AIBU to ask you all to tell me a secret

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Ill go first! I quite fancy my friends gay brother! lol

I quite often swig wine straight out of the bottle in the early evening and then tell DH I am not drinking.

I also wrinkle my nose in distaste and tell DH the room smells of fart in the morning when he wakes up when really it's because I've done a big shit in the en suite ten minutes earlier.

My married best friend was in love with me for years and often declared himself. I never told anyone, let alone his wife.

I used to drink in the morning and then have a nap so apparently I was then 'ok to pick the kids up'

I also didn't shower

ugh I feel hideous typing it but at least I can say I'll never do it ever again and I feel like a fucking horrid person to have ever been there

on a lighter note I had a nice dream about seeing a very nice looking man naked.............it was a an mners husband

Im still in love with someone from my past. Its been over 10 years since I last saw him and I often imagine bumping into him or his best friend.

Also I have never enjoyed sex with DH and we've been together for 11 and half years and have 3 DCs. Now I just get on with it when he suggests it (unless I really dont want to more than usual so I feign illness - he never pushes me into it luckily)

My secret that no one else knows (and will never know) is when I was in my early 20's, at college and skint I saw an ad for receptionist at a sauna..only when I went for interview it was clear they wanted me to do more than booking men in for massages. For almost 2 years I led a double life..friends thought I worked nights in a nursing home but in actual fact I was going to work in a seedy massage parlour offering "extras" on top of their massage. Hand relief (15) blow job (40) blow and sex (60).im so ashamed I did this and I know it most definitely had an impact in my relationships with men after it (thought that they were mostly pervy bastards). Im now happy and in a good place..but sometimes I can imagine the look on my mil's face if she new my little secret...:-)

I bought and ate a pack of roast beef slices from Waitrose last week.

I'm a vegetarian!

I frequently throw away Tupperware, and other containers, rather than clean up the mouldy fridge food.

I miss my emotionally abusive, cheating ex. When I found out he was cheating, I also discovered he was committing benefit fraud. I reported him. I slept with his best mate not long after as well. Infact any time my ex and I had broken up in the past, his friend was 'there' for me.

I regret all of this and wish I could undo it all. I haven't seen him in over a year now and it kills me. I play like I'm all over it and tell my friends that I don't give a shit, that i don't want to see him again or hear from him again. That's only because I'm scared of him telling me how awesome his life is. I live in fear of him popping up in suggested friends on Facebook in with a profile picture with his new gf or god forbid, a baby. There's so many things in my life I have that I didn't when I was with him. I'd swap them all even though I know he isn't worth it.

Wow. Some desperately sad posts here. Some funny, disturbing, shocking!

My secret. DH was born female and our DD was conceived via IUI in a clinic. No one knows that.

I LOVE to pick my nose :o

I'm still slightly in love with the Ex I had that used to rape me, beat me, terrorise me and my DC's (none of them his), even though I KNOW I can never allow myself to be with him again or even see him. I still have days where I feel like my heart is breaking even though I haven't seen or spoken to him, or even texted or fb messages him for almost 5 years.

WTF is wrong with me?!

I know that I am strong enough and rational enough not to act on these feelings but for fuck sake will they NEVER end? Will I always love the abusive wankstain and want to be held in his arms, even if that would mean a trade off of being beaten the shit out of, raped vaginally and anally, and being treated with more contempt than a piece of dog shit on his shoe?

WHY does he still have headspace no matter what I do?

I absolutely loath my best friends DH. He is an arrogant, smug pig. She seems to think the sun shines out of his morbidly obese arse.

He earns a lot of money but is so tight. He controls her with money and always complains about what she buys, yet lavishes himself with whatever he wants.

I have babysat her 2 DC a couple of times so she could study or catch up on her chores and found out later that he was out playing golf at the time. It wouldn't occur to him to do "women's work" like tidying up, cleaning, cooking or caring for his own children.

He expects their home to be to display home standard but doesn't help. She isn't allowed to iron when he is at home or clean as the noise annoys him and he can't hear the tv.

My only hope is that he is very obese and she will outlive him and have a fantastic lifestyle on his savings, share portfolio and life insurance.

Only my DH knows how I feel. And now I'm going to hell

DH text a mutual friend from my phone pretending to be me to tell him I still thought about that time when said friend made a massive pass at me. We were both very drunk and nothing happened, I told DH a few days later and he was fine with it. Friend and I originally agreed not to talk about the incident again, but he didn't know I'd told DH. So I must have looked like a total loon when the text came through, almost 2 years after the incident happened. Friend went no contact immediately and I haven't spoken to him for a year. Yes I did still find him attractive, but I never mentioned it. I'm still annoyed at DH and miss talking to friend.

I have lots of secrets that I'm not prepared to divulge. I often wonder how many secrets other people are carrying.

Cars have brakes.

Crazy driver, you can slow down when faced by an obstacle, such as a teen cycling to school, rather than accelerate and swerve around them.

I think some people carry a lot of secrets Artic, a lot depends on life experiences etc. There are secrets I have that I would never breathe a word about in real life, the upset some of them would cause would be immense.

The secret I divulged here is one that bugs me, we have mutual friends with the friend, and they've wondered why he has gone quiet and won't get involved in group conversations anymore. He has cut a lot of us off, defriending from Facebook and Skype, apart from the odd one or two. He did that after the text incident. I feel very responsible. I'm waiting one day for the reason to be brought up and then potentially losing this set of friends too.

My secret. We tell everyone we're too young for a baby and that it's a crazy idea. We've been trying to conceive for 15 months. I haven't ovulated since August. A friend had to tell me she was pregnant the other day before she told everyone else due to a commitment in our calendars, I sobbed myself to sleep.

I am secretly jealous of one of my sisters, who seems to have everything and who is the 'Alpha' of our siblings. She also drives me insane because she moans about being broke, but her & her husband's combined income makes them the best off out of all of us, but they keep going overseas and buying stuff. But I love her so much and she's one of my best friends, so I will never let on how I feel.

I have had a threesome on 3 separate occasions, twice with the same couple.

I snogged a guy who later turned out to be a paedophile. I had no idea at all. I am so so ashamed

I am desperate for another child and we are trying but it took so long last time and I think the pressure added to the delay so I can't tell anyone in RL even though I really want to!