To ask why it's ok to have a bootle of wine on a Saturday afternoon with someone but not on your own.

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I'm being a facetious, alcoholic idiot. Anyone want to tell me why it would be such a spectacularly bad idea to stick dd infront of CBeebies and hide in my bedroom with some wine (or the bottle of gin my alcoholic Dad bought for me, his alcoholic daughter for her birthday . Thanks dad).

I've come so far in my sobriety this is like a bolt out of the blue. I went at the last minute to the pharmacy to collect my head meds and they said the dr hadn't sent it through so I'm stuck till Monday. This has brought on a big self medicating craving. It's just me and dd all live long day.

I'm having such a bad craving and my AA friend is away on a dirty weekend so I don't want to bother her and really don't want to admit I'm tempted to anyone else in RL.

Can anyone be arsed to talk some sense into me?

Well done, you're an ace Mum!

You are amazing, OP. Really, truly, stunningly amazing.

You are amazing! Well done.

Why not pop to the pharmacy on the way back from the park and see if they can give you something to tide you over till Monday? And get some chocolate. Lots of chocolate.

You will look back on today and know it was a red letter, red leaves day. Amazing.

Well done. Fantastic

I understand. It's so dangerous isn't it.

Tomorrow morning is the time you will most appreciate pouring it away. If you are like me, yes, you will feel proud right now, but still (secretly and only a small bit) disappointed you aren't drinking it.

But tomorrow morning is a whole different ballgame (as you know)...you try and hold on to how you feel tomorrow morning. That will be 100% pride and relief, no small secret disappointment at all.

Well done on your strength.

Brilliant. Watch out for times like this. It's a creeper upper. Hungry angry lonely tired. Look online. I found some AA podcasts before that were good if you can't get out to a meeting. Don't fall as far as I had to! Your doing so well x

Oh yes H.A.L.T. It's very true. I've got some posh chocolate to see me through later.

The pharmacist was adamant they couldn't give me any as I was on a trial dose. It's only been a couple of weeks.

Thank you for all the lovely messages

Oh I'm so chuffed you got rid of it I really am

www.rpharms.com/non-member/emergency-supply-qrg.pdf

Can you try a different pharmacist at your usual place? In cases like this they're supposed to give an emergency supply (it would only be for today and tomorrow).

Good luck. x

Yes, pour it down the drain. Have a cuppa. Grab your coat and take your daughter out to the local park, play on the swings, feed the ducks. Come home and have a girly night with you DD (pizza and coke with a movie). You need to distract, distract, distract. You can do it. Stay strong.

Not RTFT - well done on getting rid! If it's not there you can't drink it. You should be proud of having done that

put her in frint of tv, go to room, lie down and listen to a youtube passive muscle relaxation video and think about nice things to do in the background.. that'll at least get rid of 20 mins..and dont feel bad about not getting meds, its fine. .:)

You rock

Remember it's a spiral shell. And you are spiraling down it. You feel good, it hits, you feel good, it hits. But the further down the shell you get, the less often it happens. You got past this one!

And next time your sponsor goes away for a bit of nookie, have a solid plan B!

Continued happy smiles for strong and for the supportive online posts. AND MN never closes! There'll always be someone here to support you. How neat is that? Thank you justine &co for giving us this

Now then, something upthread on p.1 made me really cross. ( another thread to address this ?) Just, this assumption that if one lives alone and, shock horror, drinks, one is an alcoholic? Gotta be a section in Cunts Corner for posts like this, along side the ones that say it's 'not worth' cooking anything other than basic sustenance, for one..grrrr.

Those leaves are amazing. Your child is amazing. You are amazing. Well done!

Are you sure those leaves aren't fake? They're brilliantly red!

Forgot the !!

Basking in lovely mnetters warmth
It's honestly such a great resource to women everywhere. Thanks for all the kindness. You all rock!

The craving has definitely passed and I'm back on track. The ADs (meds) should be fine till Monday. I haven't been on them long enough for them to take affect yet so it's more of a psychological crutch at the moment.
Also I'm ashamed to say, at the time, the lack of them seemed like a perfectly valid excuse to drink

I think I've suitably worn out my little ball of girl shaped energy and mayhem so once she's down its:
Pizza, Netflix, bath and posh tea. Happy Saturday evening everyone.

Ugh I want pizza and Netflix too. But I'm still travelling home. All I want is a shower!

Well done.

And those leaves are amazing aren't they? I'm glad the colour came through in the pics (they're real!).

And yes to the poster who said about a sponsor plan B. She's great and I'm hoping her weekend is as filthy as she was hoping it would be but I need a back up. The guy on the AA line was good but child free and young and male. Not so much in common.

What a wonderful autumn day your little girl is having. She's lucky to have you

Well done! You are doing the right thing
Reaching out is hard to do and you did it!

You are amazing! Well done for throwing the gin away.

You've got this! I don't know you, but I'm proud of you, be proud of yourself.

Much love and strength

I was so proud of you when I read you threw the gin away. Well done! It looks as though you are being an awesome Mama today; regardless of how low you are feeling, your daughter is unaware and having a lovely day. You are creating memories and happy feelings for her. The cravings and feelings are strong and difficult to cope with but they do pass. You can phone the Samaritans any time you are finding things difficult to cope with. It isn't just about suicide - any person would be happy to talk with you in this situation. You might feel like calling them tonight when you don't have to be strong or have your Dd as a distraction. It is free from all phones on 116 123.
Take care, you are doing very well. You can do anything!

Well done! Definitely get that picture on the fridge. I hope you have a lovely evening with your DD! Post on here anytime you need a handhold