name. I've said from the start that children will suffer with this. Everyone says no they won't, children are resilient and they will adapt. But we never had to grow up in these times. Looking back to my childhood. Suddenly being cooped up at home with no friends or school for months would have been horrible. When I was 8ish I was always playing out and with my best friend. We were joined at the hip. We went on so many adventures. Nearer the age of ten we were always riding bikes and fishing and playing Barbie for hours. I would have really struggled to have not seen her for months. So I can whole heartedly sympathise with our children who haven't seen their friends since march. Same with swimming, dancing, brownies, and football
, All the activities they had have been taken away. These activities kept them fit, burned of energy, socialised them, grew their confidence. To have all that removed on top of their friends. Then they are away from the classroom. Away from the busy noisy school hall. To go from that to a quiet house with your parents and siblings for company for months isn't the same. It's awful and it's worrying that people think they will adapt. It's going to be another 7 weeks at least until they go back to school.

I managed to sleep a little better last night. But it's another rainy day. Got so much washing and stuff to do. I'm going to try as hard as I can today.

Thinking of everyone today. The weather isn't helping, it was so glorious to begin with, thank God, but now??

I feel mostly ok on a personal level but cripes when I think about it all on a global level it's just crushing. I worry about the future for pretty much everyone, all those job losses yesterday. My DT's? Job opportunities will be so reduced, it's truly sad

Yes weather's rubbish again. I've got a tight chest today too. New symptom of anxiety I'm guessing. I wish I had a crystal ball. I just can't see a way out of this. My body is doing stuff to itself it feels.

For me personally, it's given me the mental break I didn't realise I desperately needed. So it's made me feel a lot better. I've been extremely fortunate throughout though, which obviously helps. I can't say I'm glad it happened because obviously I could never be happy to know so many others have suffered. But it has helped me a lot and I am taking that lesson forward in life. I still used to do a lot of things out of "duty" before all this happened. Now I won't. I want things to get back to "normal" for other people. My life will stay fairly much the same as that's what I want.

Is it the lockdown or the pandemic the issue?

For many people this has been a bad wake-up call. Shit CAN happen, we are not immune and all the horrendous stories you watch on tv from the past or foreign countries can happen here too.

I can't see how realising how bad life COULD become very quickly doesn't bring people down at least a little bit. It's scary how your little comfort can disappear.

@wanderings

Yep. No shit, Sherlock. I knew this would happen, and it's why I thought lockdown was a terrible idea in the first place. It's having a severe effect on mental health; suicides, depression and bankruptcies will be through the roof. By the time those things make the news, they won't matter to Boris: he will have resigned or been removed from the party by then.

And although the masks might (repeat, might) have their place in reducing the spread, for some people, they are exacerbating the problem, by being a very prominent reminder that the "unseen horror" could be anywhere. It's unfortunate that they have to go in such a prominent place, i.e. the human face.

Why worry? It's nearly over now anyway. I'll believe that when compulsory social distancing is in the bin where it belongs, and all our rightful activities such as swimming and recreational sport have been restored.

Absolutely this. I long for the end of social distancing. It's taken away everything that brings me happiness and everything I was looking forward to and I don't know when I'll get it back

I can't do this much longer.

For me it's just the lack of confidence I have. I have lost my stamina completely. I did have anemia in February but my levels have risen. Yet because of lockdown I was never able to keep going on my good days. That knocked me down even further. I've just found myself getting sluggish and when I do to out I'll get all wobbly and worn out. I sometimes feel so sickly tired after a couple of hours of been productive. Thats then turned into a panicky feeling of I don't think I'll ever feel like the old me again. None of us sleep well now. We get up later than a school day would allow. I just can already see me having anxious nights in September and feeling weak and awful and not be able to push myself to take my daughter to school. I know how ridiculous that sounds. But I'm so worried by body failing me is going to cause issues like that. My partner works 90 miles away 3-4 days a week. I'm pretty much terrified of him being at work and me going downhill during the day. I have 7 weeks to pull myself together and I've not managed for the last 13. So I have no idea what to do.

I've got terminal cancer, don't know how long I've got left, so time is very precious to me. Being imprisoned for months, means that precious time has gone.

I live in Wales, and hated hearing people in England being allowed to do things we can't here. We've only just been allowed to travel more than 5 miles. They're allowing outdoor cafes to open from next week, but eating inside is not going to be until 3rd August, and only if the virus stats continue to go down.

