To be fucking sick of these kids?

[Smashtastic]

I swear I am on the edge of having a breakdown.
I am an introvert and I need to be ALONE. I have not been alone for four months. Not once.

They whine, they squeel, the beat each other up and scream, they cry constantly, they hate everything I suggest and tantrum over going for walks (that I suggest so that I can try to get some personal physical space away from them)

I cannot cope with this anymore. I don't want to. Right now I regret having children. I could seriously out them in the car and dump them somewhere.

Please tell me I am not alone?

I feel the same, spent every waking hour with my 3. Luckily the eldest has discovered sleeping till the afternoon. My other 2 fight, bicker, whinge and moan constantly. They are 11 and 13. Today I wfh, at the laptop, making calls, had both of them hopping from one foot to the other trying to get my attention. The youngest then made a hammock in the whirly gig washing line, and almost broke it! It doesn't help that she has asd, but my god its been bloody hard.

I think @hidingfromDD has it spot on. Go work at your mum's and leave the children to him.

Another man-child. We need a massive gear shift in maturity in this country. Get rid of the feckless, selfish, lazy, entitled attitudes and become more helpful, energised, self-giving and thoughtful.

Your husband works part time but doesn't do the childcare while your working? WTF! I would just leave for the whole day and put my phone on airplane mode.

Although him leaving them unsupervised in the pool is outrageous!!!

this whole generation is going to be addicted to Minecraft

Feeling much better this morning, spent a good couple of hours at my mum's last night and managed to get a fairly decent sleep as it has turned cooler here.

H is at work all day and the house is calmer.

I hear what people are saying about computer games but we only have one computer - my work laptop so their access to online ect is very limited.

It's traditional (hard work) activities here. I make playdough and they make an almighty mess with it. l try to set them up with a craft and they just chop it all into tiny pieces/cover everything in glue/paint things they aren't supposed to/fall out because the other one is touching their stuff/looking at them/breathing.
They have lots of stuff to play with a proper built sandpit and a slide in the garden but the 7yo has declared this all 'boring' and 4yo has started to copy his behaviour.

I don't really want to go into too much detail re H and our family situation as it would all be very outing but I know he is struggling too.
I think I take on an awful lot of responsibility for everyone's health and happiness (I have heard this referred to as mental load or wifework?)

I think H knows he is disengaged and feels guilty hense projecting onto me that I'm overprotective ect. I will speak to him but I need to find a time when we are calm and open and this isn't likely to be for a while.

I really do feel for you and as pp have suggested get df to spend time with them.
But,please don't let the boys hear you say you don't want them.it will stick in their minds for a lifetime.
Once heard it cannot be unheard.
Good luck!

I feel for your DC, i appreciate the current situation is difficult however your problem isnt your DC. Your lazy ass DH is, your not working as a team and sadly your primary focus is on hating your DC. Refocus your anger on the other adult in the house

I feel you op! Home every day for 14 weeks , working full time from home and I love them dearly but it's so hard! Constant mess, feeding them, breaking up fights and OH deciding now he must work more than he ever has before which is fine except it means I am doing it all alone 😓

@KarmaStar slightly concerned that you have jumped to me actually TELLING my children how I felt. Do you assume every struggling parent is emotionally abusive?

I would seriously consider emptying the paddling pool and going to your mum’s to work a few days a week.

If you could afford it, you could get 2 kindle tablets for kids for £200. It appears you can pay monthly for 5 months too.

Ignore Karmastar. These are your private thoughts and you are entitled to them (and I understand them a 100%!). It sounds like it would be a lot easier if your H stepped up rather than saying ‘I don’t want to’ which is staggeringly selfish. Sounds like you’d be perfectly entitled to give him a roasting imo.

Mine are almost 2 and 4. They are on opposing sleep schedules. The 4 year old is a whiney moo right now. I feel ya.

I got divorced. It’s great. No kids 50% of the time! 😂

Get them a tablet each. Seriously, i was on the verge of ANOTHER breakdown (genuinely) and felt like you did most of the time, when a relative bought them a tablet each, which i was resistant to as they're not 4 yet. But i gave in, and it's the best parenting decision i ever made I started them off on half an hour a day. It didn't take long for that to get stretched to an hour and a half max a day 😆 during that time, they sit quietly on the sofa not bugging me and i can do whatever i want. It's like an oasis of calm in the middle of the day.

I don't really have much to add except to say that I have two DSs almost exactly the same ages as your two, and if DH wasn't stepping up & doing his fair share I would've literally gone insane by now. You are really not alone in struggling. Also don't be ashamed to get on to your GP if necessary - anti-depressants etc obviously aren't a longterm solution but they might be the thing that gets you through the next few months. I've been off them for a while (had PND with both mine) but have opted to go back on just to get through this.

Just to add, I'm another one who can't cope with the idea of schools not going back fulltime in September. I think I'd actually riot....in a reasonably polite Centrist Mum way obviously .