Bring your worries over here, the Night Shift are still here to mind them

[2018SoFarSoGreat]

New thread here, since the Last Thread has ever so slowly filled up. Isn't it amazing how little our worries crept up in the night when the world was actually one big worry?

Pandemic or not, this is the place to just park your worries. We don't ask questions, or try to solve your problems. We just hold them, tenderly, carefully, until you are strong enough to take them back. If they choose not to come back, all the better.

Signing in for the Night Shift, V3!

@SheldonesqueGoddessOfTheMoonah

Phoning requires me to give them my number, unfortunately. I never give my number to anyone. Am thinking I'll have to lose the money. Though I'm more upset at being trolled here right now, though it's not the first time. People forget their circumstances aren't everyone else's. So lesson learnt re asking for help here.

Thankyou for trying to help me! I really appreciate it.

You could hide your number I.e. make it private.
www.wikihow.com/Make-Your-Mobile-Phone-Number-Appear-As-a-Private-Number

Sorry I couldn’t help becca

Hoping hawkaye has given you a solution.

Thanks. When I tried I got an answerphone and told to leave my number. After a bit of searching it appears that's how they work. I do not want them to have my number.

Thanks. I'm aware I can private mine, I do it all the time,

Why they can't just have an email I don't know! Not everyone can manage a phone, I struggle, especially when my PTSD is bad as it is now, and not everyone has the latest iOS either.

I wonder if its just an excuse to help reduce complaints!

My beloved nan is going to die soon. I don't know what I'm going to do without her. She helped me to get through such severe mental health problems by always having an open door and kettle on whenever i needed it. When i had nowhere else to go, i could get in the car and drive to hers and always be welcome. She isn't the easiest person to get along with but over the last few years we have built such a good relationship. And now she's going to go. It' is time for her to rest, she's had such a difficult life but this is going to be so hard. Please can you hold her in your thoughts and wish for a painfree, peaceful ending for her? It would really help me to know people are thinking of her.

@Concernedaboutgranny I'm so sorry. Poor granny and poor you. I hope she has an easy end. Sending hugs and 💐

Sending love ❤️

@Concernedaboutgranny.
You are in my prayers. May flights of Angels wing your granny to a peaceful painless rest.

@Concernedaboutgranny

All we ever want for our loved ones when the time comes is a peaceful end.

May love and light carry her gently on her way. 🌻 x

@Concernedaboutgranny I’m sorry I can’t express my thoughts as eloquently as the wonderful PPs. But we’re all holding you and your DG in our thoughts and prayers. And helping ease you both as much as we can.

She will always be with you.

@Concernedaboutgranny I'm sorry to hear this she's in my thoughts and prayers as are you. Take care.

I've had a few nights off the night shift but I'm signing in tonight.
All worries can binge watch "war of the worlds" with me whilst you get some rest.

@Concernedaboutgranny how are you tonight? I'll hold your nan in my thoughts.

Thank you so much for your kind words last night. It really was so comforting to know that someone out there was thinking about her and i slept better than i have done in weeks. You lovely, lovely people

I'm putting this here despot it being the middle of the day because I badly need some rest this afternoon and this won't have gone away by tonight.

My prescription wasn't there today, it's a daily one and the pharmacist had a go at me for not sorting it out. It's not my fault. I put in a reminder over a week ago. I ended up getting upset which meant they got more stroppy and my PTSD got triggered, I was stuck waiting over an hour in a crowded space with people in masks (a big trigger for me also). I kept with meds BUT no scripts for tomorrow or weekend and can't get my meds as emergency. I'm on daily ones due to safety risk if you get my drift but have ZERO help. It's just so unfair. Not helped by this arrogant pharmacist telling everyone to just pop to the GP; they're not open here for anything except medical emergencies e.g. I had tonsilitis and had to phone back when I couldn't speak (so bought antibiotics illegally online as that stage means hospital necessary).

I'm so sick and tired and exhausted. Everything I've tried to sort out help just bounces back "we're busy, phone us!" And I can't cope with phones.

I'm sorry it's not night and I'm sure this sounds really pathetic but I feel at the mercy of flashbacks that are bouncing me all over. Understanding being VERY thin on the ground

@Concernedaboutgranny I hope you're doing ok. I'm sorry for being so selfish as to post my worries. She and you will remain in my thoughts.

@Becca19962014 it is all horrific and terribly unfair. I'm so sorry.

I can only offer a hand to hold, a steering back to lean on, and a big virtual cuddle. I'm hoping that things get easier for you soon 💐

Well my day got even worse.

