Do some people just lack the ability to be happy?

[Quitabix]

Like me.

I'm tired of trying to be happy. I've been trying to be happy for as long as I can remember. I'm definitely not depressed.

I know all the theory...practising gratitude, avoiding comparison, finding joy in the little things, finding your purpose etc etc...and I try and try, yet none of it ever works.

My life is just me constantly asking what the point of anything is, and darkly muttering...I didn't even ask to be born whenever something even vaguely inconveniences me.

I just think life is so so pointless and all these experiences we go through...so pointless.

This is me talking after protracted episodes of philosphising and therapy and research and medication...I absolutely know I am not depressed.

For me, it's a very rational conclusion that....life is pointless. I've accepted that life is pointless and try and just enjoy it for what it is, but I just don't think I have it in me to be happy.

Does anyone else relate?

@gingerhills

I have to go against the busy trend and say I've been a lot happier since I got less busy. I love having time to watch the birds, go for walks, read books etc not rush from one commitment to the next as though the world would collapse if i stopped.

Same here. Having time and not having to rush dies wonders for my happiness levels

does wonders, obv.

@Quitabix I used to feel deeply unhappy or at the very least that life was tinged with melancholy much of the time... until I started taking anti depressants.
Three different types and lots of dose changes later and I'm a changed person..
I take Venlafaxine 337.5mg which is an SNRI medication.
I feel content if not really quite happy most of the time; I sometimes have short periods of feeling low but after literally a few hours can feel the meds lifting me 'up'.

I am now diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder mixed type so i also take anti psychotics and the negative symptoms of the disorder can leave me feeling unmotivated and flat - but not actually unhappy.

A friend of mine has always been unhappy deep down, she tries to cover it up and those who followed her on Instagram wouldn't know it but from the age of 18 til now (36) she's been desperately unhappy. I honestly don't think she will ever be happy. She has amazing children who she sees twice a week now and is constantly chasing different relationships looking for "more", I don't know what the more is but she seems to believe she's destined for something extra special and I just want her to be content