My original plans were very weather dependant and foiled by the forecast of heavy rain today. I didn't have anything else planned, but I thought we could just go out for a nice walk to the big park and playground nearby our house. On Friday I mentioned to my husband that I'd not made any lunch / dinner reservations because my original plan was to have us travel somewhere and we would have had food there, but since the weather was looking shit we likely wouldn't be able to do that, so I could either try and make a reservation somewhere locally or I could do a roast dinner (we never have roast dinners aside from holidays). He said we could do a roast dinner because we had some things in the freezer we could also use up like pigs in blankets, potatoes, etc. Yesterday we went to M&S and he chose a big organic chicken for today.
Then this morning I had the kids give him the couple gifts I got for him and their cards. He wanted to go to the gym, so he went and didn't get home for 2hrs which by then it was already late afternoon. I got myself and the kids ready and he had lunch and the. We walked down to the park and playground. Bumped into some friends and he sat on the grass with his friend while I took the kids to the playground. Then got home at 5:30 - much later than we originally planned (last night we both agreed we wanted to try and have dinner at 5) so I didn't get the chicken in the oven until 5:45. I got the rest of the dinner prepared - pigs in blankets, roast potatoes, green beans, asparagus, and homemade cauliflower cheese. Everyone including the kids enjoyed it and had seconds. (I was worried the kids would be so tired and hungry they'd act up but they gobbled it all up and had seconds). I was feeling positive about the day like it had gone well.
About half an hour ago I was trying to joke around with him and had a circular piece of plastic I was going to throw in the bin. I joked and said I got him a new ring for Fathers Day and he didn't look impressed. Then he let it out that he’s disappointed with his Father’s Day because I’ve not made it special enough and haven’t shown our appreciation for him enough today. He said he doesn't think he's been given the respect he deserves for being such a great dad and doing everything that he does. (He literally thinks he does more than any other dad in the world).
So now I feel shit. Not because I think he deserves more - he's a big fucking baby. But just because I was feeling ok about the day, but now I feel a sinking hollow feeling in my chest that just makes me want to hate myself.
Anyways, I just wanted to know what other people do for their husbands? Do you go all out? Above and beyond? Did I really make such a shitty effort? 😕