I've a water ring in my bathroom (which is basically a corner in my room); I've spent hours moving things into the bins, I'm not allowed my own so they've been filled now (I've a major hoarding proboem plus can't pick anything off the floor due to an injury that wasn't treated). Found bottles and things that were empty that may have leaked and a pile of what looked like foam (I think it's from old pads that got water in, some do go like that). Looked under toilet and it's dry. It could be the sink but near there was dry too.

I'm terrfied of my landlord.

My area has a major covid alert, something like 40% of people are reported as having covid and the hospital is at capacity. I can't have vaccine and it's far too dangerous to have ANYONE inside as everyone's just continuing as normal muttering about "double jabbed so it doesn't matter".

I'm shaking from fear. I don't know what to fucking do. There was an issue with the toilet a few weeks ago but that's not an issue anymore, perhaps it was that? Took long time to get through all the junk? I'm so fucking unwell right now. No rest. So I've an evening of seizures to look forward to on top and terrified my meds won't be there tomorrow which will mean 3 days without because of weekend and 111 won't give emergency prescription for my meds only paracetamol which is useless.

I'd do a thread but I'm too scared after what happened last time

Don't apologise for needing support. We all need support sometimes.

I'm a list maker. Would that work for you? Just a list of all the issues you have at the moment and it makes it easier to see which ones to tackle first? You can make the list on here just be careful of identifying info, be generic.

Is there anyway of changing pharmacies without having to make phone calls? My GP uses an online system where you can nominate pharmacies. Although last time all I had to do was go to any pharmacy in my town for a prescription...

Lists don't work for me. I end up feeling even more overwhealmed, I did try though it's incredibly hard to go through what I do without any support of even medication outside of the pain relief they allow me to have.

Only one pharmacy now and no option to change GP or do things online, again, like amazon(!) they expect people to have the most up to date technology. I did think of emailing but then googled the address they gave me and emails came up - so definitely not secure. I know I post here and it's really public but it's not the same.

My bathroom floor looks the same. But I'm really scared it'll get worse.

Then no lists @Becca19962014! And that's OK! I don't like feeling overwhelmed either.

Have you tried www.pharmacy2u.co.uk/? Shouldn't need fancy tech, avoids crowds and should arrive on time.

And for secure emails have you tried proton mail? Although I'm not sure I understood the problem there.

Then the toilet thing, just keep clearing away as much as you can between the seizures and pain. Sounds miserable but it will help in the long run.

I have work training to do tonight so just pass the worries over whenever and I can teach them about my sector

Sorry for sounding so ungrateful. I'm not in England so can't use that service; in in Wales. The email problem is it's not secure their end. When did a Google search of the address emails came up to and from patients. When I contacted the health board (confidentiality breach) they said it as fine as I could just use a PIN number, however, my medical conditions make me identifiable as two are so rare that I'm the only one in my health board with both.

I can't clear more alway. It's just not possible. I've a severe hoarding problem and it was devastating getting rid of what I did; I know that sounds utterly stupid. I've always had an issue but then I made the mistake of reaching out to a social worker who turned up and lied they were specialists in the issue, the next week they had a student they were going to send round with big bags to junk everything (this happened last time and is why I don't have a passport or anything like that as they literally declared all my belongings waste and chucked them outside). I've losf a lot of people close to me to suicide, I've letters and other things from them I cannot bear to lose - the student said I was being stupid and rediculous and needed to attach to people not stuff, I've no people in life who haven't hurt me. Literally no one. Including the social worker, who dumped me the moment covid hit same as my GP did - both lied about being closed and not seeing anyone, where I live is too small to tell such lies and get away with it - two of my abusers are helped by them and continued to have appointments when I was told they were "completely closed". It was devastating. Not to mention has severely effected my health (my PTSD having been partially caused by a dr so being seen was essential to help me cope with that).

It's so hard to explain and I'm hurting so much physically and mentally. The last couple of weeks I've not coped at all.

I'm going to leave this here. My device needs charging. I need rest but no idea if I can as I'm terrfied re toilet and needing to let someone in.

Why can't people just be honest?!

Thankyou!

Can someone worry for me about my brother?

And I’ll pick up tonight also. Sorry I have not been here.

I’ve got you Hanna.

And I have your brother.

I’ll sit here a while and try and side eye them into submission.

May sleep find you both and may your worries keep away long enough for you to rest 🌻 x

@SheldonesqueTheBstard thank you!