To drink wine in the park?

[FlapsTie]

We've walked two miles to the good park. We stopped at the shop to buy the essentials (milk, water and wine). I have cups with me so the kids can have a drink. They've been in the park for an hour and we have another hour to go before DH picks us up.

Just how bad would it be to pour myself a glass of vino? I am bored shitless. Will everybody judge me and will I be an awful parent?

If it matters, the wine is still nice and cold. Although the plastic cup may mar the taste somewhat. I'm sitting outside the actual play park with the dog.

AIBU? Would you?

Everyone is entitled to have their own opinion, including those who choose to disagree with my posts

God, how obnoxious can you be...

Jane is still continuing to post because some people like to get the last word in, even if it makes them look like utter bellends.

Perhaps we should all ignore Jane.

All in favour say 'Aye!'

Anyway op, back to you and your thread. I really hope you find some help in some of the comments. Looks like you already have people on mumsnet keen to support and help you.

Everyone is entitled to have their own opinion, including those who choose to disagree with my posts

No one with any modicum of intelligence is going to agree that addiction and bipolar/MH issues are best managed simply by having a bit more "control".

You're being rather silly. If you can't offer support to Flaps, why not go and find something more productive to do with your evening?

Oh Flaps, my heart goes out to you. I suspected it was bipolar disorder before you said it. I used to work in a specialist psychosis team and I've seen it so many times. It's such a spiralling, cruel disorder and the vast majority of people have such low esteem.

Let's reframe things a bit; you knew things weren't ok because you posted and asked. That is a positive thing. You have awareness of symptoms and you know about your illness. You also know that you need to reach out for help and you know who to contact. Lots of people can't or won't do these things. It's not as if you're not trying. You are ill and you need support.

Please don't beat yourself up over this thread and please don't let the twats who aren't reading properly drag you down. You are a worthy human being.

Take care of yourself. Please phone your CPN and possibly out of hours tonight if you continue to feel the way you do. Don't be alone.

Thanks all of you. I'm in bed now but I will call my cpn tomorrow and ask for some specific alcohol support.

Sleep well and remember tomorrow's a new day (yep, I know, cheese fest ) keep on posting tomorrow.

Aye!
You can do it Flapstie

Hey OP. Hope you're ok. Irrespective of what everyone else thinks about drinking in the park today, are you happy with it?
I've been (until very recently) a binge drinker who justified it in all kinds of ways. Eventually I'd had enough and I went to an AA meeting. It wasn't, as I'd expected, full of people who downed vodka for breakfast. It was full of people like me.
I'm not pretending that I'm now perfect but it was the best and most positive thing I've done in a long time. If your drinking is bothering you then you can try giving AA a call or just turn up at a meeting.
It might be the start of something new for you.
Good luck!!

OP you are very brave, you've come on here and started to face your behaviour.

My first instinct in answer to your post was no,you can't do that, people,will judge you and some do gooder will ring social services. But it's something I would think about, but am too afraid to be judged to do. I walk the fine line but so far I'm in control of it and have starred to address the reasons for my dependency on alcohol and food.

I hope,you get the help you need. You know you are destroying your family, it is so hard to love an addict and for an addict to love themselves xx

Hi FlapsTie,
Wishing you all the best. We know you, and you're a decent sort. Good luck tomorrow, and for the rest of it all, and we are pleased and proud that you are getting support from your fellow MNers.
Now get some sleep.

Thanks Other Helen. That's very kind.

Night all x

Hi OP. How are you this morning? [Flowers]

Morning flaps how are you?

flaps just wanted to add my support and send very best wishes. Hope the call to you cnp goes well. Very brave to identify a problem and take the first steps to fixing it. Bloody well done

Hope you're okay this morning Flaps

Morning Flaps, hope you're feeling ok this morning, thinking of you.

Morning everyone. I've just got up. Feeling very ashamed and low. DH has sent me a text from work to remind me he loves me. I'm going to have a coffee and then call my cpn. Things are going to change.

Be strong, you can do this.

We are all with you Flaps

I've left a message for my cpn. But I've also looked up the drug and alcohol service and you can self refer. So I've just phoned. I'm going to see them for an assessment on Monday. My heart is pounding. Now I've just got to work out how to get there, I struggle with buses but I might ask one of my friends if they can give me a lift.

Sounds good Flaps, I hope a mate can help you out.