@IwannaeatapastyI’ve seen you talk about your ex husband on a thread before. It stuck with me because it was so awful.
I feel similarly to you. I am married, to a “good man” but I would never fully trust him.
My husband is a great dad, hard working and very good at his job. Does voluntary work. Cares for a disabled relative. Is patient and nice natured. He’s a great cook and an accomplished pianist.
Imagine my shock when I found out he was snorting cocaine and sending dick pics to numerous people.
I trust my husband not to ever physically hurt me. He would never steal from me or anybody else. I trust him to always do his best for his kids.
But when it comes to his dick, no, I no longer trust him and never will, and will never trust any man.
if I asked him about lining up to piss on BB then have sex with her he would exclaim over how awful that is. And part of him probably genuinely thinks it is. But there’s another part of him that I feel quite sure would want to do it. Whether he would then feel full of guilt and shame in the cold light of day, I don’t know.
But men and women are fundamentally different and once you see it you can’t unsee it.