To feel that his suicide is inevitable and I can’t prevent it.

[fearfullotsofthetime]

I love someone who struggles with his mental health, he’s honest about experiencing suicidal ideation periodically. He’s fully prepared to take his own life previously, bought the relevant items etc. When he’s well, he’s magnificent but he can deteriorate quickly and I feel like, should he decide to take his own life, I wouldn’t be able to prevent this.

How do I live with this? If he doesn’t answer my call or my text isn’t read for a while, I worry that he might have taken his life.

It’s destroying me. Any advice would be appreciated.

fearfullotsofthetime Be strong, you made the right choice although it probably feels horrible now, be kind to yourself, allow yourself healing time, most of all be resilient and strong, build yourself up.
Take it easy. Sending MN love and support to you.

Well done. You may well find that you start feeling better pretty quickly now that Mr Drama Llama is out of your life. Seek out friends and other people who care about you, spend time with them, do things that are fun and make you smile.

Be warned, though, this prick will probably try to make a pest of himself for a while. There will probably be at least one 'I'm swallowing the tablets NOW, bitch' phone call - if anything like that happens, call the police and send them round to his house. If he has done anything dangerous, they'll get him treatment; if he's dicking about, they will tell him off pretty thoroughly.

well done. That's very brave and strong, and right. Don't let him emotionally blackmail you now; you know your choice was the right one.

Hope you're ok OP

In my case, I walked. I did it several times and each time felt awful, guilty, weak etc. The last time I did it I felt relief. I couldn't fix him or even really help him. He was in one of his better phases and he told me to go for my own sake as he could see he was killing us both. When he was low he was manipulative and it ruined my mental health. I'm now married, successful and have a family. Three things that I would never have been with him.