How can we be expected to function in this inhumane world? I want out (of the system... not life)

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For context: I'm 49, 2 wonderful DC (17 & 15), single mum, amicable with ex who is a good dad, wonderful boyfriend, own home with mortgage, fulfilling job if a little stressful at times, ageing parents, amazing friends, good social life and time/money to pursue my hobbies. Life is good.

But I'm SO mentally fatigued. Feel like the scales have fallen from my eyes in the past year and am now wholly convinced of what some would call conspiracy theories. Am thinking more about the horrific news of late... Israeli genocide and the lies and gaslighting from governments. How and WHY is this being allowed to happen?! The Epstein files why aren't people pushing for a revolution? How can we be so collectively desensitised to the abhorrent/inhuman revelations? My heart breaks for those poor poor children. Prices constantly going up and scarcity of fuel and food (that I think those in power are engineering as it goes). Climate change and the unending desecration of our beautiful planet. Tecnology ruining brains and being used to influence elections across the world and needing to be online for f**king everything. The media controlled by the elites and controlling our view of the world and ergo our minds. CBDC coming in against peiple's will and stealing financial privacy and freedoms.

It's obvious now that the world is run by 'elites' and tech bros who evidently abuse and sacrifice children. Makes me sick to my stomach. Feel like the world is f**ked.

Sorry for the swears.

I worry so much for my children. I live in a big city but once my DC are established with their own lives I'm outta here, will move somewhere with land, my own water source and go as off-grid as possible and have space for them to live with me if they ever want.

Reading this back, a few years ago I would've thought someone who believed such things was mad and needing psychiatric help. But the world has hard evidence on much of this now! I do have anxiety and am on meds and have it in hand now. I function fine - well even - live a really happy, active life full of love. But it's just tainted by the horrors... and I'm just screaming into the void.

Do I sound batshit crazy to you? Can you empathise at all? I'm scared to say this to friends/family as they'll just tell me I think too much. Maybe I need to stop watching the bloody news. Very aware that perimenopause will be playing a role too.

I don’t know, OP — what ‘hard evidence’ are you talking about? It’s a worrying time to be alive, undeniably, but people have lived through horrors at all points in history.

I’m totally with you! And no none of that is conspiracy theory territory, unfortunately it’s all too believable 🙁
It can be very hard to ignore. I try to stay true to my values and beliefs, I donate to charities that share my values and concerns. I avoid shopping with or supporting certain companies where possible (not always easy!) And I make a habit of trying to call out the growing racism, prejudice and bigotry ( and I’m sickened by how that has increased even just on this forum).
But I also try to protect my mental health which can be a fine balance. It’s ok to step away from the news when it’s overwhelming. I also read a lot and do yoga/pilates/meditation to help me escape.

I mean I remember the very real threat of nuclear war and leaflets about white washing your windows and hiding in cellars, the gulf war and the Iraq and Falklands conflict, miners strikes, mad cow disease and droughts (1984 severe one) and the troubles in NI, so nothing for me feels like it’s really changed.

OP, I mean this kindly, but would you consider moving from a smart phone to a brick phone that you can only do essential tasks with?

You sound like someone who has lost a sense of perspective and that your algorithms are exploiting that. It's okay to take a step away to reset.

The world has always been messy, chaotic and cruel OP. Step away from the online world and the news for a while, it might help.

This. I think the difference is we are bombarded by all the awful news now and growing up it was much easier to ignore and much less frequent . Step away from social media and concentrate on your MH.

This.

Too much information and too much time on their hands.

The world has always been a harsh place with wars and disasters, we just didn’t know so much about it and were certainly not being bombarded with updates 24/7. I too remember the Cold War and the real fear of nuclear attack. Agree with posters, limit your exposure to news. Sounds as though you have a good life.

That isn't really conspiracy talk IMO - that's just reality.

And I suspect that as you are hitting menopause your tolerance for this shit is decreasing.

I think the only way we function (and breed) is by ignoring all the shit.

