Pregnant unexpectedly and heartbroken about having to end it because

[carrotcakebae]

I got two children already. Both under 5 I’m a single mum. One of my children has a disability. I started a relationship with someone and literally ended up pregnant after the first time. I’m just shocked. Anyways I’ve come to realise a lot about him such as his domestic abusive history with his ex. Including one of the claims that he strangled his ex . All I can say is , I can’t have this baby. But I’m so heartbroken because it’s still my child my mind has wondered thinking about names and what he/she will be like . I have the appointment tomorrow I’m going to go ahead and terminate but my heart is hurting tonight

Thank you so much for these supporting messages. I will have the procedure soon. I’m actually further along than I thought so it will be surgical. I didn’t actually want that ideally.
this is just really making me question God and life, like people are out here in good situations, happily married and can’t conceive yet I’m not in a good situation and I conceived so easily what makes me even paranoid is that I took the morning after pill after so the morning after pill failed. This is really upsetting and traumatic how I got pregnant so easily. Just making me think out of all the things God could have given me pregnancy is the last thing. I would rather have a permanent home for my children as we have been bidding for so long or even a job as I’ve been applying and been getting rejected yet I end up with pregnancy even after taking the morning after pill. I just feel so confused

I hope life is going to treat you better in the future - you deserve a break 💐