Like other posters there are times where I've refused to use my wheelchair just because of the attitudes of others when I'm in the wheelchair,my Drs at the Dr's surgery and the specialists I'm under at the hospital would go mad at me if they found out.
I'm supposed to be in it all the time,part of the reason is I suffered a rare form of brain damage(that's what set all the problems of)and my left side of my brain sometimes forgets to send messages to the right side of my brain.
Twice it's caught me out and been quite severe when it has,once I fell in the road(no cars coming,I didn't endanger any one else I never would)really buggered my self up then and another time was in our garden I fell but fell onto bent my bent legs(God only know's why my body thought that would be a good idea)I managed to deflate my left lung that time,it's never recovered.
Another poster said about the way you can look changing the way people treat you when your disabled,it reminded me of the worst time I ever had because of that.I had only been out of the hospital a few weeks,we had 5DC and our youngest was just over a year old.We took our 5DC to a lovely wildlife park we'd gone to many times over the years.
I was feeling exhausted by the time we sat down for lunch but was doing okay,we start to eat and I get the shakes,struggle to feed myself and the right side of my face and my right eye dropped a bit.
The young women on the till says to 3 other members of staff so we could hear here "How disgusting fancy coming out with your children and your bloody drunk" The bitch presumed I was drunk,my DH and the older DC went mad,my DH went and gave her what for and reported her,luckily enough a couple of the members of staff she'd said it to were already having a go at and going of course she's not drunk she's ill the poor woman.
The supervisor and manager came and said sorry,told her off in front of everyone and took her out the back with them.
Needless to say I stopped eating,my DH wheeled me to the toilets whilst our DC finished eating and I sat in the disabled toilet and sobbed for 10 minutes.I felt so guilty towards my DC,I felt like I'd let them down and made them feel embarrased because they're Mum didn't look normal to anyone anymore.
The just I talked about above(not wanting to be in the wheelchair just because of peoples reactions)that just has made me feel suicidal more than once in the past.
And MummyMe 1987 can I just say thank you so much for starting this thread,it's really helping me,I don't feel so alone anymore 