the circle of life goes round and round in circles

[ABloke]

Is that Circle.... strange word.

Have it spelt it properly?

you know that a NEED somebody

the guy who signs no sings is so ickle [little]

Type away. I am not easily patronised. or weirded out.

Just don't try to kiss me/hug me.

and as we all know I am Queen of Crass

and grass

Ha! just joking. cannot afford that lovely shit anymore.

No, not wrong

regrading children, I guess they grow up despite us and make their own world.

Childhood has a huge impact though, shapes us, who we are, but children are individuals and can see through the crap I reckon

they know when they're loved and ultimately when they're older they'll work out some of the complexities of their parents marriage.

..................

not a lot of words in that song but I like it.

i also like Rod Stewart

some guys have all the luck, some guys have.......

and Bon Jovi

Always..................

and Pink Flloyd

freak

and um Oh The Eagles, Hotel California.

and leona Lewis - Run

one thing I try and do and I'm not saying I'm right but I always try to put myself and my needs last

G comes first

do you know what I mean?

thing is T. Everytime I mentioned the moving out thing, he involves them. He asks them "do you want daddy to move out" WTF are they going to say "YIPEEEEEEEEEE" NO.

It's unfair on them. very unfair.

He hit one of them a few nights ago, with anger in his face.

I do not believe in HITTING children out of my own anger. I would rather go for a drive if I am angry, or kick things, or walk for a long time, or visit a friend.

not hit my dc.

Yeah I udnerstand. It is my eldest I worry about. Although I have seen other children whose parents have split and they are okay.

I guess it is how you manage the split.

Thing is oh is childish, I wld worry about my car, my job, his killing self, and last but not least I do worry a tad about how my dc would turn out with just me...although it wouldn't be just me, they have uncles, grandfathers etc.

and oh is now down very low on medication.

getting pay-rise next week.

and.... Is that enough though?

Of course I wld miss him. You cannot erase 14/15 years.

I do not like the way we are at present though.

i want to go out now and then and have fun getdrunk he does not wish his wife to be like THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!

PITA.

i'll be worrying about this all day now.

I wonder if this guy is married/attached

Yikes, do not worry.

It has been like this for MONTHS.

No love, commuunication, trust. etc.

Please go back to worrying about the shape of your border!

Janey mac < bites nails >>

The kids come first, always.

Beyond that I really don't know.

I am a very cold person T. I do not know why. I can love/kiss/hug my children but it stops there.

I think my mother is the same.

i think I would be better alone (with animals) and a sea-side house.

it's like you once said T. it's not about the problem, it's how you deal with the problem or something....

I know. It is's a hard one.

Nope cannot do it...

Hard-on

it isisi? It isis?

That is a new one.

okay T, PIL coming in 1 hour must get dressed, go shops, buy washing stuff and nice smelling houseold cleaning products and andna and

Don't worry about me/us.

Whats that saying....

Um.....

things always work out best. No thats shite.

ummmm

Whats foryou won't go bye you? bie/by yes I like that one. It does not make sense but I like it.

Who T feck is Janey Mac?

Stop joking I'm worried.

I felt quite good and optimistic this morning..the sun's shining, the birds are singing and now I'm consumed with gloomy thoughts.

alsta la vista

Ciao for now my dear.

Now go and play with your border. or annoy your dh or something.

No take G & dog for walk, on the beach.

I wish I lived nearer you.

Jany Mac is married to Blimey O'Reilly who's friends with Gordon Bennett

do you know nothing?

yes, ok, will go for a walk.

if you lived nearer I'd have to move

Oh no don't do that. That is because I am having a negative affect on you.

I just don't have anyone to talk my thoughts through with.

I am fine though, almost happy.... I am buying cleaning products (which I love) i shallclean house then PIL will take one child away and I shall take other child to my friend and drink copious coffees and split up our dc from fighting.

I am grand.

You know oh, goes to bed at 7/8pm each night and I sit and stare at this PC screen but cannot turn it on as ... well, maybe it is me who has the problem. I have terrible paranoia. Dr C says it is not me, it is oh coming down in meds and this is totally normal (him being arse-hole).

What will be will be.

Now be happy and I shall come here on Sunday morning (alone time in house) and I shall still be fine... I shall still be joking.

I live this life, I chose this life, I can get through this T.

Take care of yourself and G and the dog and your dh (should you so wish)

laters.