Faye YES I can relate to this! All sorts of stuff going on in my head, very imaginative and inquisitive, a massive range of interests, and I would love to be able to talk about anything and everything. I also had a very dysfunctional family background and I think I didn't learn a lot about how to behave. I know from what people have said that I'm considered odd and I know I've often been very blunt because I didn't realise there are things you're not meant to say. It's been a hard learning curve and the result is that now I often don't even start. I stand in the playground and I know I give off "don't chat to me" vibes because I will be terrible at a chitty chatty, meaningless conversation – I'm bad at it and I get so bored – but I know if I talked about what interests me, I'd sound weird.
So I think now people think I'm shy, humourless, standoffish etc which I'm not.
I don't have an office job and this is why – I used to, but I couldn't fit in. I was young then and didn't understand why, but looking back I was just too honest, too into my work and had no "curbs" on what I would say. I remember in that office the people I really got on with were extreme oddballs themselves. I went freelance and work at home - it suits me much better.
I love MN because here I can talk about things I'm interested in, and truths about myself that would be too heavy for an everyday conversation.
Are you new to MN? You might find it a bit of a lifesaver. I also think it's possible to make like-minded friends in RL, but it's hard because of course they will probably be holding back like you are. I do have some lovely friends, but in the main they just accept my oddness. I haven't found many who I can really say are like me, IYSWIM.
Lastly I have been told I very likely have ASD, but I haven't pursued a full diagnosis. I have read some books about it though and found them helpful.