If you would wipe out a piece of your life so it never affected you what would it be?

[WhatAMum01]

I'd never have fell for a much older guy when I was a teenager, we had a relationship if you can call it that ,but now on reflection as an adult makes my skin crawl ,he took advantage.cant believe how naive I was.it affects me to this day 25 years later.i know I'd be a different person if it hadn't happened.

Would erase Huntington's Disease. It has ravaged my family. I look at my DC and can't bear that they are at risk. Would have definately not had children if I would known about the disease in the family at that time.

The abusive childhood incident which gave me my lifelong phobia/PTSD. It ruins my life and those around me too.

@YabaDabaBoo
Forgive yourself

Arthritis- it is gradually stealing my life.

My mother. She should have died, not my Dad.

So, so many things but if I can only pick one, then my Dad's suicide.

My mother a nasty abusive person.

My ex husband. It's okay that your gay but using me as your unsuspecting beard was evil.

I wouldn't ever have gone on my first date with my now ex-DH. I'd have stayed home, or gone to the gym. Everything would be different now. Everything.

Of course, it might all be much worse now! I don't know what my alternative life paths would have been. I could be dead.

So on balance.. I'd never have smoked.

It would be the night my Dd was murdered.
We had spend the day together, shopping for baby clothes. When we got home she decided to go to her cousins to stay the night. I was tired and she said she would make her own way to her house.
If I could only go back and change my decision NOT to drive her there.

I sometimes wish my DM had never met her partner. After losing concentration at the wheel of their car, he drifted into oncoming traffic killing her and another woman.
i wish I could erase the anger.

All of my teen years but particularly the age of 17. A close friend was murdered, I was sexually assaulted walking home one night, I met some pretty toxic people and it took years to get one guy out of my life.

Secondary school non stop bullying. Then one day I punched back hard and it stopped.But those years before I was too shy and the last thing I wanted was for my older parents to have any hassle mum was unwell, so I kept it quiet and endured it.But in the long run it made me stronger.All that time I knew I could hit back hard but I was afraid of causing harm to my perpetrators and getting in trouble. Now looking back I wish I would have just kicked the shit outta them.

@SugarPlumFairyCakesits not your fault it's very fucking unfair but not your guilt to carry.let it go or it'll destroy you .from someone who has let it.

Mum diagnosed with Parkinson's the same year her first DGC was born (my DC).
Siblings being schizophrenic.

Teenage years and secondary school. They haunt me and have made me the mess I am.

All the useless men, though I suppose they all taught me something, in their various useless ways.

I'd have had a c/s with DS2. So I wouldn't have to wonder if some of his SN are because of my choices.

Selfish: if someone can please erase my ocd and other mental illness that'd be great thanks

Not so selfish: if cancer and Alzheimer's could fuck off that'd be good too.

I think we all have "sliding doors" moments but mine is more something I didn't do, due to misunderstandings and rumours and a lack of faith in myself I didn't get back in touch with the love of my life when we were both single and I was back in town (we'd split before for a number of reasons one of which was me having to move to other end of country due to circumstances outside the relationship).

It's difficult though because if I had then I wouldn't have met dds dad and had dd. Her dads shit but I love dd of course.

Abortion at 17. Biggest regret. It's affected my mental health so many times over the years.

I would choose a different mother. I would like a loving mother. Though I something that is very important for all of us to learn in life- we tend to treat our mother like a god. That she totally defines who we are. When she is just a flawed human being. I really had to learn that my mother's opinion of me - is not who I am. And to not see her opinion as worth more, than my own opinion of myself.

I would also erase:
My dad's suicide
Being bullied at school
Being sexually abused
One ex boyfriend who ruined years of my life.

I’d love to not have OCD. It controls my life absolutely and I hate that I’m not normal. I’d love to have a headache, without being convinced I have a brain tumour. Or leave my house without having to drive back passed it to make sure the doors and windows are closed. Or hold my newborn without wondering if I’m going to kill him accidentally. It’s also bled into other parts of my life, an ex boyfriend who I became obsessive about. He didn’t know but I honestly was so obsessed with him That the relationship consumed me to the point that I would have, and did do anything he asked of me. I ended up actually just allowing him to cheat on me, because the thought of him leaving me was unbearable, and when he did leave I was in physical pain for about 6 months.

I would erase the 5 years I was bullied at school, still remember it as though it was yesterday. Also the abusive relationship I had and my rape a few years ago. So much I'd like to erase, but then hopefully I'm a strong person because of it despite needing CBT and having to move back in with my parents :(

Oh what a sad thread.

Probably me having my children, not because I don’t want them. They deserve a better mother than me....

I'd erase my husband's infidelity.