The cbt is specifically for anxiety and depression, today it was talking about mastery of motivation. Next week it’s behavioural activation. It’s hard because the reason I don’t do much is because of pain and fatigue but that then leads to low mood and anxiety.
Im hoping it will help me start doing more of the little things and appreciating that while some things might leave me in pain and tired they may be worth it, modifiable or I need to forgive myself for not doing it. Today I painted a crap picture. It took five minutes, I feel a bit better for having done it.
Behavioural activation is about breaking the low mood cycle, doing things even though you don’t feel like it.
I think I have to find ways of managing without it destroying my mental health. My hyper mobility syndrome / ehlers danlos means I’m always tired and in pain. The current hip injury is going to be fixed, but it won’t fix everything else. Work exhausts me, I’m so worried about going back at the end of December / January. Even with a phased return and hopefully going part time. I’ll try and plod on for the next few years but I can’t see me working beyond another few years.