To think lockdown is making people sick.

[Melonslicexx]

I mean alot of people. I have never felt anxious like I do in my life. I'm on edge. I'm panicky.

My best mate who has suffered with her mental health said she didn't want to be here anymore the other day but she's pushing through.

I can't describe how I feel at the moment. It's horrible. So

Vote not unreasonable if you feel ill due to lockdown

Or you are unreasonable if you feel fine.

I am hoping to feel less alone. As to be honest I feel scared and I don't know how to see the happiness in life or relax again.

Yes. The who said the other day aysmptomatic people do not spread it afterall.

I know they needed to do something. But many people are now paying a huge price for it. What pisses me off is the virus isnt gone. Yet he wants all kids back in September. He wants us out and about again. So what was the point in making us be so isolated just to restart pubs and schools whilst it's still going to rise again.

May aswel have just made things as they are now two months ago.

As for masks. I wore one to a drs appointment and couldn't see properly walking down the steep steps. It's a strange feeling. It's hot. Also not good for people to breathe back in the stuff they have breathed out. Anemic people really struggle with it. I am a member of an anemic group and people's oxygen levels were dropping with masks.

I don't know how we will recover from it all. I'm so upset that my normal level head is struggling. How many kids will have parents like me right now? Parents that arnt coping. I don't show it but I'm sure they notice I'm more boring now. I try so hard for them. But I don't have much left to give.

YANBU.

Today was the first day I didn’t have a child with me because both were at nursery/school. I walked around and instead of doing the list I had, took a well needed nap where I wasn’t on alert or trying to stop one or both of them from disturbing my wfh husband. I’m good one week or two and the next I can’t help but think I rather take my chances at work than be at home furloughed, but couldn’t because my 5 yo is sen and he couldn’t go to school until there were more staff. I’ve not had a full day to myself where I wasn’t on alert since December. I was meant to go out alone on Mother’s Day but of course couldn’t.

I miss work so much. Work gave me that time I needed where I could have breakfast in a cafe alone and then go on my shift in the shop and interact with people who like coming in as much as I do. I had finally broken out of being a SAHP only to feel like I took one step forward and 10 steps back. I miss my customers and being appreciated for the help I gave them, knowing if I cleaned something it will stay that way for hours, the small talk, chatting with my colleagues, the bus ride there and back, etc... I don’t exactly get those things at home and my husband knows nothing or cares about fashion or home decor.

He’s happy with the way things are because not much has changed for him. He doesn’t really like people and instead of working from home 2-3 days a week, he works from home indefinitely which means it’s hard to get anything done with him on calls most of the day and having to block the boys from him. Boys don’t sleep through the night most nights so I’m constantly waking up and with my oldest not in school, his sleep has been all over the place where he wakes up at about 4 am and doesn’t go back down to 7 (or at all) which then his brother wakes up around 8. Seeing dad home makes him want to be with him all the time but obviously he can’t be when he’s working. My husband has also taken up running and that and the football restarting hasn’t help my mood towards him. Every other conversation is about running and grr.. I don’t care, but I smile and ask questions anyway.

Football I wish was still locked down so I could watch a show that I enjoy (which is the highlight of my day) without finding out it’s not showing because the football is on its channel as well as four other ones and being live-streamed. Didn’t mind football before but close to hating it now.

Feels good to rant.

I'm not normally anxious but I am now. Life is easy with older teens and I am enjoying it in the main, but last week was my low point. The weather has a huge impact on my mood. Last week it was obviously not great weather and I ended up just crying and being overly emotional for no real reason. I also think the easing of lockdown is stressing me out more, as I fear a second wave with all the idiots treating life as if there is no virus anymore.
It's surreal.

I just feel cross all the time. I have been at work through the whole thing, we are really short staffed due to staff shielding and on long term sick, and I am just so tired, and get so frustrated queuing everywhere.

I know it’s been shit for people on furlough who are now worrying about their jobs, but if I hear one more person say how they’ve had lovely long walks every day and had a quieter life I might punch them.

I've recently started a thread about taking sertraline on mn and I've started taking propranolol. My anxiety is through the roof. Everything scares me.

Bit late now but can your reception age child not go to school?

