AIBU to ask you all to tell me a secret

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Ill go first! I quite fancy my friends gay brother! lol

I fancy Charlie Brooker.

I know that my colleague fooled around and almost cheated on his wife with a friend of mine (she told me about it before he was a colleague).
Gossip in our department is rife but I haven't told a soul. They have three kids. Everyone makes mistakes, right?

I know that my cousins have a half sister that they know nothing about. I only know because my mum blurted it once, how long before someone blurts it out to one of them?

Onesecret. Your job don't need to see your medical records. Seeing a therapist will only be a good thing for you. Or maybe see a counsellor privately? Then it wouldn't even be on your medical records. I promise you won't regret it. You don't deserve the unhappiness you are feeling and things can get better.

My manager is working from home tomorrow, but really he's going on holiday.

OneSecret that's really sad, and even more so that you're not getting the support you deserve :(
Open up to someone, you're not alone in your feelings and you can feel much better.

My own secret is... actually, I don't think I have one!

I know my Dad has had an affair. Her name - the lot. Haven't told a soul.

Hmm...

Well, more of an admission of truth:

I am the judgiest mother in most playgroups, but in reality I'm probably the least competent parent of them all.

I am depressed, but mainly I'm wholly unlikable.

Hey hey! Cause=correlation? Maybe...

Apparently an aunt and uncle are not their fathers natural child, they're mum had a fling.

Dm blabbed this to me after a glass or two of wine but refuses to talk about it now!

OH is doing my fucking head in.

I'm not well at the moment, and pretty immobile but he's not doing things the way I do.

I know I'm being a brat, and really I am, I wouldn't run around after him the way he is after me, but I fucking hate it.

And the worst is everyone is telling me how great he is and I want to scream no he's fucking not!, yes he's picking up the slack, but no fucker praised me when he was ill.

I'm a cow aren't I?

I had a beast enlargement 13 years ago. No-one in my life knows this.

I don't have one friend in real life :( :(

I have running away bank account

Oh I've always had a running away account as advised by my Ma.

Ma was happily married for 45+ years, but so many of her childhood friends were trapped.

All of us girls have always had a safety account.

Ah posted too soon OH knows about it but not how much is in there.

Mummy beerest and nicked vodka, we need to get together.

I have a wonderful dh and quite nice life, but my Mum is a paedophile and I could quite happily kill people. I wouldn't really not till dd's 40 at least.

I secretly sort of got back together with my Twunt. No one in RL knows and not does anyone here til now. I have late onset pnd and he's gas lighting me and being worse than ever and mostly now, in between working a super stressful job and raising my 3 kids alone, I see him occasionally, put up with him putting me down and accept the most measly scraps of affection and tiny amounts of time. I have suicidal thoughts regularly the past few months. Don't feel I can even talk about it here because everyone was so proud of me for getting rid of him and doing so well alone etc that I feel like a stupid idiot and total let down.

And part of me just had to write that precisely here because I need someone to say that I am strong enough to ditch him for good and that he is bad for me and that I'm not as bad as he makes out

i had a very inappropriate encounter with a man of the cloth

I love Eros Ramazzotti's music. And I keep plotting my escape to a foreign country to write my novel and live a bohemian life. I reckon I could last out about two years before I had to do anything by way of paid work if I could live really cheaply. But real life is a good way of researching novels, so I can't quite tear myself away. It's also a good way to get to sleep, thinking about plot structure.

What beast did the beast enlargement enlarge?'

Flip I have been a huge fan of eros for years have loads of his cds named my dd after one of his songs

Sometimes I go to bed without cleaning my teeth

I've been having really weird dreams and have all these strange feelings that are so hard to explain. Like I'm kinda in love with Someone I've never even met.

I have no idea what it all means.

[blush

Waves, if you are strong enough to take his abuse and hide it from everyone you are strong enough to leave him for good.

You are amazing, holding down a job, raising 3 kids and coping with a twunt? I don't think a bad person could cope with so much.