War has always happened.

i don’t think there has been a year where there has not been a war somewhere on this planet. Child abuse has also always been pretty widespread - Freud discovered that trauma caused many MH conditions but didn’t believe that so many people could have been abused so looked for other causes.

you are not wrong. But it’s always been like this - and in fact if anything the world is less day to day violent now. World War One and two killed millions but day to day life in many countries is a lot less violent than it was a couple of centuries ago.

step away from the news. Stop consuming content.

if you have to do something, then act to make the world a better place in whatever way works for you.

Do you ever read history books, OP?

Sounds like a good dose of perspective is what you need.

Honestly? I've turned to religon to cope. Not for everyone but it's helping me so far. (Am having Bible lessons.)

I'm early 50s, so a similar age. I think we grew up in peak peace dividend and stability and things are less stable than they were 10+ years ago (what could possibly have caused things to change? 🤔). That said, the 24/7 news and social media cycle we have now definitely amplifies things and makes it worse. So I would say it's a mixture of reality and perception. As others have said, distract yourself with your favourite hobby, TV programme, book, whatever it is, when you feel the need.

In reality humanity is in the "top percentile" of luck compared to all people who have ever lived. However, happiness is diminished by envy and mimetic desire, leading to a life that is objectively better yet subjectively worse. Count your blessings, sounds like you have a good life.

Read some Russian literature like Dostoevsky or Solzhenitsyn. It will put your life into perspective.

“Man is sometimes extraordinarily, passionately, in love with suffering..."

,I'm like you, in the past 1.5 years I've really opened my eyes to the fact that the world is ruled by pedophile psychopaths with demonic rituals like eating children

Yes there are psychopaths
running some countries, maybe some of them are paedophiles, but demonic rituals and eating children? That sounds very Pizzagate-y.

We're living through "hypernormalisation", explained very well by Adam Curtis in his documentaries. Then we've got the accelerationists (Elon Musk, Trump etc) using their wealth to speed up the decline of western society, so they can rebuild it.
All of this contributes to the feeling of living in a post-truth world. Strange times indeed.

What surprises me about this is your solution is to go off grid. That changes none of the things you’re concerned about.

the only thing that will change is that - if you resist your phone -you won’t hear about it.

so why can’t you do that now?

Thanks everyone; really helpful responses. I do need to step away from the news and social media for sure and do think I'll try an old Nokia phone instead. Good advice. And I do wonder if I have lost perspective and don't read as much history as would probably be helpful.

@BasildonBonds afraid to say that demonic rituals and eating children (including newborns) are all in the Epstein files compete with names (searchable database of emails, photos etc.). It sounds unbelievable because it is but it's there in black and white. I'll not post the link as I wouldn't encourage anyone to read the files unless they're really braced for it.

I do envy those who have religion as a solace; it's just not for me. But nature is my church so that is why I plan to move off-grid when the time is right. I'll be able to continue activism but have a haven to retreat to instead of being in a busy city glued to tech of some sort.

Absolutely stop watching the News. You'll be amazed how doing that one thing will help. Stop as much social media as you can as well. Be like the three monkeys: see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil. You may have to accept that society has always been inhumane and always will be, but that doesn't mean to say you can't do your bit to help and have a good life.

You need to do a fact check on the Epstein files. There’s definitely some deeply disturbing abuse in there and some horrific reading but all of the satanic rituals stuff and eating children is just viral made up rumours and click bait. The FBI found the allegations completely unverifiable and did not pursue them. If you are reading this kind of rubbish on social media, definitely time to step away , get your news and info from better sources and fact check what you do read before you spread those claims and become part of the problem.

There's nothing new here except for people spending too much time online reading the digital versions of the Enquirer and catastrophising. And there's nothing that a revolution is going to achieve either.

Suggest you go and have a lie down or a run around the park OP, It might help your mental health

Access to instant news on our phones doesn’t help. Watching the floods in Nepal yesterday was horrific. Yet 30 years ago that would have been horror movie stuff not on our phones. Now we see it all of the time. We are desensitised. Especially our kids.

I agree with everything you say OP. We are so controlled by the mega rich.

I think you need to be less credulous about your sources of information. Also, ask yourself what possible benefit is there, to you or the world at large, from reading such things?