Bring your worries over here, the Night Shift are still here to mind them

[2018SoFarSoGreat]

New thread here, since the Last Thread has ever so slowly filled up. Isn't it amazing how little our worries crept up in the night when the world was actually one big worry?

Pandemic or not, this is the place to just park your worries. We don't ask questions, or try to solve your problems. We just hold them, tenderly, carefully, until you are strong enough to take them back. If they choose not to come back, all the better.

Signing in for the Night Shift, V3!

Also here to help mind any worries, just let them go for now and get some rest....

I’ll pass over my current money/car worries if I may, the work and MIL ones are already safely snuggled, possibly in norkage. I’m sorry I haven’t turned up to reclaim them feel free to dump them in lost property

Il take them @OnceUponAMidnightBeery, happy to! In return I'll lane my pre travel covid test tomorrow worries. I have dreamt the word Positive in huge letters every night this week. No reason to assume this, just the old anxiety popping up to remind me it is here.

Sleep well my lovelies. All shall be well. Or else!

I will leave. No lane involved 😍

Can't sleep.. I tried so hard to help my children to succeed and I have had it all thrown back in my face by DDs, with a little bit of help from mysoginistic assholes. I could see their potential and thought they were amazing, I just wanted others to see them the same way. Apparently I pushed them too hard and I have apologised endlessly for upsetting them. I was young and ambitious for them, I had high expectations because they were capable of so much. One dd has a really controlling partner and my ex's father has finally stepped up to be a grandfather. I feel that since he can't justify his son's behaviour (whole other thread) he is using any mistakes I have made to make me look equally bad. My daughters feelings are being exploited in order to hurt me and denigrate me in my daughter's eyes. We were so close..... I am devastated. I know that I made many mistakes, I had a horribly abusive childhood and I have mental health issues. Sorry to pile this on.... I know there are others suffering more than me.

@Phoenixrising2020 sorry to read this. If must really hurt. 💐 parenting is the hardest job in the world .

Leave that pain here for now . Regrets and self doubt . Park it all with us . We will hold it until you have the strength to figure it out . Until then, just rest . Let it be and just rest . That's it .

I'm up too. I'm so worried and stressed I've been waking every night. Marriage break up, house sold and purchase just fallen through before exchange. Now I'm homeless and needing to find accommodation from week to week for me and ds. What should have been a couple of weeks between houses is now open ended and I feel sick all the time. I'm in a better position than some, I have a job and will be able to afford to rent but I have nowhere now, living on the kindness of friends.

I blame my self, I trusted my sellers when they said they would move out when we were ready to exchange and now they have lost their purchase and won't. I've been so naive and have got us into this position. So much bad news recently, illnesses and other problems and I'm reaching the end of my rope. Lack of sleep makes everything worse.

2018, thank you so much for your kind words. My dh won't talk about anything sad so I am dealing with it alone. I will try to rest now. I just feel so lonely and unloved. I will let it go now and try to rest. Thank you.

@Countingdownnow that sounds horrendous. You poor thing!

You do need to sleep. Your body and mind need to rest. Go do that. Hand over the whole bag of worries and we will hold it tightly until you are rested. Go on. Leave it all with us. Sleep well.

I'm awake, I slept - so thank you @SheldonesqueTheBstard for that.
Anybody need a couple of hours rest, feel free to put them on my shoulders for a bit. I have a nice cup of tea a book and I'm chilling out in a quiet house. My DH says to me I should sleep more on a Saturday as often I am awake earlier than I am in the week, but truthfully, I love waking up early on a Saturday makes my favourite day longer.

Just in case anyone hasn't had any shut eye yet, my bag is not yet full and I can take a few more niggles.
You don't have to post, just wish them away for a little bit, put your phone down, close your eyes and get some sleep.
Even a few hours rest is worth it.

Snap!

Restless night, wish I'd popped in here earlier. Some of my team made an error that will affect the business in the long term. As the leader I feel responsible and just can't seem to pick myself back up let alone help to rebuild team morale. Not sure I can do it anymore.

whatever

Please allow us to let you rest tonight. If what has been done cannot be undone, then just park it for a minute and walk away.

