Weird event, need some help interpreting what was going on

[LaurieFairyCake]

I went to an event today, I go every month. There's 6 of us.

Every time at this event the (we take it in turns) host gives us a glass of sparkly something, then we drink sparkly or wine for an hour or so - discuss politics, then we have tea and cake and then leave

Today was our Christmas one. The host gave us a glass of wine, it wasn't refilled - no one said anything at all (including me)

After a very long period of time we had a cup of tea and there was no cake

There was an undercurrent of something 🤷‍♀️

I've no idea what ?

I've discounted the following:

1. It's not money, I have the least money of a wealthy group of people

1. It's not me (it's NEVER you, though my paranoid thoughts obviously wonder if they don't want me, the newest member of the group. It really won't be me, the others are lovely

1. I wonder if one of them is sick but they don't want me to know, they're all older than me and have been in this group together decades?

Apart from that I've come up with nothing but I'm really baffled

I cant iterate how strongly enough it was different than every other month we've done it

Anyone any ideas ? (obviously I can't ask, it looks rude)

I'm hosting next time, I'm unsure about whether to be a bit more low key too

I think it could, host fed up with whatever spat happening and does bare minimum.

Op has been going for 14 months. It would be beyond rude to ghost a group of people who have previosuly welcomed her into their group because of one weird night!

It's the solstice. They were going on to perform a ritual in the woods afterwards.

I'm sorry about your terrible week @LaurieFairyCake.

If it were me I'd definitely have to ask someone. However, I would say be prepared that you might not get a satisfactory answer.

Bleurgh! These things are so upsetting; and the not being able to figure it out

Lol

Please ask because the longer this goes on you will spiral in your head with.it will become something you then can't get back from.knowing means you no.you can then stop your head bring ready to explode because it's making up 20 billions reasons.
And there really is nothing wrong with asking.yoi don't have to ask in any way but wondering/concern and that just being a nice human.