Feeling so guilty! WWYD?

[hawaiii]

Back story is that I'm a SAHM. There are a number of family events happening this year that have put financial constraints on DH & I. I suggested DH & I couldn't attend the family events due to the financial outlay involved but family members have very kindly helped us to be able to afford to go as they've said we need to be there.

Anyway, a couple of weeks ago, I was feeling very down about myself and my appearance. I have some wrinkles that are quite bad for my age. They were really affecting my confidence and I didn't want to have my picture taken with my kids anymore. Any picture would be swiftly deleted. The up-shot is, I called a clinic and booked myself in for Botox and decided to put it on a credit card. I had the procedure yesterday but now that I'm seeing results already, I'm completely panicking. I'm seeing family next week who have given us financial help and I really think they'll notice the difference in my face. How am I going to explain the fact I've forked out for this?

If I could turn the clock back, I would never have had the Botox as now I'm completely plagued with guilt over it. I really didn't think this through.

What should I do? I feel like such a fool

I didn't plead poverty.

In my experience when folks decide that one will be a SAHP the considerations usually involve the sacrifice of some luxuries, which include foreign holidays. Nothing wrong with that at all especially when kids are small. This trip isn't only costing £1500. The total cost of any holiday includes all of the extras needed to go... luggage, enough clothes for everyone to last the trip without having to find a washing machine, suncream, passports etc. All the things that aren't always essential when spending time in the UK.

This has put you under financial pressure on top of the need to feel good and look good on a holiday and at at a family wedding still on a budget.

I don't blame you for the botox. Hopefully you feel good even if no one notices.

Thanks justturned50 ** i know I've made mistakes and I feel awful about it. I've had a rough couple of years with bad anxiety and I'm just coming out the other side of that. Like I said, I spent a long time battling eating disorders, I just want more than anything, to be happy for a while at least. Harder than it sounds.

Hawaii, have a wonderful holiday, enjoy yourself and enjoy the feeling of looking good.

There are so many people on here who love to judge other women for being a SAHM or having botox. It is none of their business. And to the person who said you don't work, and find a job - you have a job, the most demanding and least appreciated in the world.

I had botox last year after the death of both of my parents within a short time - I felt I needed a pick me up. I thought everyone would notice - no one did except me. I loved the way I looked and a few people thought I looked "well" but even those I told said - well I can't notice it. When it is done well it is not noticeable to those outside of beauty professionals.

And £160 is not a lot ( in the scheme of life) - I thought you had spent hundreds and hundreds. I mean you could have spend £350 on the cost of a dress for this wedding abroad and no one here would have given out to you, yet now you will look and feel fab - don't worry and enjoy it.

BoxsetsAndPopcorn, when did OP plead poverty? Please stop being so judgemental and, for want of a better word, bitchy.
OP enjoy yourself, you have done nothing wrong.
People on here need to stop being so judgemental about the decisions others make about there own lives. OP can put whatever she likes in her face, it's her face and if it makes her feel better then good for her!
I would be more pissed off about the fact you don't really want to go and now feel obliged to spend money on buying new clothes etc. And paying the money back!

Should have known Boxsets would be drawn here....not just a SAHM but a SAHM who's been given money and had Botox. It's basically a wet dream for him.

Family did pressure me into attending in a way. They would not have allowed me to not go

How old are you OP?

Are you scared of your family?