I wasn't going to do anymore but we can't have you down and deflated now can we!
I'll also do the poster before you because it wouldn't be very fair otherwise.
(Everyone I didn't do like - '?!?!??!??' right now xD. Sorry all).
So windy, I'll keep it short
I draw cards 'the autumn equinox - release' and the 'Passion' card. The autumn equinox is actually the 22 of september so that could be an indication you'll be shaking off this heavy feeling you're in at the minute in and around then.
Release and passion together implies to me that you've been feeling stuck in a funk. Perhaps, listless or feeling stuck in a repeating, frustrating cycle. You need to shake things up.
When I was drawing your cards I was also thinking of flowers. I think it might be nice if you can treat yourself to a bouquet and put them in a place in your home you can enjoy them. It might bring a bit of softness into your life right now. Alternatively, a flower based perfume or, just getting out in nature more and smelling the flowers. (Assuming youre not deathly allergic here haha).
Words like fertility (can also be associated with spring and abundance) holiday and travel came up.
As did the three of swords. Often heartbreak or illness or depression. So these may be things that you have been dealing with.
I feel you need to focus on finding some joy again. And be softer with yourself. Bad things happen but you can only do your best. So don't beat yourself up for the things you got wrong. Focus on being kind to yourself and looking for little ways to bring back in some joy. Build those up to bigger ways.
An affirmation card also reads 'stay hungry, stay foolish and never stop chasing your dreams'. Basically, you do you. It's all good. It's ok to be a dreamer and a sillyheart. You'll get to where you want to be someday.