When you’re wanting to cross the road at a large junction and the traffic is already stopped and their light about to turn to green, and you’re not sure if you have pressed the button and you’re waiting for what seems an eternity for the traffic to move. Or you think maybe their light has changed to red and you don’t know it’s safe to cross and they’re all going to think your just standing there.
Years ago, I’d bought a couple of cars from a dealership and they used to send me flyers on various things, well once they sent me an invitation to come to an evening ‘do’ where they were serving food. I wasn’t confident about going on my own but thought, well they have invited me, I’m going to go! So I went there after work, and there was no one else there. I went in and helped myself to a bowl of chilli and strolled around trying to eat it as quickly as possible while trying to look interested in the brand new cars. It was excruciating.
Another time, I wanted to join a badminton club at my local sports centre. They got me to join in with three other members playing a game of doubles. I was so absolutely hopeless and missed the shuttlecock all the time, the other players were getting a bit annoyed that I was spoiling their game. At the end of the session I slunk away never to go again.
When my son was a toddler, we went to a cafe, which in itself was quite a big thing for me as you know, the whole ‘can I get the pushchair in, will there be any tables free’ scenarios going on. I ordered a jacket potato with tuna for him, and a bowl of soup for me. I don’t know why I thought he would need a standard sized portion and why I didn’t just share with him, but the food arrived and it was the biggest bowl of homemade leek and potato soup, with bread and the jacket potato had coleslaw and crisps with it. I was so mortified at the amount of food and tried my best to eat enough that I wasn’t wasting too much, I was so embarrassed at what the staff were thinking about me being so greedy.