Revisit it when you feel able and work out what could be done going forward - either preventative measures or something that could soften what has happened.

You won’t be able to see clearly with no sleep and sometimes it takes a wee step back.

Rest assured though, the fact that this is whirling round in your head means that you care. And sometimes that is half the battle in any position.

Work on yourself and then you can worry about the morale and how to move forward.

First you need rest and sleep. We’ve got you 🌻 x

@Cloudninenine my son did this. Someone told me to get a cd player and play story telling children's CDs not music. Didn't work first few nights but has worked eversince.

Thanks @hawkaye, I slept until 6.30 this morning for the first time in a while. More bad news from my friend's family today, his siblings are really going through it.

Sheldon

Thank you so much. You are so right, just hard to see the way ahead at the moment when I feel so low. It's not exactly a 'business' situation as in a caring setting. So all very upsetting. At the same time I had a problem with my eye ( and I only have sight in one eye) so it all kinda snowballed this week.
Anyway thank you and hope everyone else doing okay too x

whatever

Oh that puts a whole different spin on the work things - ye poor soul.

And problems with your eye as well - you must have been about frantic. Being tired and worrying about all concerned has just amplified everything by the sound of it.

I’ve no real words of wisdom - I’m not facing the worries you face. But we can carry the load if you need to sleep. Positive thoughts and hope winging their way to you. x

Tearing up now ( but that might help the sore eye!) . Thank you so so much. Strange how feeling I can put this down for a while is so helpful . X

@Couldhavebeenme3 oh I'm so glad. The tears were well behaved during the night. I hope you were rested enough to bear them during the day.

Well that's the pre travel Covid test done and negative. Huge phew. NOW I can get excited to come home.

Full of energy here so send over any worries or fears or pain, and I will tuck it in and keep a good eye on it as I pack. ❤️

I'm 31 and newly separated. 6 weeks. Ex cheated when I was 8 months pregnant (7months ago now) and there was so much more as well. I have a toddler and a baby. My mind is racing tonight. I wanted a third child, I wanted him, I wanted our life together, I wanted my kids to keep that happiness. And now I'm worried because what happens next- I'm worried I'll never trust again, that I'll never be able to look at ex without feeling such a deep longing and regret, worried I'll forever be on my own. Anyway it's helped just to write it out I think. Hopefully my mind can calm enough for sleep now.

My that's a large load of very fresh niggles you've got there @Cactuslove!
Why don't you just leave it with me eh? I promise not to feed them after midnight.

@2018SoFarSoGreat I'm glad something has gone well. Good luck with the journey itself when it does happen.

2018 happy packing 🌻

I'm a bit late for the night shift, but I feel so sad that I need to leave some of it here.

I'm sad and tired that life keeps kicking me in the teeth. I know it does for everyone but I really don't want it to anymore.

Dd is over whatever brain membrane infection she had. Dp who's huge brain haemorrhage had left his fighting to recover all his functions was doing so well. Getting more and more independent. Then on Friday he had a seizure. He was out on his own, so very much messed up his face teeth, and tongue when he fell. I track his phone and when I checked I could see he was at the hospital. He looked a state when I got there. Very confused and covered in blood, but with me (he still has aphasia), he was becoming more lucid and oriented.

CT scan showed no brain bleeding- but a seizure. He refused to be admitted- terrified he'd be in for months. So he discharged himself. He still needs to see a neurologist so I need to get his GP to refer him.

I'm just so sad that we we're getting a life together and this is a huge knock back. I have teenagers with all their concerns and a demanding job too. I was just about to go retreat with my yoga pals.

I picked up a water infection last time I was in hospital with dd and the surgery had a urine sample from me on Thursday but haven't called. It's just all these things.

Dp's family are honestly next to useless. They never do anything to help or even check in with him or me despite all their weeping by his bedside last year. Sorry that was unkind but I'm feeling a bit unkind.

I have great parents who are coming for coffee tomorrow. They will probably bring me flowers too. Dp won't let me tell his family but I need more support.

That's it. Thank you.