I have tried EMDR and pretty much everything else offered of the NHS.
I feel like every time I get back on my feet something else goes wrong it’s just constant and I have given up hoping it gets better now.
My support worker and my psychiatrist both agreed I’ve gone through such a lot of trauma and that life has dealt me a really raw deal, it’s hard not to be bitter sometimes when I’m trying so hard.
I try not to compare myself with my friend but I just get sick of others comparing our circumstances and there is a lot more to it than I posted. It can be hard when people say she is more deserving of benefits when she is diagnosed with a physical disability but then I see her travelling the world and doing all sorts of things that my mental health prevents me from doing. I was comparing my circumstances just with her and not with anyone else with physical disabilities.
Her children receive benefits but they also work and go to concerts and have days out and the money they receive is fun money, I find that frustrating sometimes and that’s probably what leads to attitudes on this thread.
I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, life truly is cruel but it sounds like she has an amazing mum who loves and supports her. There is absolutely no question that you shouldn’t be receiving DLA and I hope that no one has ever said anything that makes you think otherwise.
I understand what you mean about not feeling gratitude towards relying on benefits - why would you? That’s to do with the circumstances behind it not the money.
I think this is why I get so angry with these threads.
I wish more people understood that the majority of us who are forced to claim benefits to survive would rather work and have a life where they weren’t required, there is so much resentment as though we are living it up when the reality is that for most people it’s complete opposite.
I think this is maybe where I started to get upset comparing myself to my friend which is pointless when our lifestyles are so different, I suppose I feel jealous that she has enough money to enhance her life rather than just to survive.
I wrote my post in an angry rant and now I wonder if the reason I got so angry is similar to a lot of people who posted, when you legitimately claim benefits you take it personally when they are discussed and there is talk of who “deserves” them or not. It’s always mental health claims that are accused of being exaggerated or false.
I will hide any similar threads and not let ignorance upset me.
When my PIP came up for renewal I went through months of terror reading that benefits should be cut or made into vouchers and scrutinised because of how many people think that people with mental health issues are undeserving of them. It makes me feel even more of a burden as and as though society would be better off without me.
I think your final comments were spot on as obviously most people don’t want to be taxed more. I wish that it wasn’t always people on benefits that get blamed for other people’s financial struggles when the rich get richer with big bonuses, benefits are actually unclaimed, people work cash in hand and out of the tax people pay it’s only a small percentage that goes on benefit money and it’s ignorant not to look at where the rest goes!
I don’t blame people who are struggling for money to fall for propaganda against disabled people, they are encouraged to look at benefits and immigration as the reasons they are struggling. I’m not denying that we are facing problems with both but people are being manipulated to think they are the downfall of society.
There are of course plenty of cunts that are just resentful.
Thank you for your post it has given me some perspective. I was having a bad day and it’s easy to fall into the self pity trap, reading your post made me realise I’m not the only person struggling and I need to remind myself that more often.
You sound like a strong person and an amazing mother.