My husband is my carer, he cooks my meals, does the shopping, and everything around the house (as well as wfh 5 days a week as a keyworker), so I'm terrified about him catching covid, as his health isn't great, so I'll be fucked, and if I caught it off him, it would probably kill me.

This weather gets me down too, because we can't go for a walk (well, he pushes me in my wheelchair) when it's raining. Haven't left the house for about 3 weeks. It's so depressing.

@Motoko

Sending you lots of love. That's truly awful. How old are you and your husband? Does your husband take vitamin D? Also you? As they even acknowledge it on the NHS site now that it's possibly a preventer of covid.

It's so unfair on people like yourself who want to make the best of time right now. My friends father in law passed away a month ago from cancer and it was a similar situation for him.

I hope you and your husband get some chances soon to do more. I can imagine you want to go to beaches and spend time with family and friends too.

I'm so sorry once again. It must be so hard to feel strong right now xx

Motoko, I've been thinking about what it must be like for people in your position, who know their time is finite, and is so infinitely precious as a result. Nothing to say that is helpful, but hoping that you get to do some things soon that make you feel better, and sending big good health vibes to your husband.

To the poster that was worried about their child's mental health, in Christchurch NZ, after the quakes, increased rates of anxiety and depression have been recorded - including in children that were in utero at the time. The children have been dealing with everything that they'd normally be dealing with - maybe poverty, domestic violence, parents with addiction issues, or mental or physical health issues, their own mental or physical health issues, parents with addiction issues, and then on top of that, the issues and problems caused by (in Christchurch, earthquakes), and over here, global pandemic and lockdown. So kids are not uniformly resilient, and some are more at risk of suffering serious mental health issues. This is no reflection on the child, nor on the parent. Shit happens. The main thing is to acknowledge it, and seek treatment. My daughter suffered PTSD, we got treatment promptly and now she's a lot more robust.

Sorry for banging on.

Thanks. We do have a holiday to Dorset booked for the first week in August. It should have been in May, but we had to move it, so we're looking forward to that. We go there every year as we love it so much.

I'm in my 50s, and DH in his 40s. I keep meaning to get some vitamin D as the weather has been so crap, so not been able to get out and soak up the sun.

We go to a place called Weymouth every year and it's absolutely beautiful. Dorset really is gorgeous isn't it?

Perhaps get hubby to order some from superdrug or holland and barret? Even grab some from Asda or something? Bless you both. It's overwhelming isn't it. Simple things are so much harder and your also really poorly too.

I'm glad you have got your holiday to focus on. You deserve to be by the sea ❤️ take care and try not to worry about things. I know it's not easy. I'm sorry life has not been fair to you. I wish they could find a cure for all of it xx

We usually stay in Swanage, that's where we're going this year, but we did go to Weymouth last year for a change. Will probably visit Weymouth when we're down there.

It's a lovely beach isn't it. I love the little cafe nearer the stone area of the beach. The one with outdoor seating. Gorgeous views. X

Weymouth beach is brilliant for families. The water is so shallow for quite a way out, and has a good sandy area.

Will look for that cafe if we go there.

Ive attached a picture for you. The views really peaceful x

I don't mind lockdown personally but then I don't have children and spend most of my time alone so it's quite peaceful. I also don't mind working from home. Sometimes I get bored but then I got bored in normal times too so there's no change.

I personally feel fine but I’m seeing people with anxiety everywhere. It’s really really sad.

Ive suffered from anxiety most of my life but since the lockdown it’s at a level which I can honestly say I haven’t been to before, I just plough through each day with a smiley mask on (have to as I have kids and don’t want them getting anxious). I feel like I am wading through treacle, I just want to get to bed where I feel safe as everything for me, in daylight hours, feels like a angst ridden hell.

Finding this thread comforting this morning. Agree, I thought I'd be fine as soon as things opened up again but I'm not. I'm sick of being snapped at in shops, queuing, getting a sore throat from wearing that stupid mask which I'm beginning to think is very unhygienic. I'm on AD's. I probably will be forever.
I have the odd day where I am properly suicidal. I had a breakdown of sorts when we went into lockdown, 3 weeks off work. With this and other things happening in my personal life I keep crying at work, people think I've gone insane I'm sure. I don't care, if I need to cry I will.

I have severe anxiety and OCD. Oddly enough, I've actually been feeling better. I'm working from home, no stressful commutes or forced office interactions, I have much more time for myself and my partner. I've taken up cooking and sewing. I might be up for redundancy but even that hasn't completely thrown me yet. My life is much calmer and simpler now.

That said, my fullest sympathies go out to those struggling.