Good luck OP
I think you've demonstrated enormous generosity of spirit here - far more than anyone else on this thread.
You care for your children alone for nine months of the year. Yet when your DH comes home, neither your first, nor second thought is 'I desperately need some time to replenish myself. DH, DCs, here's your time together, while I go and decompress' (as I think mine would be). Rather, all your thoughts are about trying to facilitate time spent all together, as a family. (More facilitation of others' needs, in a life of the same, it appears to me).
As I said way upthread, I am truly fascinated by the way that not a single Christian on the thread has shown any concern for your spiritual needs, or the time, or support from DH you might need, in order to fulfill them.
People have even taken it upon themselves to lecture you on the value of church as providing a support network, community, social life, informing you that 'spirituality is good for mental health'... without once inquiring about your spirituality and how it might be fulfilled. Or your moral and personal support network, community or social life.
This conveys to me two things. The first, the discovery of a void where spiritual empathy might be expected to be found, I find quite disquieting.
The second, less shocking, is the demonstration of organised religions as clubs, that look after their own. Name your spirituality in the terms of one of the big teams and (even if you do so before fully thinking things through), you have a world of team-mates happy to stick up for you. Name it in other, or personal terms, or prefer to do your thinking before arriving at a point of naming and formalising, and you really are not just on your own.