I also really feel for pregnant people and their partners. Not only can they not go baby shopping for prams etc. They can't have partner's in the scans. They can't have visitors on the wards. The partner's now need to wear masks in labour wards. Pregnant ladies need to wear masks to all hospital appointments. Now midwives are not doing as many visits and ringing you on the phone the day after you go home.

It's quite sad that such an important time is being neglected to an extent. The midwife visits are important and a phone call is not the same.

I was doing ok until last week.

I’ve been working throughout (3 days on site, 2 days wfh), DP has been wfh throughout.
In May my DC permanently moved from their father to us, that’s fantastic, although terrible timing with changing schools etc! DC have been at new school 3 days a week and seem happy and settling well. The other 2 days has been a mix of attempted homeschooling and DC doing whatever. Even though everyone’s much happier, it’s been a huge adjustment for all of us.

I’ve had hospital appointments cancelled - I still haven’t had a follow up or results from tests done in February. I need surgery (gynae) but consultants were trying to determine exactly what type of surgery is best, and that just keeps getting postponed and postponed. I realise it’s not life-threatening so I’m lucky in that, but the pain and other issues are really getting to me now - I’ve hit my limit with it. I have other health issues which have flared up too.

In addition, I’m autistic, and don’t deal well with change. I tried to go to a shop in April, but I didn’t understand it and it confused and scared me so I ran away 😅 Haven’t been back since - DP does it all now.
DP had gone this entire time without a haircut and went on Tuesday - he looked so different I couldn’t bear to look at him for a full day. It’s still mildly freaking me out now. I really don’t do change well 😳

And another poster posted about noise - my furloughed neighbours blare loud music in the garden every time it isn’t raining. I’ve been curled up under my bed crying more than once, because I just needed some damn silence.

BUT, despite all this, I was doing ok.
I was happy that there wasn’t the expectation of socialising 😅 And I felt fairly centred.

This last week though...I don’t know what’s changed, but I’ve lost all motivation. I’m just exhausted. I feel flat-sad. I have no idea why. And because I have no idea why, I don’t know how to change it.

This is the next pandemic and it’s a mental health one. I wonder if there will be an analysis of suicide statistics as a result of it. The trouble is that mental health services are massively overstretched and there will be plenty of people who won’t get the help they need.

I was utterly panic stricken to start with and that lasted for at least two months. Didn’t eat or sleep. Now I’m just totally fed up, bored and angry. I can’t get the eye treatment I need desperately and I can’t have a dental appointment to fix broken teeth, because the NHS isn’t allowing that yet. Despite the fact that I’m a private patient anyway. Can’t even have a routine check.

Everything just seems grey and miserable and each time I think (pray) that there might be better news soon, I get brought down. This is a lost time and we won’t get it back. I hate, hate, hate it.

I personally find the really hot days too much. But this chilly drizzle is also a joke! I love a sunny sky and a breeze. It's a truly awful summer. I think the weather will be adding to people's stress though as many love the heat.

I feel sad for people working in it too. Because whatever job you have your not able to do it the way you should be able too.

I just think too many corners are being cut.

People are dying because they need cancer treatment. Surely there comes a point where it's better to do things than wait because they may get coronavirus.

@mbosnz I don’t think, even with the shiniest crystal ball, one could have foreseen the pandemic.

I hope your mum has a good birthday, whatever she does

It’s also my birthday week after next, usually love it, (excuse for ) but this year it all seems a bit pointless.

Hopefully next year will be a bit brighter (weather wise too, wtf?!)

A lot of it’s being knackered and just being around family endlessly. A bit like retired couples forced to live with each other and no sense of purpose. It’s “a thing” not just down to Corvus 19.

The queuing is the most annoying thing I found.. Aside from the pound shop and a lovely vintage shop I’m not bothering going into town.Bank shuts at 2pm which is a massive pain since I’m at work. Thank goodness the supermarkets open late and are quieter after 7pm.So I can buy wine.

Seriously @wanderings if you think a full blown COVID epidemic with no restrictions on what people can do is good for mental and physical health then you should take a look at Brazil, or Florida or Texas. Plenty of terrified, stressed angry people feeling trapped in their homes, or terrified of going to work (let alone those who are actually sick).

Groundhog Day is absolutely spot on. I’ve completely had enough of it. I’m just fed up with it all. It would help if the sun came out, I was coping pretty well until the weather changed.

