To want to run away

[LostJennyWren]

Today is my 25th birthday, likely the last birthday I will ever have. I have recently been diagnosed with a rare cancer, and the prognosis is not good. I have a two year old daughter. Every time I look at her my heart breaks. She will never remember me.
Anyway, all of my family and friends want me to enjoy my birthday. My DH wants us to do something special as a family and pretend everything is normal. But I can't. AIBU to just want to check myself into a hotel room alone and spend the day crying? I can't cope anymore. Nothing helps.

Still here jenny xx

I check your thread several times a day, thinking of you and your family

I'm still here and thinking of you. xx

Still thinking of jenny every day x

Hey Jenny. We won't forget

Thinking of you xx

I think of you so often Jenny. You've touched many many hearts.

I gave up Mumsnet for lent and have just relented to let you know I am thinking of you. Please know you have inspired so many and I only wish I could give you a real hug

It's been a long time since she's posted. I do hope she is pain free and has found peace.

Thinking of you

Yep. Hopefully she's spending time with her family.
It's awful not knowing

Agree qod. Thinking of you every day jenny xx

I'm still here, sorry for not posting in a while. Just been a month of hell.
As always thank you for your support, there are not enough words to express how much it helps.

But seriously FUCK FUCKING BASTARDING CANCER.

I'm sorry if people have been worried, I just haven't had the energy to do much of anything. Other than cry really.

Sweetheart, you concentrate your energy on what you need to do. And if that means having a good cry then so be it.

Just know that we're all here thinking of you x

How are you doing? Are you having lots of snuggles with your gorgeous little boy? X

Jenny ((((((((hugs)))))))) xxxxx

Oh jenny. It's unfathomable to imagine how you must be feeling. Your frustration and anger must be so raw and hard to shoulder. I do hope you have some happy times.

How are you spending your days? Are you able to make any short term plans.

I hope your little boy is bringing you some joy, even amongst the dark.

More hugs from me Jenny. Cancer can fuck right off.

So sorry op
Can't imagine what u r going through!!
Buy a lovely box in it put photo memory's of the both of you
Your fav pics of yourself
Can u record a video message
Write a card for all her bdays
Your fav jewellery
A trinket bracelet is a lovely idea
Chose charms that mean something
Write her letters

It must be so hard.
I'm swearing at the cancer for you too.

xxx

Cancer is a cunt

tell us about your boy, is he mad on Thomas? Have you managed to do any cards or anything?

Xxxx

Swear away, Jenny. Here is a hand to hold while you do so. xx

I'm a total lurker, never post but had to delurk to say how I'm thinking of you and your family Jenny xxxxxxx

My baby is an absolute angel. He rushes up to me and gives me cuddles and kisses me when he thinks I'm sad. He dances around the room to cheer me up. He loves singing and reading books. It feels like he's learning 10 new words a minute. He pretends to feed me and his dolls. He is my sweetheart. My one chink of light and everything I am fighting for, even though I know I won't win. I love him so much that it breaks my heart to look at him because I know the pain we are both heading for.

He sounds like an utter sweetheart Jenny - affectionate and adorable. You must be so proud of him

All you can do is take one day at a time, sweetheart. Fill your time with cuddles and snuggles and singing and reading - or whatever it is you have the energy for.

What are your plans for the weekend? It's supposed to be nice outside if you have the energy? (Although snoozing on the sofa in front of fireman Sam also sounds rather wonderful!)