Good morning all, Checking in for week 4!!
Woweee, week 4!
I survived all of my triggers those weekend and things like ski party (dry slope in Plymouth, sadly not the depths of the alps). Great fun and so much more enjoyable not hungover. I was shattered when we got home and usually would reach for the bottle, but I took a Country Living magazine to my 'quiet sofa' (formally mummy's drinking sofa) and napped for an hour.
The wind and rain got me all riled up last night- weirdly another trigger 😳
We live in the middle of nowhere and watching a storm come in has always been something I loved to do with wine.
Anyway. I'm tackling things head on. I'm still daydreaming about summer bbq's and chilled wine. Need to sort my mindset on this. I am sadly not a moderator. Not even a little bit.
I am wondering if this is it. Things are shifting (ever so slightly, ever so slowly). I realised last night that this weekend would have been shit had I holed up in the kitchen getting pissed. Shit for me, shit for my beautiful son, shit for all the kids who came miles and miles fir the party. And I would have drank last night, woke up at 3, riddled with anxiety, not gone back to sleep and would be looking at my phone now, thinking about posting about how not doing something that was ruining my life, was just too hard for me.
I'm thinking it's time to break up permanently with the love of my life (Sorry Dh, you are definitely a close second and swiftly moving up the ranks). I could never have imagined a sober life, but all of a sudden, it feels like it might be a little bit special.
Anyway, I've been checking out every link everyone has been posting, silently cheering you on (trying to be on my phone less!) And just generally been extremely happy to have stumbled onto this wonderful thread.
Go smash the week lovelies xxx