I can't do this anymore

[Muppet11]

I've had enough. My wine consumption has gone to 2 bottles a night. I'm so sad and lonely but I need to stop. I've tried AA and hated it. It's the only thing that stops my mind but I know it will kill me.

Just need some support really, I have to do this or I know I will die :(

Today is day 4, it helps that I have this interview as I really don't want to be hungover.

I do feel a lot more positive today, but still anxious about the interview. But I am a big believer in what will be so I haven't got anything to lose.

Good luck tomorrow @Muppet11.
You have already achieved so much by reaching day 4.
Your new life is ahead of you and we are willing you on.

Good luck tomorrow, you’re doing great x

If you don't get the job, it's okay.

You are onwards and upwards and there will be more opportunities if you keep up this new lifestyle

Morning @Muppet11 thinking about you today, hope the interview goes well. Just over 2 weeks for me now and I'm in my usual danger zone of feeling great and my brain telling me one drink won't hurt I can moderate. Even though I'm not drinking it's frustrating how much I'm still thinking about alcohol. I'm trying to cut down my phone use too I wasted so much time just scrolling and drinking. Plan today after work is baking some banana bread and digging out my half finished scarf I'm knitting whilst watching a film. I've started reading again too, I'm managing a chapter a night just trying to reinforce good habit and help rewire my brain.

Morning and well done on two weeks!

Yes I know the feeling all too well. Keeping busy is good and playing it forward. I think the longest I have gone is around 6 months, oh I've cracked it can have a few drinks..... Then back to 2 bottles a night.

DH and I sleep in separate rooms, he was happy to move to the box room. I find it very difficult not sleeping in my own bed. Anyway, last night he said he wasn't feeling very well so I told him to sleep in the big bed. I had an awful sleep BUT at least I'm not hungover!

Seems a bit strange that of all the nights he doesn't feel well the night before my interview??

Anyway, I'm up and ready for my hair appointment, going to give it my best shot then see. Lots of complications about me going back to work but will think about that if they offer me the job.

@Icecreamhelps just take it hour by hour. I'm really enjoying the Tripp drinks and my Horlicks. Have a good day everyone ❤️

"Seems a bit strange that of all the nights he doesn't feel well the night before my interview??"

It could be coincidence or a pattern of behaviour. My ex would always create a drama/argument before If I had any kind of event that didn't involve him. I became a hermit because it just became easier not to do anything.

Your right about playing the tape forward. Thank you ❤️

@Muppet11 good luck for your interview today, and I hope your hair looks lovely despite the weather today!

Listen to sine John Robins podcasts. He's a recovering alcoholic and built his life around booze . He's very dedicated to his recovery and I think quite inspiring

Hmm my ex couldn’t stand me doing well, sounds like you have your eye on this 🤔

Hope the interview went well!

I hope it went well today @Muppet11

I got the job! It's only part time over Christmas and I don't start u til November but the interview went well.
By the time I got home the manager phoned me to offer it.
It's a giant step for me, thank you everyone for you good wishes

Congratulations!!

@muppet. Well done you!!!! 💐

I wish you could change your username because you’re certainly no blooming muppet.

Brilliant! So pleased for you!! If you're going to be a muppet be Sandra Bullock (look it up on Youtube).

Well done

That's brilliant news!

Oh hooray! Well done you! This is such a good sign. Celebrate with a Tripp or a nice cup of tea!

Excellent news. Well done! you are carving a different and better life.

I’m almost three years sober , after being in what I would describe as he’ll . It still makes me shudder when I look back . I’m now going to run a half marathon on my three years . Day one me would never of thought this would be my life . Remember this . You will never be who you are meant to be with alcohol in your life . Some of us for some reason have a bad relationship with drink . God knows why . Keep going . You will be proud of yourself again and it will be the best thing you have ever done . You do not need to feel like shit anymore . I promise 🫶 good luck and happy to help in anyway I can xxx

Thank you all! This little job means so much to me. Even the fact that I attended the interview. It was lovely to feel focused and bright and will give me a reason to keep sober.

Well done @Muppet11you must be so proud!!!! 👏
Im so so pleased for you!!!!

Can you try hypnotherapy?

Have just read your thread @Muppet11 and you’re doing great . Congratulations for your job . Hopefully every day will build on your determination . Onwards and upwards 💪.

Congratulations @Muppet11 !I've had a day shopping and bought myself some new clothes with the money I've saved.