To ask why it's ok to have a bootle of wine on a Saturday afternoon with someone but not on your own.

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I'm being a facetious, alcoholic idiot. Anyone want to tell me why it would be such a spectacularly bad idea to stick dd infront of CBeebies and hide in my bedroom with some wine (or the bottle of gin my alcoholic Dad bought for me, his alcoholic daughter for her birthday . Thanks dad).

I've come so far in my sobriety this is like a bolt out of the blue. I went at the last minute to the pharmacy to collect my head meds and they said the dr hadn't sent it through so I'm stuck till Monday. This has brought on a big self medicating craving. It's just me and dd all live long day.

I'm having such a bad craving and my AA friend is away on a dirty weekend so I don't want to bother her and really don't want to admit I'm tempted to anyone else in RL.

Can anyone be arsed to talk some sense into me?

Can you walk to a supermarket? Go and buy a pumpkin and carve it with your daughter. Better still, buy 2 and have a competition (she can win!)?

Collage sounds a great idea.

You are completely awesome. You haven't caved, even when you desperately want to, because you want to be the best mum you can. I wish I was as brilliant for my children

In my group, there was a guy who kept an unopened bottle of vodka in his kitchen. He said he liked feeling that he finally had control over booze, which is why he kept it - he get he was winning the battle. You can guess what happened. And don't apologise - this is you and your story.

Drink it. It will feel great. For a while. And then you won't have to worry about it. Because it will be gone. As will your happiness and pride.

Or.

Go take the bottle and empty it down the sink. No-one needs that kind of negativity hanging around.
Then go give your daughter a cuddle. She will be immensely proud of you. Not because you tipped it away. But because you are being the mum she needs and wants you to be. And feel proud of yourself.
After your cuddle, go do that art. But do me a favour. Post a pic of the results here on this thread. Then we can be proud of you too.
Take the art to your next meeting too, share your successes.

You aren't going to drink it, you are going to do some amazing art with your loving child.

So go tip it away and don't come back to this thread until you have some amazing things to share.

Do it now, and be proud of yourself

hugs

felt , not 'get'

My H has (had) 2 alcoholic parents. Not pretty.

Could you put something into the gin that makes it undrinkable. Soy sauce or ketchup - not something dangerous. Or pour half away and top up with water every hour until it's gone. That bottle really needs to go x

Pour it away in anger and imagine it's going into your silly dad's eyes

Wishing you strength, well done for reaching out. this thread is a distraction and if time keeps passing then you are making it without giving it.

giving in - stupid phone typo!

If you can't bring yourself to put the Gib down the loo, regift it. Pop it on the neighbours doorstep with a note. Or give it to a charity for raffling off. Or ask someone you know to take care of it for you.

My Dad is an alcoholic and won't admit it. I've had to have an intervention with my DP because of his alcohol problems. I hate that these things affect me than just the drinker.

However, I'm fat. My addiction is food. My go to when feeling down or panicky or any feeling at all really.... is to eat. And eat. And not move or exercise, just lie under the duvet and procrastinate.

So I understand addiction to a degree. Distractions help. Brush your teeth, try to take the craving taste away, and keep focusing on your beautiful daughter.

You can do this. Much love.

The gin is no more!!! Down the toilet but it smelt so good.

I'll be back later to post our crappy autumn leaf pic!

Thanks everyone, you are all awesome.

Just jumping on this thread to recommend a book that's already made a huge difference for me and only half way through. It's called This Naked Mind. Written by a woman who found herself drinking 2 bottles of wine at night and it not being enough. It explains how your unconscious mind sabotages your conscious one, so when you've made a conscious decision not to drink, your unconscious mind sabotages you.

Link

It's very logical, written by someone who has been there. Worth giving it a go?

op, you wrote this earlier

" My Dad doesn't accept I have a drinking problem.... Hence the litre of gin."

I think its more a case of misery loves company

you have that to contend with along with everything else

so look at that bottle of gin not as alcohol but as a bottle of misery and pour it down the sink straight away.

be kind to yourself

*gin
*more (not me!)

Well done on doing the pouring out!!

just seen your update,,,brilliant!!

teacherbob lovely words.

and I'm looking forward to seeing your pictures later, they cant be any worse than my attempts at crafts when mine were small

It's so hard to describe how powerful a craving is when you're an alcoholic. It is a physically and mentally overwhelming experience - a tsunami of emotion and need. It's fucking awful.

BUT: they are just thoughts. Nothing more. Deep breaths and let them pass on, like clouds getting a bit hippy here, Jess. You can do this!

Yay, stong. (Jumps about!). High five! Well fucking done! Bye bye booze! Brilliant stuff; proud of you!

Oh well done

One little tip - make sure you're eating plenty. Tough when you're anxious, but I always find the desire to drink increases the hungrier I am. A full stomach makes me more disinclined to crave alcohol.

Well done!!!!!

I'll be back later to post our crappy autumn leaf pic!

No you won't. You will be back later to post an amazing autumn leaf picture that represents the pride your child has in you and the pride and strength you have in yourself.
That one picture represents everything amazing about you and your decision. Keep it, forever and never forget what it means.

Thanks everyone, you are all awesome.

No we aren't. You are awesome.

#justsaying

Very well done.

I'm proud of you too. That was a massive step.

Enjoy making the leaf pic with your daughter. Revel in the change in her in the last fortnight, how happy she now is. Frame the picture or stick it to the fridge - she'll be thrilled and proud and you can be proud that it's from the day you didn't drink, despite the worst temptation.