Morning all. Slept restlessly again. I think it's my flipping period/menopause...
I need to get back on my vitamin regimen. I've been rubbish lately. Plus I need to give my nurosym a proper go again. My self discipline and consistency is not good sometimes. I think I get stupidly rebellious and it feels quite nice not to bother in some ways. Probably just want to feel normal when I didn't have to do any of it.
My big task for today is to amend the food shop order. It comes tomorrow and God knows what I put on there. If I forget we'll be having wine and toilet rolls for Christmas dinner 🙈
I will probably have to do a small shop dash today for DS coming home. I'm trying to get away with food we have in so I'll rummage in the freezer first.
Ton of laundry to do but doesn't have to be all done today.
I'm going to enjoy some quiet time with my new reading nook before DS gets home.
I'm feeling exhausted so really want to try and unwind and get a bit stronger if I can.
I'm not stressed about Christmas... just a bit melancholy. I don't have the big family issues. I can't see my mum. Will see how I am after Christmas. It's a funny one. Christmas has so much nostalgia it kills me at times. I didn't imagine this is where I'd be at my age. I forsee future Christmases alone which I'm preparing myself for.