Mid 30s, 2 DC under 5, married, work FT.
I'm not sure if it's apathy or depression or what but life feels a bit flat and like I scowl quite a lot.
I get frustrated easily and don't laugh very often. I guess I'm pretty uptight. I feel lazy and complacent and tired.
DH and I often rub each other up the wrong way. We haven't had sex for ages, like a year or something. I love him dearly but feel quite distant from him. I think he feels the same.
I have very little patience with the children to the point where today I've just put them in front of the telly so I can just switch off a bit. Then I feel guilty as I'm at work all week and, when I took this full time job, had intended to make the weekends all about the kids...
My parents are close by but I'm ashamed to say I'm not very tolerant of their set ways. I suspect DM is borderline narc so think I'm dealing with facing that too.
The house needs a lot of work and the work we have done is half finished.
I've just started a new hobby but I can feel the excuses to not bother going creeping in.
I find my friends hard work. Not particulate close geographically or emotionally to my siblings.
On the face of it, I've got noting to moan about (lovely family, good job paying well, nice house). Yet I am moany. There's not much joy in anything at the moment and I don't really know why. But it's not that I'm unhappy - just not specially happy either.
And i feel super brattish too as I'm fully aware that loads of people have proper/real/big/serious/devastating/tough shit going on and here's me moaning about, well, er, nothing really.
Is this normal? Does everyone else with small children feel a bit zombie-ish? I'd like to go and live a simple life on a desert island, or do something really adventurous that will really ignite some excitement. But alas, there's washing to be hung out and I need to magic something up for dinner................