Ganga, While I was in expat hell, i confess to being hooked on that stuff, to unwind after a day's incarceration, to help me sleep the hell of that place away. I really struggled to survive without it. Others I know out there still took sleeping tablets, it's whatever you can get your hands on to sleep away as much of life as possible.
Oh yes, I know the hell of 10 solid weeks stuck indoors with 6m old baby... H couldn't literally be bothered to take us out. In the end I gave up asking.
I noted that over the years, i got more and more aggressive, especially if I tried to give it a rest and didn't smoke it. That stuff is dangerous, it numbs your brain and H who can't seem to give it up, is giving up on meaningful life instead, and therefore we will split as soon as I can pack him back off to his hell hole of a country. He can them smoke himself into oblivion again.
OK so you did it at UNI, now you are a responsible adult, time to put away the childish things and stop taking drugs.
If you can top the experiences that drove me to smoke it day in day out then let us help solve those issues. I'm willing to bet you don't you just do it cos you can.
That's not enough of a reason to keep doing it, it's damaging your brain and you are already addicted.
Pack it in, and pack the fags in too.
I, btw am back home since May 2009, am at least 18 months clear of both hash and fags, have never felt better and I sleep better than I have done for years. I may still struggle with PTSD, with Agoraphobia, but I can still face life without Hash. So can you.
please don't kid yourself, you have a problem with this stuff and you need to address it.
Smoking it every night is addiction, smoking it cos you need it to unwind is addiction, smoking it cos you need it to sleep is addiction.
Face up to it and I promise you that life will be even better when you are free of this.