@southernbelles How are you today? As has been said, most of us on this thread can empathise with your situation, and there'll be no judgement. If my experience is anything to go by you'll feel dreadful for a day or two, so take advantage of that to have Day 1 while you couldn't face a drink anyway? Get some high dose B1 (thiamine) when you can - Amazon's as good a place as any if you aren't up to going to the shops, and take it as soon as possible. It's good for the brain when you stop drinking and it's important to take it sooner rather than later.
Maybe read back on this thread and similar ones? There are various accounts of how people got through the first few days - some like quit lit (I don't), others like the support from organisations such as AA and so on. You know you best, so when your head clears have a think about what would suit you, and just do it. It's not as hard as we often think.
In my case, I stopped after a particularly embarrassing incident that came on the back of another one a few days earlier. I felt physically ill, and went to the GP who was very kind and non-judgemental. He took bloods and I took to my bed for a couple of days with what felt like a fluey illness (which it may have been, or it may have been withdrawal). I stayed there out of the way and out of the reach of the wine rack until I felt better. When the bloods came back I was sent to hospital for an ultrasound and to see a consultant, who told me I had cirrhosis. By this time I had been off the booze for three weeks or so (I'd had a holiday between seeing the GP and the consultant, which delayed things, and I did drink when I was away). The shock and dread was enough to stop me drinking and not want to start again.
I developed a way of coping with it all - after decades of heavy drinking, stopping was a huge change. Not just to by body, but to my way of life, plus, I was coming to terms with a diagnosis of a life-limiting illness. Looking back, I was remarkably calm. I switched to AF wine to help with the habit aspect of drinking. I left work, which had been a huge stressor, and consequently stopped going for 'a quick drink' after work which led to getting home late and plastered most nights. I developed a routine of going to bed whether I was tired or not, having a warm bath first, and making the bedroom as welcoming as possible, with new sheets and pyjamas, and a warmer for scented oils. I'd scent the room, run a bath, add bath oil and go to bed in my new PJs feeling pampered. I didn't sleep well for ages, so I watched very long series' on TV - Downton Abbey and Stella spring to mind. The sort of thing you don't have to pay much attention to, but are enough to make being awake fairly interesting. As I didn't have to get up early I just rode it out, and eventually sleep got easier.
I carried on going out to bars etc so my life didn't change too much at first. I just ordered lime and soda or similar. After a while, a combination of not always wanting to stay out late and not being near my old workplace meant that I developed new social networks which are not based on drinking. Most of my friends can barely remember that I used to drink a lot (or they're too polite to mention it), and many have only known me sober. The interesting thing is that nobody cares, and I can have as good a time without drink as with it.
I stayed away from quit lit after a brief flirtation as I found it just made me think about alcohol. I found online sources of support (similar to this thread) and posted there, which helped. I discovered sleep hypnosis, which really helped. I liked Craig Beck, but many other alternatives are available. I listened though a sleep mask, which I still use, although I prefer sounds of rainfall to hypnosis these days.
Fast forward 7 years (well, it will be 7 years next month!) and it turns out I don't have cirrhosis at all - I do have advanced fibrosis which is not ideal, but nowhere near as bad. I work, but on a consultancy basis which I can fit around other things, and will probably do that until I finally get a pension one day. I know I'm lucky to have been able to leave my previous job, and that not everyone is in a position to do that, but for me it made all the difference. If you can work out what would make a difference to you (particular activities, certain friends, something else) and are able to cut out that one thing, it might make life easier. I found that having one huge change but keeping everything else as similar to before as possible was easier to cope with.
That's just me though. Others have different stories, and yours will be different again. If you pick and mix the things that appeal to you, you will find the right way through. I am happy to answer any liver-related questions you might have, as I know that's what people fear most. I have to say that I am not medically trained, but I've walked the walk, as they say😀.
Good luck, and keep posting. x