Lots of things.
I love my DS so much but I had him way too young, though he gave me the push to do my best in my education so I can provide him. I did very well in my GCSE's, A levels and Degree.
Staying with my ex abusive partner for so long ! I should of dumped him when I was pregnant with DS but I didn't want to be a statistic (single teenage mum,no dad on the scene) I also wanted that fairytale family unit (wasn't going to happen with him
). Even though I had DS at such a young age, I was smart enough not to give up everything for this man... I was this close.
It took me 2 years to get over being sad when DS was diagnosed with SEN. I was depressed, didn't want to go out. I wish I enjoyed DS then, I was also warped in my whole abusive relationship. I wish I was like "OK, so he has this type of SEN, you know what, we are going to make the best of it and it's us against the world". Instead I didn't see a way out of this dark cloud.Now I'm making the most of it, we have been on fantastic holidays, we have lots of adventures.
Being concerned what others thought of me, comparing my life to others (this heightened when DS was diagnosed with having special needs). Now I think, who the cares ? It's a waste of time ! I've realised that everyone has their own journey in life, their experiences.. I need to focus on enriching my own life, instead of what others are doing . 