Things I haven’t said out loud this week. Christmas edition

[YorkieTheRabbit]

As requested by @CousinBella
Stop with the drama, stop treating your partner like crap, it’s not his fault.
You’ve had months to sort it out but done nothing. Now it’s Christmas and you’re like a headless chicken.
We’ve listened and advised but the rest is down to you and there’s not a chance we are doing it for you.

Every day I wait for this time. Because that's the only time I feel peace.

IT WILL NEVER BLOODY BE ENOUGH

The fact that I have to take AD's to stomach your company. It makes my stomach turn to see you being all dramatic and performing while I'm wilting away.

You've hurt me so much. It doesn't go away. You treat me not like a human being but as if I'm your property. My stomach churns when you're next to me.
Everything is so performative. This bloody Christmas. It's not a Happy Family if you're the only one who's happy.

I can't breathe. Every day with you is so draining and taxing.

You're the most obnoxious person I have ever known. I am deeply ashamed of you, I am deeply ashamed of myself for living with you.

Everything accumulates on Christmas, you insist we play family but you are so selfish BECAUSE you're the only one who's pleased.

Do you know what? I count the hours until you're in bed so I can breathe in and breathe out and feel relief.

Why do I have to decide????

💐 and 🍸 to all on here. It's tough

Stop fucking sighing every time you get up or sit down- I know you're tired, we both are.

@snowfoxglove my heart goes out to you. I hope you’re able to get out of this situation in 2024.

It's my Christmas too and I don't want to spend hours driving to your houses.
None of you even have a comfortable chair for either of us and I really don't want to listen to your shit music.

I detest you and if I had the option to leave I really would;I can't believe I've had to take a months temp Xmas work plus bust my butt off selling stuff on top of that with my little side hustle to pay for Christmas presents and the food shop to make Christmas happen whilst juggling everything including our two daughters worsening health issues all because you've secretly ran up 17k of credit card debt on your failed "business" letting your prick business partners rip you off especially after promising me you wouldn't go running up credit card debt again when we were in marriage counselling you lying shithead;I honestly don't know how we're going to put a roof over our heads next year or food on the table as the financial situation is going to bite us badly;I'd be better off financially as a single mother.

I have severe heart failure and am awaiting surgery… I work crazy hours in a job that is physically and emotionally exhausting. You have sunk your entire ego in the fucking baseball club that you spend every single day at - at the expense of the respect of your kids and me. Offering suggestions using the “Royal We” is not contributing at all to getting shit done around the house. It makes me want to punch you in the balls.

Turn the fucking heat down!

Not sure how I'm going to tolerate you being off another 2 weeks.

@Fraaahnces best wishes re your health. Unbelievable selfishness and can imagine he's 'enjoying' your serious issues; vicariously. Unfortunately, I can empathise because went through same crap. Get rid of the additional burden. X

Dont you dare moan about not seeing us over Christmas. You've put Christmas with your other son and his family first in the decades Ive been married to your son, (and probably before that). We used to ask you to come to us on Xmas day but as you always refused, citing him as the reason, we stopped asking and made our own traditions.

I am looking forward to seeing you over the Christmas break. But please remember your manners....no, it is not OK to help yourself to vast quantities of alcohol, get pissed, and then start an argument. Your child really should not be mainlining tins of coke, especially since it's normally banned. And please leave before midnight - it is meant to be afternoon tea, not an all night party.

It's not love, it's sex, and you are a homewrecker. Given the horrors you went through getting access to your own child I am gobsmacked you would do this to another person. I had also hoped you would find someone with more moral fibre than a person who will abandon a commitment because they don't feel great about themselves and you make them feel good. I am so ashamed of you and so disappointed. I thought you were a better person than this. I never dreamed you were this selfish.

Stop asking me to make fucking decisions.

The one about "you're not religious, you're not children, it's just a day" is fantastic!

To my exhusbands latest ex wife. Fuck off, just fuck off to the other side of fuck. My adult chldren are not there as props for your fucking endless fucking drama every five minutes. I know very well what a drag it is for you that you are bringing up your teenage daughter whilst he dances about dating some shiny new woman. It never enters your empty head that you were the shiny new girlfriend once and I was the one bringing up a 3 year old and a 2 year old he had left behind. Yes it's all shit but you have got yourself a new boyfriend so get on and build a new life that's peaceful and stable . Oh and don't buy a bloody horse to replace the one you got rid of because you couldn't afford it. You still can't afford it and you can't afford the time. Your daughter is crying out for attention. Notice her before its too late.

At work-
“No I can’t help you move that rubbish as you can see I’m the only one here actually tidying whilst everyone else is sat having a chat, why don’t you ask one of them to help you? And while your at it how about you ask them to stop chatting and help tidy so we all can go the fuck home”
At home-
“I know you keep saying you have spoilt me this year, but I know you can’t put any thoughts into presents so no I’m not too excited to see what’s under the tree”
”Funnily enough seeing my alcoholic father isn’t top of my list of things to do over Christmas so I won’t be rushing to the pub to see him no and yes I accept that makes me a bad person in your eyes”

Why did you decide Xmas eve was the perfect day to paint the bathroom?

Whatever you do to me or mine will be returned threefold. Know that.

They know what you are doing and they are waiting and watching. So keep thinking you can get away with it. See how that turns out for you.

I miss you all so much but there's so much water under the bridge there's no point saying it.

I did love you and there will be love even though it's over. That's why.

Let's meet up and have fun like we used to!!! I know you've been down and want to out a smile on your face.

I am meant to be somewhere else and the feeling gets stronger daily. That there is another life for me elsewhere. It's getting hard to focus because the feeling is so strong.

I am so worried about you. I love you so much.

I'm glad it's just gonna be me and dd on Xmas day. I don't want to be around you while you're pissed yet again. You're a horrible drunk.

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I wish my mum was here. I miss her so much.

No I don't want to come and stay. I want to be at home, doing my own thing and relaxing, eating crap and watching trashy tv, not surrounded but twenty other people, pretending to be all happy and light whilst actually, still grieving.

J, I know that this year has been hard on you. A few years ago you had so much going for you. You also had my love and care. You refused to listen to my advice. Then you decided to turn me down for her. I was so upset back then. You came back into my life a few years after this wanting a fwb situation. I turned this down and said we could be friends.
What you told me recently was not a surprise. It just made me realise that I ended up in a better place. The truth is a lot of difficulties in your life currently are entirely due to your choices or actions. I can't change things for you. If you don't take my recent advice your just going to make your life far harder. Also their is no need to snap at me just because your life is not going according to plan. I have my own things to deal with and my plans could have to change as well. It call being an adult and dealing with what life throws at you.

V, If you did what I think you did for our mother's Xmas present it would have been nice to ask me before you did this. Just stop presuming that I can do what suits you because you have no idea about my life and plans.

Q, I am no longer going to put up with your verbal abuse. I have had enough of you and your meaness. I can also tell you that z feels the same away. Once I am aware of certain information I have to make plans and these will suit me not you.

It's a shame you've never been interested to get to know my family. Now that you're all alone, perhaps you'll be regretting it.

Nothing so deep or sad here.

1. I spent 45 minutes clearing the surface so there was room to clean it properly and be able to prepare food on it. Why does this mean you have to immediately cover it with more stuff?
2. Why do we have an altar to Christmas food set up on the only other surface (that I also carefully cleared yesterday)? You do know we have fucking cupboards, don't you?

I am not a bloody referee. Just give me ONE AFTERNOON without winding each other up.