It's being stuck inside. I've been shielding since March and now have a newborn so have been inside all the time.
I used to go out to work, see my parents and friends, go for walks but all the routine is gone and staring at the same 4 walls all day makes me feel closed in.
However I'm trying to be positive and think my family are healthy and hopefully the children will be back at school in September but I must admit it it feels like a long black tunnel at times. Very scary different times.

Yes I'm starting to find it all so draining now... definitely groundhog day type feeling but also just the fear of things never being back to how they were before.
The weather definitely hasn't helped my mood, I was much happier and calmer when the sun was shining. It makes me anxious that Autumn/Winter will feel like this but even worse.

I am not very good with change either, and yet we are all being forced to adapt to change. I hope that it starts to feel less stressful and that the anxiety starts to lift a bit, but its so hard to imagine not feeling stressed by the whole thing whilst people are still catching the virus and dying from it with no news on a vaccine.

I've struggled the whole time during lockdown basically, had a couple of days when i haven't burst into tears at the drop of a hat.

It's still so impossibly quiet here in Wales, then we hit tourist season. I'm so scared of getting on the bus to get back to work next week, then i'm in a shop with crap precautions in place, and cleaning a holiday let with no time lapse after guests leave and full PPE.
I have problems with breathing through a mask it makes me panicky!
Plus all the extra hazards with air bourne transmission via bedding etc.. boy my anxiety is through the roof. I can't risk getting Covid for various reasons, but have no choice but to go back to work.

I was really angry, almost furious at the beginning when they shut everything down. That was probably my saddest point. And then it went on for all these months. I’ve been worrying about DDs schooling (year 10). I’ve worked throughout (nhs) and we’ve had colleagues die, loads of us caught it (luckily i’ve had worse colds) and we were treated terribly at times.

At the beginning we went for nice walks and we had the good weather but now it’s all dreary. Holiday was cancelled so now I’m off with nothing new to do. I’ve been to the reopened shops and it’s all a bit depressing like queuing for rations. I’ve put quite a bit of weight on as food is the only comfort. Have met up with friends a few times but I just feel so unmotivated and...meh. And now we have the worst recession for 300 years to look forward to. Cheers China.

I'm desperately sad and feel very ill, OP.

Our weather has been awful for weeks, damp and cold, which has triggered my asthma symptoms massively. I've stayed indoors to avoid the impact of the awful weather here for so long now, whilst much of the country has had glorious heat and sunshine. I'd love a share of the heat and bright days if the weather gods could make it happen.....please?

Fishonpillows

This last week though...I don’t know what’s changed, but I’ve lost all motivation. I’m just exhausted. I feel flat-sad. I have no idea why. And because I have no idea why, I don’t know how to change it.

Didn't know how to make it bold

But you hit the nail on the head. This is exactly how I'm feeling x

Yep I'm with you. I lost my job due to COVID in April. Got another job not long after but the offer has to be rescinded as the company can't afford to take new people on anymore. Just drove 6 hour round trip for an interview yesterday and been informed I didn't get the job. Hoping I'm due some good luck soon.

I feel the exact same though full of anxiety constantly!

Why worry? It's nearly over now anyway. I'll believe that when compulsory social distancing is in the bin where it belongs, and all our rightful activities such as swimming and recreational sport have been restored

This. I’ve taken to wild swimming.

I’ve hit a break wall now. Kids are fed up with online work. Kids are not going bed till really late and I feel like we’re all suspended till September comes till we can get back on with life.

I think busy mothers have been hit really hard with this.

And my house is fucked

*brick!

I've suffered with complex mental health problems for a few years now. I was on the way up and now I'm right back down again. I totally empathise with the feelings of being tired but inside my bones, and not knowing what will help. The not knowing makes me panic and i am SO bored of dealing with this every day. I've been having therapy which is helping but some of what you people are describing sounds a lot like depression. I'm on citalopram and going into it is hard but it really did help me to even out my mood and help me see the woods for the trees. It's worth a call to your dr. You don't need to be on them forever.

Lockdown was only meant to be for a few weeks. Not bloody months and months.

It's an awful time. You would have to be dim and/or skin of a rhino to wander through this unscathed.

OP, think in terms of damage limitation. Feel free to message any time.